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Diet kick start (Day 1)

2012-02-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

Finally I find the determination to kick start my diet... hopefully I can succeed and stay on with it... it gonna be a forever thing... what to do when you're born big boned and easily gain weight... dieting perphap is the best solution to weight management, which I totally agree to it.

I truly believe that exercise, body workout is a way to keep fit, to tone but never a way for slimming. You can't eat as much and workout to lose weight. Diet always play a very important part. A absolute No No to clash diet which I did during my younger times (19 yrs old) , medication is another No No, cos my body is not responding to it anymore, not to mention those on the shelf items, my body don't even respond to reductil anymore. And medication makes tummy! my tummy is bigger than before. Dieting is still the best.

So how to diet? meal replacement! Cos I hate those strict diet, what beet roots, peas, rubbish, I hate it to the core! it make me puke. And dieting is not about starving yourself. So i go for meal replacement. I try cambridge diet, totally hate that chocolate flavour shit! its awful, same goes to Xando! so far LFI works for me... but the cost is driving me crazy! and they don't have variety of flavours... Zzz... it bored me after months... So I go for herbalife... I havent get to see the result as I just started today - full swing... But no doubt I have had almost 3 bottle of F1 shakes (I didn't follow the rules... so...) I got tired over vanilla flavour and I start taking chocolate one which go perfectly with strawberry yogurt drink (you will be surprise with the wonderful taste)... Recently I manage to get hold of Cookie & Cream flavour (US version), its fantastic! The cookie bits add abit of crunch to the shakes and with just plain ice water, its good enough. A much heavier flavour, blend it with HL milk, its perfect!

Got my research from http://myh3rbalif3.blogspot.com/ which serve a very good guide for my new diet. Do check out the blog, welly written except that there's bits of malay words here and there which I don't understand. Go get this free app from "MyFitnessPal", its a calories tracker which aids in my diet.

Everything start off well... but calories intake is too low, gonna improve it tomorrow. Hopefully the result will show as planned. I'll continue to work hard and stay focus So am able to wear beautiful wedding grown, take nude wedding studio shots and my love will be able to carry me up like a baby ("princess-carry")...

Pimple Face! - 救星来了

2012-02-07T14:44:00.009+08:00

Born with Good Complexion
I would say I always have a very good skin complex since young, thou' I hate veggies. Many of my relatives, the aunties keep complimenting my good complexion, asking about my diet and got a shock that without much veggie intake, I can still have such a good skin. In comparsion, my sis have quite a bad complexion. She is prone to have acnes especially during her teenage days, she got a bad outbreak. I can still remember that she went for a facial when she like 15, and end up got her face worse. Her face are all red and swollen, suffering from all the pain, the woe didn't get any better, probably the roots of the acnes still remain inside the skin, hence, it got worsen. As bad as I always were, I will say things like 'don't spread the pimple germs to me!' And am always proud when people made comparsion of us (thou am much fatter than her! humpf!). I never need to do skincare, I just put on make up to cover my dark eye circles.

Acnes Never is a Teenage Thing
I always thot that pimples, acnes are a teenage woe, never did I expect that these problem will come to me when I was 25 years old. Not sure if its due to stress, diet or hormone imbalance, I got my share of 豆豆 (beans - pimples) when I'm like mid 20s. Now my turn to face the nonsense... my sis came to me and say 'last time u mock at me, now u facing this issue as well', at that moment, my sis acne issue had subsided. And all my aunties will say 'What happen to your face? you use to have very good complexion, what is happening? you didn't take care of it?'. Worse, my friends 'Wow! you under alot of stress ah!'... Totally Sad...

Very own Secret Remedy that never works!
Remedy 1 - squeeze the shit out of it
One of my bad habit is that I can't resist myself to squeeze all the acnes. Remember the app in iPhone, the game that you have to squeeze the zits, that is totally for me because just can't control myself but to squeeze all the bumps.
Yes! squeeze it, with bare hand, with extractor.

and end up I have a red, swollen spot on my face. If am lucky, the redness will go away in a few days. If not, the volcano will erupt again.

Remedy 2 - Facial
Sign up a facial package but I hate the hassle of travelling to the spa salon, and get scolding when u apply make up. There therapists are a horror to me, they will not only nag at u about putting on heavy make up that clog the pores and when they extract the blackheads and whiteheads, I feel like tearing my head apart! Its so bloody painful! hate it so totally. And don't expect instant result, not a patient person, I rather do my tissue mask at home.
And end up having a lot of tissue mask at home, bought them at Taiwan, korea. Cheap and easy to apply but the result is slow or none.
My sis tried another facial treatment which is known as 换肤(changing of skin), its a 2 weeks treatment or so, will have to go to the saloon very day or very other day for the 2 entrie weeks. The horror is that it will force out all the hidden blackhead and whitehead and cause more acnes, which in these 2 weeks, no make up, and more acnes will appear, skin will start peeling. No and must not touch the face. And it say that after it the skin will be free of acnes. But bullshit. My sis is still having the same problem after some times. And OH MY GOD! no make up and yet acnes full force! How to face the world with that?! its like the worse days of my life! And I beg I will never be able to resist the temptation to squeeze the zits...

Remedy 3 - Oral intake
Vit C! Vit C helps in not only your health but your skin. and excessive intake of vit C will not harm the body, it also help in skin recovery. So yup, I took it, hmmm... probably it helps, I don't get much mouth ulcers as before, as for skin.... no feeling, no instance signs to show whether it works for skin or it don't.
Another powerful remedy is contraceptive pill.

It works like miracle! My sis took it and yes! its a miracle pill. She is acnes free, no PMS, period are all on-time.
BUT soon, the sweet dreams were over when she is planning her marriage. She cut away the pills. and all the woes are back, it got worsen! more acnes, and her menstrual cycle is in a mess. Her period was late as long as 3 months. The sad case is when she went to the Gynecologist, she was told that she have pregnency difficulties. As she is preparing for her wedding day, she have no choice but to go back to the pills. Finally she stop the intake after her wedding. And yes! it got very very bad and even her back is full of acnes. But at least there's good news, she is pregnent for 2 months. =)

Last Resort
Trying out the product on the shelf, however there are just too many. And which is good? you will have to trial and error to spot the right one. Its great when there are cheap tropical treatment cream that cost probably SGD$10 and below (which usually do not work that well). But when it come to those recognice brands, it can go up to as much as SGD$50 or even SGD$100 over. Trial and error techique can be one of the most cost inefficient method of all. And all the 'not-finished' products will be left to rot on the makeup table.
Till date I'm still trying my luck to get something which suits me, which works...

Worries No More 救星来了!
Therapeutic Dermatologic Formula (TDF) is here to help. Not only something on the shelf, this clinically proven physician-strength solutions can effectively treat, repair and prevent persistent acne blemishes from recurring.

A little history of TDF to share:
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Nothing to Lose, Lots to GAIN
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Free Victoria's Secret USD$10 voucher to be given away

2012-02-06T11:59:00.003+08:00

Hi Reader,

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Do note that its valid till 14th Feb 2012 and for online purchase only.

Thank you.

Spree for Fit Flop Frou

2012-02-04T15:50:00.003+08:00

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Facebook Boaster

2012-02-04T09:00:00.002+08:00

Reading thru' my Facebook (FB) news feed... It may be entertaining but at times I just feel disgusted... I can't take it when people try to boast about their belongings... posting photos of the things they bought, the branded goods they have... (Thou' am one of them too, ya ya, am slapping myself, thats y I deleted that album) E.g. I bought a *LB* Lu Lu Bag for SGD$6879.99, adding to my collection of *LB*s... Zzz... Hello! do u really think that we don't know about the price of this bag?! and it simply sound stupid when the same exact bag is selling SGD$1000+++ years back and now u spend like 4 or 5 times higher for it... Well, u may say they post it up cos they are just been overjoyed that they finally pluck the courage to dump the money in the boutique... right, but do they need to like indicate the cost?! without indicating the brand, we already know that this designer bag cost a bomb! needless for them to introduce it to that detail... I mean just remove that bloody price tag thingy, if only now you are trying to sell off that bag, trying to tell everyone about the retail price...

So u admit that it boasting?! There's only a handful of those who are really so rich to the extend, you are just speechless when they post photos of their business class seat in the topline commercial planes... endless photos of their 1st class air tix... even by accident, you saw the collar of their house pet is of Louis vuitton (one of my all-time favourite) in a lifestyle photo of their... you can just drool and wish you were them... cos ya, their life move on as usual without feeling the pinch...

And hate it when people boast about how much they had earn... if you're one of the local politician, i salute you cos yeah... you do earn lots of money! and can buy loads of kate spade...
Other than that, don't boast! cos many people in this country earn alot without spending more than 8 hrs a day on their works... If you got one of those atas jobs, e.g. doctors, lawyers, directors of established firms, than yes... I admire you and wish to be your salve so as to share your fortune... if you are not, save all this nonsense to yourself or your love one... probably you don't have many love ones to share your pride... that I have to shout Upset for you...

Okay, back to me... Yes! I have teochew blood in me... Am born "Hao Lian" (proud)... I love to show off what I have... but i try my best to control... but I do shop smartly k... other than those prestige brand that never go on sale and I insist not getting the 2nd-hand which I do have to admit I don't have many of it (cos am not a wealthy person)... other items like my pair of new fit flop frou which I bought online from oversea, almost half the original price... and Dr Dre Beats earphone which I bought from BigDeal.com at discounted rate... and iLuv ipod/iphone docking system which I bought from Groupon... mi too love to have a collection of Louis Vuitton Daimer series of item... working hard to complete my collection - (not as in the full range) but at least when i flip open my LV bag, i found same design wallet, coin purse, key holder, cosmetic pouch, iphone case(which i chose to get a similar design cos the original one is a slot in pouch type that i don't want, i need a hard case to hug my iphone tightly and prevent it from scratch)... I do want to show off and tell the whole wide world about my desire... but i just kept quiet.. cos my desire is mine... i don't want my desire to breed jealousy, to breed unhappiness...
but i can't stop my 'hao-lian'ness.. so... i blog...

There's only few things that people over-post on FB and yet I felt *love*... There's frens of mine who post photo of their kids... the different facial expressions, the everyday fancy dresses and clothings... I just felt pure love.. Photos of pets do make me feel the same way too... as a dog lover and a dog owner, i enjoy seeing other people loving their pets... its to be love and not to be bad-treat... (And I dont understand how not to love kids and dogs, they are just so pur and innoncent...)... I love family, frens and love photo (love as in couples, wedding photos, not like bedroom stunt photos)... all this make me happy Thou' at times seeing photo of frens (cos i always felt I do not have much frens now - to be share in my other post) do make me feel envious... but i have my ash, my love who never leave me, my family who always there, am contented...

Please people, breeds love and happiness, not ego and unhappiness...

Ego & Desire Breeds Unhappiness

2012-02-03T15:27:00.001+08:00

A man asked Lord Buddha
"I want happiness"
Lord Buddha said
First remove the "I" That's EGO
Then remove "want" That's DESIRE
See now you are left with only
"HAPPINESS"

Hence, Ego & Desire Breeds Unhappiness

Extreme dog lover - Ash part 1

2012-01-29T23:23:00.004+08:00

Once, there's this friend of mine saying, a dog love can't be a bad ass... How true is it?

My boy, ash, is coming to 9... he is still as active and playful, however as years passed... I got more and more worried... just afraid that one day he will leave me and know for sure... this day will come (at least a higher percentage that he will leave before me)... I dont know what will happen to me...

Especially when sis moved out of the house, ash become more attached to me each day... Thou this boy of me don't stay in a big house, have many doggy companions at home.. but i'll say he is one of those lucky pup out there. The family love him, be in my dad or my mum... he do put in his effort being a very nice pet of the family... this funny boy will do silly things like stealing my parent's house slippers, not able to find the rubber bony when I play fetch with him... trying his luck to run away from home when the door is open...

Runaway Dog
I can still remember the time when I saw this doggy at the lift lobby while I sending my love, Zen, to the elevator.. I was thinking: "wow! this dog really look so much like my ash boi". Have a better look at it, it is my boy!!! shock the hell outta me.. I quickly fetch him back home... and worse ever, just one day before my sis's wedding day, we held a gathering at our place... The door is kept open as there so many visitor coming to the house... and at a moment, ash is no where to be seen! Fear of losing our boy, we went up and down the block, even the void deck, the multi-storey carpark, the park... with tears in my eyes, i keep praying "ash.. please come back to me... i can't do without u... please be safe... please come back..." and after a search of probably 2 or 3 hours, Zen manage to find me at the end of the level 6 corridor... the mischevious boy is waving his tails when he saw him... hugging him really tight, just couldn't stop tearing... I really can't imagine what will happen to me if he leave...
and this act of him, make him famous in my neighbourhood, he is then known as 'the runaway dog'... Zzz...

Taking care of the Boy
Ash is a Shih Tzu, but he don't look like a pure breed. he is slightly bigger in size, his nose is not as short, he don't have crossed eyes (which many many shih tzu I saw have it) so i believe he is probably a maltese-shih tzu mixed...
A little tips from Dogs 101, dogs with short dog tend to get tired and is lazier than dogs with sharp nose.. So ash is consider as lazy... he sleep more of the time and makes a good pet for a typical HDB flat which there isn't much space for him to run around... The long fur coat require much grooming which can be rather costly at times... frequent brushing and combing is absolutely need to keep his coat tangle-free... I try to make a point to brush his coat everyday when its long to the extend that it get tangle easily... he love the brushing session a lot... his eyes tend to tears at time, cleaning with eye solution and feeding him with supplement to control excessive tear will help him to be free of ugly tear stain...
*shall be continue*

As he aged...
I'll say whoever who wants a pet dog have to really consider on the responsiblilties involve in getting one... it might be cute, but its just like a human baby, it make noise, cry, pee, shit, playful, destructive, the hazzle of keeping it in good condition, his health, be it mentally or physically... its alot alot of effort! but once u know the reason for doing all this, you will just do it unconditionally.. Just like me... am a super lazy bum, thanks to my lovely mum who does everything for me, cook me food, wash my laundry, iron my clothes, change my bedsheets... until I got this dog (so not easy to get my mum's approval - to be share in future post), I cherish him... so much that I will clear his poo and pee as i told myself "u want him, u must do these chores". As he age, I begin to worry about his well-being, I will check out the supplements, feed him regularly, check on his coat, eyes, ears,etc. The more I spend my days with him, the love get deeper and deeper... I saw post on people giving their old pets which is at the age of 9 or 10, it totally pain me and puzzle me. How these bloody idiots bear to give their pet away when they had been by their side for the past years... Just become they are old, and these people find the pet troublesome to take care of or the increase in cost to maintain the pets? I don't understand... for me, I can't! totally not able to do it! even if one day it faces health issue, it still have to be with me... Its not just a dog but the dog, the loyalty that no one can replace... and ya... I'll love him forever...

my ash when he is 8...

Goodness me... Its rotten...

2012-01-27T17:49:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh! when I login to blogger, I smell a stink.. its my blog page got rotten! Oh gosh.. its have been left in the open space for far too long... no updates.. no nothing... (even my body had went out of shape, how can my blog page stay fresh without updated?!)

My Cbox been flood by nonsense people...

Life have been rather down to earth these days... not as youthful as b4, not as adventurous, not as energetic... no more late night clubbings... just enjoying the simplest bliss with my love and my family... Things have changed, age had took control over me... skin are aging, fine lines are appearing, Fats are hard to be shaken off, tummy getting bloated... Zzz...

Still, DeSoLoGy will still works.. It born within, just react naturally.. non-stop analysing human behaviour... making a sense out of everything, every reaction of individuals... trying to understand people, trying to understand the logic behind each action or rather the mindset.. but afterall it mine and my own analysis... take it or leave it, its totally up to you...
By understanding, I try to improve myself.. but no one is perfect... There is still a part of me who is been jealousy, envious over some others life...being Ignorant and arrogant... Still trying to stay in my own comfort zone... however... I'll share every little thing, every little thots.. and yup.. I'll have to probably keep this fresh!

*Stay Tune*

犀利人妻

2011-06-13T12:12:00.003+08:00

在爱情的世界里，不被爱的那个才是第三者。

simplicity

2011-05-26T11:03:00.003+08:00

Ewww... clearing off all the cob webs...
Well... nothing special in life... everything were just simple, ordinary... ordinary sweet...

its been a yr since the blog been abandone...

life for me had totally changed... perphaps it growing up...
group of frens change, worklife change, love life change, mentality change...

finally found someone who can be trusted, can be lean on... believing in love, believing in marriage... everyday just me & u, me & u, me & u...

no more clubbing... no more aimlessly hanging around...
just work... slp... rest... tv, movie, food...

perphaps this is the simplicity that am always looking out for... *bliss*

I.T. Guru

2010-05-02T01:04:00.002+08:00

u will nv believe that am jus really so crazy abt jay chou... finally i got the tix... hee... thru M1... subscribe to a new mobile contract plus a home broadband bring u a pair of jay's concert tix... thou its miserable $98 seats but better den nth at all..

and it gave me a chance to visit sim lim... cos M1 broadband dun come wif router... and i seriously can't live without a router... well, spend $50+ on a router and $70 on a external DVD writer... urgh... in case u guys wonder y i get a dvd writer, it due to a great fall for my lappy, my internal dvd drive become faulty... and ya... after so many mths i decided to do something...

anyway, its so interesting out there... and only den i realize... I was been cheated for money some times back in Sim Lim... tat bloody guy who i bought the bloody ex DS charger from, who den also charge me damn ex for the screen protector and clear case... he try to cheat me by asking me to replace my R4 wif R4 upgrade and claim tat the old R4 not outdated and can't play those latest DS games... today when i head back to the same shop, another guy told me that its a total bullshit! oh damn it... curse tat rubbish man... no wonder when i ask for R4 upgrade ppl give me that 'question mark' face... ended up i ask abt wii... having a big headache whether to take a mod set or not... mod set can play downloaded games but easily damage... but leave it till later, not gonna get it so soon...

and so wat's the 'in' thing now...? they got this thumb drive size device which allow u to gain access to china tv channel, tw channels, movies, etc, on ur comp... $150++
and the other device, something like a SCV cable which connect to ur tv set and stream movie thru the network... tat cost ard $250++
am rather tempted to get another device which is the media player, it connect your tv set to ur hard disk, so u can watch all downloaded clip thru TV and no more staring @ lappy screen... cheapest @ $39 but i spent enough for all these so shall give it a miss..

lastly, do check out sim lim for all the new technology... interesting indeed...

Selfishness

2010-04-13T13:09:00.002+08:00

Lagi f**king dulan... kns... beh tahan all the selfish fuck at work... not the 1st time... information not pass down den end up, who take the blame, who face the stupid music...

rubbish wking environment... simply sux lah... system not welly establish and yet such a big organization still practise like those stupid fuck up mini contractor firm... jus a kns plc sia... lucky am on contract... after one yr, i'll jus leave the plc, and throw the whole junk back to who tat deserve most... wat the hell sia...

Little lizards make big money

2010-01-20T16:21:00.001+08:00

JAKARTA - A TINY Indonesian lizard has become big business for impoverished villagers in Indonesia, where growing Asian demand for reptile-based traditional medicines has driven a boom in gecko farming.

Geckos - the pale, soft-skinned lizard with a distinctive call - are abundant in Indonesia and are believed by Chinese and Korean traditional medicine devotees to help cure cancer as well as skin and respiratory diseases.

In rural Banjarsawah village, on the eastern half of Java island, struggling farmers have discovered geckos make a surprisingly lucrative commodity. Tohasyim, 32, a farmhand who earns 10,000 rupiah (S$1.39) a day feeding other people's cattle, now makes 1 million rupiah or about US$110 a month hunting geckos in a local forest.

'I start hunting the geckos in the evening after I finish my job, feeding other people's cattle. I normally start hunting the geckos at 6 in the evening until 5 in the morning,' said Tohasyim, who, like many Indonesians, has only one name.

The industry began four years ago when one villager, Abdurrahman, began drying geckos at home and selling them to an exporter. Now, more than 100 hunters scour the forest nightly catching the skittering lizards and delivering them to Abdurrahman, 40, who delivers them to the exporter.

Most villagers in Banjarsawah are now involved in dried gecko production. Hunters venture into the forest in groups of four or five, wearing battery-powered head lamps and catching the lizards with their gloved hands. About a dozen workers, mostly housewives, spend days stretching, drying, and packing the lizards. They often work from 7 in the morning to 4 in the afternoon in the dark woven bamboo house of the industry's owner. When demand is high, they work even longer. These workers earn about 20,000 rupiah per day. -- REUTERS

Year 2010

2010-01-16T15:49:00.002+08:00

wow... tats fast... a yr gone... what can i say... a pretty tough year that i hav been thru'... the poorest year of my life... but still its not the worse... at least i experience how is it like to build ur own empire, thou' i din really succeed but i dun see myself as a loser... cos i gain experience that no one does... at least i tried, tats y no regret... not been spending like i did in the past years... again... desolo had always a lot of wants tat are un-fulfilled... i guess i should stick on to my career for the time being... as for biz... i prefer to do it as an interest or passion rather den a money earning tools... i guess the best i got from 2009 is that i got myself a guy who may not be the best but just the right person... jus so many things tat i prefer to keep it to myself den to share... so wassup for 2010? so many new yr resolution... thou' it come a little late but yup.. still not too late... there u goes:

DeSoLo's new yr resolution:
1. To travel to Jakarta, visit my inker gang... (which definitely will come thru in Apr)
2. To lose weight (which am doing so but still working on it)
3. To Learn driving
4. To pick up foreign language (should be Indonesia Bahasa, so that i can communicate with my tattooists)
5. To start joint saving with Dar, at least a $250 each per mth for marriage.
6. To go for makeover photo shoot with Ash & Dar
7. To go for my graduation family photo shoot
8. To complete my 2 tattoos: Gecko & Libra lady (am tired of all my 80% in progress work, i got to be stronger & bear the pain)
9. To expand my back tattoo
10. To renovate my room (tat hav to wait till sis moved out)
11. To travel to one of the beach hotel with dar

So far it should be jus that... other plans will be my life plan...
still considering... should i go into interior design? pick up professional photography? learn inking so as to bring my group of inkers to SG?

Instructions For Life

2009-12-17T01:51:00.001+08:00

§ Give
people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

§ Memorize your favorite poem.

§ Don’t believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

§ When you say, “I love you”, mean it.

§ When you say, “I’m sorry”, look the person in the eye.

§ Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

§ Believe in love at first sight.

§ Never laugh at anyone’s dreams.

§ Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it’s the only way to live life completely.

§ In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

§ Don’t judge people by their relatives.

§ Talk slowly but think quickly.

§ When someone asks you a question you don’t want to answer, smile and ask, “Why do you want to know?”

§ Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

§ Call your mom.

§ Say “bless you” when you hear someone sneeze.

§ When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

§ Remember the three R’s: Respect for self; Respect for others; Responsibility for all your actions.

§ Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

§ When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

§ Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

§ Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

§ Spend some time alone.

§ Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.

§ Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

§ Read more books and watch less TV.

§ Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll get to enjoy it a second time.

§ Trust in God but lock your car.

§ A loving atmosphere in your home is so important. Do all you can to create a tranquil harmonious home.

§ In disagreements with loved ones, deal with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.

§ Read between the lines.

§ Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.

§ Be gentle with the earth.

§ Pray. There’s immeasurable power in it.

§ Never interrupt when you are being flattered.

§ Mind your own business.

§ Don’t trust a man/woman who doesn’t close his/her eyes when you kiss.

§ At least once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.

§ If you make a lot of money, put it to use helping others while you are living. That is wealth’s greatest satisfaction.

§ Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a stroke of luck.

§ Learn the rules then break some.

§ Remember that the best relationship is one where your love for each other is greater than your need for each other.

§ Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

§ Remember that your character is your destiny.

§ Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

What A Dog Teaches

2009-12-17T01:44:00.000+08:00

A dog teaches us a lot of things, but we never seem to take notice. These are some
of the lessons you might learn…

· When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.

· Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride.

· Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure ecstasy.

· When it’s in your best interest, practice obedience.

· Let others know when they’ve invaded your territory.

· Take naps and stretch before rising.

· Run romp and play daily.

· Thrive on attention and let people touch you.

· Avoid biting, when a simple growl will do.

· On warm days stop to lie on your back on the grass. On hot days drink lots of water and lay under a shady tree.

· When you’re happy dance around and wag your entire body.

· No matter how often you’re scolded don’t buy into the guilt thing and pout. Run
right back and make friends.

· Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.

· Eat with gusto and enthusiasm, stop when you have had enough.

· Be loyal.

· Never pretend to be something you’re not.

· If what you want lies buried dig until you find it.

· When someone is having a bad day be silent, sit close by… and nuzzle them gently.

10 Principles for Peace of Mind

2009-12-17T01:38:00.000+08:00

1. Do Not Interfere In Others' Business Unless Asked:

Most of us create our own problems by interfering too often in others' affairs. We do so because somehow we have convinced ourselves that our way is the best way, our logic is the perfect logic and those who do not conform to our thinking must be criticized and steered to the right direction, our direction. This thinking denies the existence of individuality and consequently the existence of
God.. God has created each one of us in a unique way.

No two human beings can think or act in exactly the same way. All men or women act the way they do because God within them prompts them that way. Mind your own business and you will keep your peace.

2. Forgive And Forget:

This is the most powerful aid to peace of mind. We often develop ill feelings inside our heart for the person who insults us or harms us. We nurture grievances. This in turn results in loss of sleep, development of stomach ulcers, and high blood pressure. This insult or injury was done once, but nourishing of grievance goes on forever by constantly remembering it. Get over this bad habit. Life is too short to waste in such trifles. Forgive,20Forget, and march on. Love flourishes in giving and forgiving.

3. Do Not Crave For Recognition:

This world is full of selfish people. They seldom praise anybody without selfish motives. They may praise you today because you are in power, but no sooner than you are powerless, they will forget your achievement and will start finding faults in you. Why do you wish to kill yourself in striving for their recognition? Their recognition is not worth the aggravation. Do your duties ethically and sincerely.

4. Do Not Be Jealous:

We all have experienced how jealousy can disturb our peace of mind. You know that you work harder than your colleagues in the office, but sometimes they get promotions; you do not. You started a business several years ago, but you are not as successful as your neighbor whose business is only one year old. There are several examples like these in everyday life. Should you be jealous? No.

Remember everybody's life is shaped by his/her destiny, which has now become his/her reality. If you are destined to be rich, nothing in the world can stop you. If you are not so destined, no one can help you either. Nothing will be gained by blaming others for your misfortune. Jealousy will not get you anywhere; it will only take away your peace of mind.

5. Change Yourself According To The Environment:

If you try to change the environment single-handedly, the chances are you will fail. Instead, change yourself to suit your environment. As you do this, even the environment, which has been unfriendly to you, will mysteriously change and seem congenial and harmonious.

6. Endure What Cannot Be Cured:

This is the best way to turn a disadvantage into an advantage. Every day we face numerous inconveniences, ailments, irritations, and accidents that are beyond our control. If we cannot control them or change them, we must learn to put up with these things. We must learn to endure them cheerfully. Believe in yourself and you will gain in terms of patience, inner strength and will power.

7. Do Not Bite Off More Than You Can Chew:

This maxim needs to be remembered constantly. We often tend to take more responsibilities than we are capable of carrying out. This is done to satisfy our ego. Know your limitations. . Why take on additional loads that may create more worries? You cannot gain peace of mind by expanding your external activities. Reduce your material engagements and spend time in prayer, introspection and
meditation. This will reduce those thoughts in your mind that make you restless. Uncluttered mind will produce greater peace of mind.

8. Meditate Regularly:

Meditation calms the mind and gets rid of disturbing thoughts. This is the highest state of peace of mind. Try and experience it yourself. If you meditate earnestly for half an hour everyday, your mind will tend to become peaceful during the remaining twenty-three and half-hours. Your mind will not be easily disturbed as it was before.

You would benefit by gradually increasing the period of daily meditation. You may think that this will interfere with your daily work. On the contrary, this will increase your efficiency and you will be able to produce better results in less time.

9. Never Leave The Mind Vacant:

An empty mind is the devil's workshop. All evil actions start in the vacant mind. Keep your mind occupied in something positive, something worthwhile. Actively follow a hobby. Do something that holds your interest. You must decide what you value more: money or peace of mind. Your hobby, like social work or religious work, may not always earn you more money, but you will have a sense of fulfillment and achievement. Even when you are resting physically, occupy yourself in healthy reading or mental chanting of God's name.

10. Do Not Procrastinate And Never Regret:

Do not waste time in protracted wondering " Should I or shouldn't I?" Days, weeks, months, and years may be wasted in that futile mental debating. You can never plan enough because you can never anticipate all future happenings. Value your time and do the things that need to be done.

It does not matter if you fail the first time. You can learn from your mistakes and succeed the next time. Sitting back and worrying will lead to nothing. Learn from your mistakes, but do not brood over the past. DO NOT REGRET. Whatever happened was destined to happen only that way. Why cry over spilt milk?.

Tips For Better Life

2009-12-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

3. Sleep for 7 hours.

4. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.

5. Play more games.

6. Read more books than you did the previous year.

7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.

8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

9. Dream more while you are awake.

10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

11. Drink plenty of water.

12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

13. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.

14. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

15. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

16. Realise that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

18. Smile and laugh more.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.

20. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

21. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

22. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.

23. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don’t compare your partner with others.

24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

25. Forgive everyone for everything.

26. What other people think of you is none of your business.

27. GOD heals everything.

28. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

29. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

30. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

31. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

32. The best is yet to come.

33. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

34. Do the right thing!

35. Call your family often.

36. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.

37. Each day give something good to others.

38. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.

39. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.

40. Don’t be more calculative in your life for all things.

Take charge of your life

2009-10-27T12:38:00.002+08:00

in this sale trade since beginning of the year... and finally i realize alot of thing... the human joke... wat human joke? ppl who keep complaining abt the whole wide world but nv take action to pull themselves out of the dung! funny isn't it?

if u think educated ppl can earn big bucks, den go ahead and upgrade urself, be an educated person and work as a high paid management level associate.

If u think only bosses can earn big bucks, den take the challenge... no pain no gain... be ur own boss! be in sales! sell urself! wat can i say, marketing is everything! its all abt selling ur product, selling urself~!

If u keep complaining abt the whole wide world and claim tat u ain't the kind who can study, claim that u ain't the kind who can do sales, claim that u not the kind who can be boss, den quit complaining abt pay not enough, lifestyle not gd, money not enough, boss is mean, colleague sux, workplace politics! cos guess wat, serve urself rite, cos its u who refuse to get out of this dung! i have enough of nonsense from ppl who are stuck in shit and tell me 'hmmmm... its ok lah, am not interested in this kind of job, this kind of biz'! rubbish! u r at the verge of the cliff and yet u refuse to hold on to the survivor rope! u're nth diff from committing suicide!!! this kind of person should jus go and die... the thing is its fine that u die, but its the innocent kids that r left behind suffering... to me, kids are nv born to experience sufferings... they should enjoy like a kids and not take the rubbish create by the adults during their childhood time! but always, there r brainless and stupid ppl ard!

Buddhism have one saying: you dun offer the beggar money but show them, teach them how to earn a living. even if i hav the money, i won't lend these irresponsible idiots a single cent, they wan it, they earn it and not borrow and nv return!

i can't be the one carry u ard, i can only be the one teaching u how to walk!

i respect my sis, thou she always say that she dun hav a biz mind, thou she rejected my biz offer, but she noe what she wan and she still climbing up her ladder of success...

be focus, noe wat u wan and do wat u wan. cos the world won't change for jus u, but u can change for the world and create wat u wan...

曲名：练习歌手：刘德华

2009-10-11T12:23:00.003+08:00

如果留下多一秒钟
可以减少明天想你的痛
我会愿意放下所有
交换任何一丝丝可能的占有
幸福只剩一杯沙漏
眼睁睁看着一幕幕甜蜜
不会再有原来平凡无奇的拥有
到现在竟像是无助的奢求
我已开始练习
开始慢慢着急
着急这世界没有你
已经和眼泪说好不哭泣
但倒数计时的爱该怎么继续
我天天练习
天天都会熟悉
在没有你的城市里
试着删除每个两人世界里
那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆
~music~
幸福只剩一杯沙漏
眼睁睁看着一幕幕甜蜜
不会再有原来平凡无奇的拥有
到现在竟像是无助的奢求
我已开始练习
开始慢慢着急
着急这世界没有你
已经和眼泪说好不哭泣
但倒数计时的爱该怎么继续
我天天练习
天天都会熟悉
在没有你的城市里
试着删除每个两人世界里
那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆
爱是一万公顷的森林
迷了路的却是我和你
不是说好一起闯出去
怎能剩我一人回去
回去/
我已开始练习
开始慢慢着急
着急这世界没有你
已经和眼泪说好不哭泣
但倒数计时的爱该怎么继续
我天天练习
天天都会熟悉
在没有你的城市里
试着删除每个两人世界里
那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆
那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆

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I laugh at myself as i hide away my mobile...
I'm wondering how long this withdrawal syndromes last...

Finally, i realized... You don't deserve...

Attending Boss Guan's festival

2009-08-17T18:54:00.004+08:00

This is a very special yet interesting post... its kinda, hmmmm, i mean very religious... so if ya very sensitive abt religious stuffs... hmmm... better skip this entry... :)

well, had spent my last weekend at 關龍殿善堂, wonder wat's that? its a sin tua... hmmm... ya noe, taoism, the 'temple' that they worship their god... over here, they worship 关帝爷, whom we known as 关公, 关羽... yup yup, the one that u watch in red cliff, read in the historical novel: Romance of the Three Kingdoms. As everyone noe that he was respect for his loyalty and righteousness, until today he's still being greatly respect and worship by the people...

Thanks to dearie... my 1st real encounter with a sin tua... well, i hav been there quite a few times, so wat ppl doing over there? other den praying, during the lunar 1st and 15th of the mth, there are routine events gng on, for consultation... hmmm... dearie been there since his teenage, just out of curiosity, i 1st step into the sin tua 2 mths+ ago, wanting to take a look at the biggest "guan di ye" statue in singapore, he's standing at a height abt 2.5m. After that i often join dearie to the sin tua, din really pray but just accompany him :p

to be exact, that's not totally my 1st encounter. however, the time when i came across with all this stuffs, i'm only abt 7 or younger den that... i dun exactly noe what actually gng on, just seeing some trancing of gods, how exactly it happen or how it stop, i totally have no idea. i only noe when u see these ppl on the street, its some 'da ri zi' and u jus have to bring both ur palms together and pray... after some times, mum was no longer involve in all these and she turn into a Christian soon after grandpa and grandma died. my whole family become so "Christianize"... -_-! ok... i always been a free thinker... in fact am more toward Buddhism and Taoism, maybe due to my sec sch and my childhood times...

ok... back to topic... spend my whole of last weekend experiencing the practice and belief of taoism... gng thru' the entire ceremony... very interesting i'll say... there's so many things that u couldn't explain using scientific logic... especially trancing (起乩)... i shall leave the mystery unrevealed... well, if u wanna noe den ask me in private ba... anyway... do visit the their webby guanlongdianshantang.multiply.com
關龍殿善堂 is located at No.78 Geylang Road Lorong 6.

Passionate Libran

2009-08-11T15:29:00.002+08:00

Extract from FB application:

Jeslyn viewed her Love Zodiac Profile for the zodiac sign Libra.
If you are Libra:
You are fantastic and a very sexy lover. You love mush and romance in your relationships. You like to flirt even when you are committed but most of it is harmless fun. You tend to trust anyone very fast. So be careful because you fall in love too fast. You love peaceful dinners and relaxed evening walks with your partner. You are an extremely passionate lover and the opposite sex adores you for that. You express your love whenever and wherever you can. You take great care of your sweetheart and shower all your attention on your sweetheart.

Your kissing style:
Your kisses are wild and amazing.

To attract you, the opposite sex must be:
Stylish, sophisticated, attentive, mysterious, etc.

You are more compatible with - Aries, Aquarius, Gemini
You are less compatible with - Scorpio, Virgo, Capricorn

Cadbury Eyebrows

2009-08-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

these days seems like everyone gng GAGA over tat Cadbury Eyebrows ad... they even have a contest for that... real cool... i myself can't do tat eyebrows so... ya... haha... here u goes, the ad:

and i dun noe that sg can do tat way also... one of the best that i hav seen so fast... enjoy, ppl...

曲名：触电歌手：S.H.E

2009-07-28T15:14:00.002+08:00

风走在我们前面甩裙摆画著圆圈
花美得兴高采烈那香味有点阴险
你在我旁边的旁边但影子却肩碰肩
偷看一眼你的唇边是不是也有笑意明显

明明是昨天的事情怎麼今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里

但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多著急一下再终於等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急著开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电一直甜蜜触电
直到爆炸

像一年四个季节都被你变成夏天
我才会在你面前总是被晒红了脸

像一百万个秋千在我心里面叛变
被你指尖碰到指尖我瞬间就被汤到天边

明明是昨天的事情怎麼今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里

但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多著急一下再终於等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急著开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电一直甜蜜触电
直到爆炸

To be a better me

2009-07-19T21:38:00.003+08:00

Back from my ABC course, Awareness Before Change.

Wat can i say? this cos is one of the best course i ever attend... nah! its not abt selling techniques and skills... its abt how to be a better me, suitable for everyone, even those who ain't financial adviser...

It taught me abt realizing my bad pt... cherish the ppl ard me especially my mum and dad, my family... thru' meditation, visualization, we r ask to do a reflection on our actions all these while... den we share our experience, share our life story... those tat are truely from the bottom of our hearts...

Shall not touch further on the course tat i went thru, jus wanna share the gd things tat i did since the day i came back.
Yesterday, i did a 'confrontation' wif my mum... i told her abt my dream of wanting to give them a better life, my wish to contribute the the family before its too late... i am aware of my bad temper and had been throwing tantrums at them and am sorry abt that... i'm changing, i promise tat i will change into a better person. sorry for making her upset, i love her and thank u for all wat she hav done... thou' i cried while saying all these, but when i see mum's tears, i noe tat all wat i hav said is worth of, i will do my best to improve myself and serve my duty as a daughter. now my relationship wif my family had improve and nth can be compare wif them nor replace them... i love my family... and i wan to make my house a better place to live in...

I learn abt making earth a better place for everyone, by being happy... when i'm happy, ppl ard will be happy too... dun fight anger wif anger, means when ppl try to make u angry, u dun respond wif anger... but respond the opposite, just be happy and tell the angry man to relax and stay cool... u will make his day... really... try it...

Just a few verse to share wif everyone:

For thing to change, i must change 1st.

Success is a mind game, nothing more, nothing less.

When there is love, nothing is too much trouble and there will always be time.

Guys, so let make earth a better world, stay positive and happy ya~ ;)

Tattoo Freak

2009-07-11T11:59:00.002+08:00

ya ya... am the agent who advise u on ur financial... am oso the one who got alot of inks on me...

personally i dun think having inks is a hooligan act... In recent years, more and more people begin to accept tattoo as arts rather den a symbol of secret society... in the past, many of it do associate with the secret society out there, but not as much in today's world... Tattoo had become a form of art, a master pc which is seal on to a human canvas... nowadays people go for quality inks, artistic design, like:
oriental design - what we known as japanese drawings, koi fishes, phoenix, dragons, geisha, etc.
Portrait - basically to 'transfer' a photography on ur skin, portrait of a pet dog, portrait of your love one, etc.
Tribal - i dun think i'll need to further explain on tribal, every one noe abt it, its popular in the early 2000 i guess, however in the modern society today, people tend to look for something more complex. but still, some people prefer tribal to others.
Biomech - i only get to know this since early of the yr, how should i describe it... hmmm... it give me a very robotic, metallic kinda feel... more suitable for guys i feel... and this is the definition i got from some sites: "Artistic bodies and body parts that have the feel of biological and mechanical components. If you're a Star Trek fan, think "Borg". Wires, tubes, pipes, and hoses are common attributes of biomechanical designs."
Ripped off skin - One of my Fav, its ink in a way that u will visual ur skin as been ripped off kind, but of cos its not really been ripped, its just a 3D effect tat is done thru' tattoo... i heart this as its really a form of art, especially when u got someone who can do it so well, which make it look so real.

there's still so many kinda design out there, am just highlight a few common ones...

so far i hav just update my 1st ink, which is done like last yr oct... very fast, i had already got my 3rd ink done... a recap, my 1st ink which is a tribal Gecko design with a DeSoLo logo...

my 1st ink which is treated as a 23rd yr old birthday gift for myself... after a consideration of 2 yrs, since the age of 21, finally i got it done on my 23rd birthday. totally love this ink, even until today! as compared among all the inks i hav, this is the smallest, most painless... the tattoo process last abt an hr or so... done next to my belly button... i'll say tat area is a great spot to be ink on, least pain u will feel. but gers, do bear in mind tat in future when u get pregnent, the ink will be stretch and shrink after giving birth, the ink might go out of shape so...

and my 2nd ink, a Libra Lady. Done by my favorite Indonesian Tattooist, Mr AG from Brisik Tattoo. Got it done during the sg 1st tattoo show which is held in Jan 09 @ expo. it suppose to go for a competition title tattoo of the day, but sad to say, not able to finish it on time... so hav to give it a pass, shall wait for next yr's convention den...

its a detailed design, as u see this tattoo is rather complex and fill with different colours and details... it took a total of 10 hrs to "complete", 1st day i did a 7 hrs of inking str8 and continue another 3 hrs the next day right after... it sound crazy i noe... but hav to rush cos my tattooist is not local u see, he gng back to indonesia, i dun wanna leave my lady headless for like one yr... this ink took the longest time to complete, most detailed among the 3 and i consider it to be my largest pc so far... In fact, its only 90% done, there's still some flowers on the scale and some small details which need to be add on...

Finally, my 3rd ink, done on 7th July, just a few days ago... got it from Immortal tattoo... its the tattooist's specialty, vines designs...

As u can see, its not complete yet either, left with the infill of the remaining 3 stars, y is it so...? To painful to continue... opps =X
For those who can't take pain, pls nv nv nv try tattoo at places like this! its my most painful inking experience ever!!! the whole process took only ard 2 hrs, but its enough to kill me, unlike my back pc, i can endure for a 7 hrs, this i can't... its killing me... it hit all the sensitive areas, like the ribs, the area under arms and right in the middle of ur chest! its hell~! i regards this as the worse area to ink on, thou' it look really nice, but think twice b4 u do it... its too late for me to regret... once its done, i hav to complete it, else it will be like neither here nor there... argh... 2 weeks later when its heal, i hav to go back and colour the 3 stars as well as some touch up work to be done... :'( But still i love this new ink too... its vines with 7 stars, as u noe DeSoLo love stars and the no. 7, so this is how it came abt... ;) its in the process of healing, feeling damn itch now... but can't scratch... endure...

if u were to ask me, if i hav done enuff, the ans is no... i won't cover my whole body wif inks... i will only ink on place which i can hide under clothes.... like my back, my body... nothing shall be done on the hands, on the ankles, on the arms... inks to me is not something to show off... i dun carry the mentality of "tattoos have to be place in somewhere everyone can see, cos its for show off", this is not for me... I ink becos i love the arts, i love how this artist do their arts on skin... its not for show off, its for personal pleasure and liking... so ya... dun carry this stupid thots like 'DeSoLo is crazy, tattoo places like this, must well dun tattoo'... ppl who ink without thinking are the real crazy ones and stupid ones... do not allow ur hobbies, ur likings affect ur works... tats y its all hidden...

in fact, i already got my 4th inking waiting for me... it got to be done by AG, a 3D gecko standing on my lap, to be done on jan 2010, sg tattoo convention... waiting for his return... and lastly, an ink which i will get and i must get in time to come... which is a portrait of ash-boi on my should blade... :) if u love me, accept my passion for inking and accept my body of inks... *hug*

Last but not least, a video clip taken when am doing my 2nd ink. feat. Mr AG... enjoy!

Porcupine

2009-06-26T18:24:00.002+08:00

Nobody knows that DeSoLo can be so like a Porcupine... i can be nice, but at time i can't control my spike. dun get too near, i'll sting u...

the problem is i'll sting ppl who r very close to me... not like my fren, but ppl who r closer den frens... tats my problem... i believe everyone do hav an attitude problem tat is hidden, jus depend on whether its a very bad one or... to me... i consider myself as a rather bad one, but like i say i dun jus sting anyone...

I jus need some times on my own... maybe having expectation in ppl will jus make urself more miserable... the more u expect, the more disappointment u will face i guess...

L.O.V.E

2009-06-15T15:58:00.006+08:00

Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love.
The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly.

How you define the word 'love'?
Love exist in many forms... like towards self, family, friends, etc.
How people express love? possession. protection.

self-love... one have to learn to love themselves before loving someone else... as i believe that no one can love u more den u love urself... and only u urself can non-stop loving you...

Family-love... tats wat i call fate... we can't choose which family to be born in... we can't choose who to be our parent... its all pre-arrange and u dun hav a choice... so its fated... and it means by "LAW"... religious as i am, believers of reincarnation... i believe that there's a reason why we r born in this family and not that... something to do wif our past life... we r here to either pay-back or receive the good and bad that we hav accumulated in our previous life. *wink*

Fren-love... as time pass... i hav realize that frenship is somehow jus like those 'BGR'... u hav to hav chemistry, hav to get to noe one another, hav to 'commit' in a way... ppl view it in different ways... personally i feel that frens can be forever but its abt how to maintain it and how the other party synchronize with u... understanding is as important... prephaps u hav to gif in more den a BGR ba... must accept the facts that they hav some other commitment tat they can't always be there whenever u need them... alot of gif... same as u share ur happiness and sadness...

Love - partner... wow... this is the most complicated one... it is suppose to be one and only... but often its not... it suppose to be true, but often its not... high possibility to get hurt... like DeSoLo always say: Be in a Relationship, only if u're prepared to get hurt. If u're not prepared, den better dun be... :)

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Just like the photo posted... "The quickest way to receive love is to give love. The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly."

Hav to give in-order to receive... holding too tight will only drive the love further...

Des'ree - Kissing You (Love Theme from Romeo + Juliet 1996)

2009-06-14T23:27:00.001+08:00

Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
My soul cries

Heaving heart is full of pain
Oooh, oooh, the aching
'Cause I'm kissing you, oooh
I'm kissing you, oooh

Touch me deep, pure and true
Give to me forever
'Cause I'm kissing you, oooh
I'm kissing you, oooh

Where are you now
Where are you now
'Cause I'm kissing you
I'm kissing you, oooh

The uncertainty in life

2009-05-08T14:29:00.002+08:00

yup yup, as many had heard abt my change of job... many one start asking, "why a change? especially at this very moment..."

the ans is... no matter which moment i were to join this field, everyone will say its a bad timing... so... dun ever tell me its isn't the rite time... ;)

anyway, jus did a tarot reading wif timmy agn... haha... recalling the good old times when every weekend i'll mit this shi fu of mine @ ecp for some 'spiritual session'... pls dun ask me if its accurate... its up to individual to believe in it... anyway, we dun do prediction, we ain't god... we dun predict... wat we do is mind searching... when u feel confuse, feel tired of things, when u need to noe wat is within ur mind... yup, we do mind searching, telling u wats ur inner thots... and yup, i did one for career... and wat it says? a rather positive reading... its a good choice, its tough at the beginning, but there will be result in long run... jus tat i hav to keep on renew my passion, keep my passion burning... shall take note of it...

anyway, yup, toking abt life... these days i been miting up wif ppl, toking to many different kinda ppl... and i realize that many ppl hav taken their life for granted... they r too fortunate to understand tat there's many uncertainties in life... ppl are only looking at cash in hand but din think of protecting themselves against others... ya ya... i'm preaching... watever, but its so true when i see many ppl fallen ill... fighting against illness, winning the battle as well as losing the battle... the mentality of everyone, "won't be so lucky one lah! i won't get these illness cos i'm still young, cos i'm healthy"... but there's no concrete evidence that show them no chance of illness... when things happen, ppl will start to regret, will start to blame the whole world, but in the 1st plc when insurance agent approach them, they gif excuses like 'i dun believe in this, i'm not interested.' u're not uninterested in insurance, but uninterested in ur well being... sad to say...

once illness fall upon, sorry to say tat: no insurance company will take this application... before u even think of getting insurance, pls see that insurance company are also picking on u guys... i do admit tat we work for the sake of money, but agn, dun u agree that if something were to happen to u, u receive a lump sum of money, u're the one who benefit, not me... if nth happens to u, as it reach maturity, u got back every single u put in plus bonus, who benefit? u or me..?

ok ok... enuff of all this... bear wif me ba... things like this will keep appearing in my blog every now and den, especially when i'm still in this trade... =)

a period of darkness

2009-05-02T19:37:00.003+08:00

so far, i consider this period as one of my darkness... there's so many uncertainty... be it r/s, work, life, frens... mostly it come from the inner struggle...

alot of challenges is out waiting for me...getting tired... but life goes on... i can't afford to abandon anything just for an easy way out...

OX

2009-04-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

Ox people are hard-working and persistent, they can stick at a task longer and go at it harder than anybody. They believe in themselves and tend to classify almost everything into two basic categories, bad and good. They hold up their high standards as a model and severely judge those who don't aspire to maintain these same ideals.

Ox people are not social or party animals, they tend to be quiet when in a party. Although appears to be tranquil, in fact, Oxens are ponderous but impulsive when angry. They are capable of fearsome rages, therefore, it is better not to cross an Oxen.

Ox people are observant, they have remarkable memories and are good at reporting on absolutely everything they observe. Go ask an Oxen if he remembers who were at the party 8 months ago, most likely, he will name them one by one to you.

In the home, the Ox is a great guy to have around. In business, the OX can succeed in the arts, a contracting business, or an estate., thanks to their creative nature. And since an Ox is intelligent and good at his hands, he can be a good surgeon as well.

Ox people are stubborn and dogmatic, they believe in their decision and will never regret. They are also very close to their families. disappointedly, Oxens often find that those who are close to them fail to understand them. Nevertheless, they are patient, and caring and that makes the Oxen the best friend you can ever have.

Oxens are very responsible and loyal. Ox people are seldom jealous. but they will be jealous of their rights; and the fidelity of a husband or a wife is one of their rights. They are very family-oriented, conservative and faithful.

The Ox works hard, patiently, and methodically, with original intelligence and reflective thought. These people enjoy helping others. Behind this tenacious, laboring, and self-sacrificing exterior lies an active mind. While their balance and strength inspire confidence, Oxen can seem rigid, obstinate, and slow. They impress others as leaders, fearing neither responsibility nor risk. However, sometimes they must labor long hours to accomplish little.

The Chinese say the time of year and day an Ox is born is important in determining lifestyle. One woman in Hong Kong bragged that she would always be financially provided for with minimal effort on her part because she was born on a winter night. Oxen have little to do during the winter months, she explained, because the sweat of summer and fall harvesting is over and it is up to the farmer to feed and keep the oxen warm so they'll have strength for spring planting. Oxen born during agricultural months, however, are sentenced to a life of hard labor.

People born under the influence of the Ox are kind, caring souls, logical, positive, filled with common sense and with their feet firmly planted on the ground. Security is their main preoccupation in life, and they are prepared to toil long and hard in order to provide a warm, comfortable and stable nest for themselves and their families. Strong-minded, stubborn, individualistic, the majority are highly intelligent individuals who doen't take kindly to being told what to do.

Although Ox people don't ask to be put in the limelight, they do like to be boss, for these quietly dominant types enjoy being in positions of power. Oxen try to instill in those around them the rigor, determination and power of work which they themselves possess. Respecting others, they are always open to a dialogue. Even though they may not broadcast their virtues to the world, nevertheless it is that steady, conscientious attitude that will deservedly see them to the top.

The Oxen's childhood and youth will generally be without incident. It is in the second part of their lives that they will encounter difficulties to do with their marriage. Their partners may well take offense at their apparent indifference and seek consolation elsewhere in an attempt to find the romance so conspicuously absent at home. If this happens and the Ox cannot put things right by the exercise of intelligence, the ruin of the entire family may be risked as Oxen have no time for a deviation they are unable to understand. During the third part of life, Oxen may suffer enormous difficulties but if they can manage to smooth them out, their old age will be peaceful.

The Affectionate Ox

Oxen make solid, steady, reliable partners. They can be tender, devoted, sensual even -- but they are never romantic. Very affectionate to those close to their hearts, they are cool and distant to anyone outside their emotional circle. Getting close to an Ox is a very difficult thing to do, for they hold all but their chosen few at arm's length. However, once they have committed themselves, they make loyal, steadfast lovers and are the least likely of all the signs to possess a roving eye. Casual love affairs are definitely not the Ox's style. Although they may not show it, their emotions are deep and passionate. If their love is spurned or if they should suffer a broken heart, they will retreat inside themselves and channel all their emotions into their work. Generally, they make no mistakes in their judgment of others, successfully merging their romantic and family lives. Happily settled in a contented relationship, an Ox will make a supportive and faithful partner, someone whose love grows stronger by the year and whose sterling qualities are worth his or her weight in gold.

The Rooster, Rat and Serpent get on very well with Oxen. There are struggles and problems with the Monkey, and a lack of understanding with the Ram and the Boar.

Popular belief is adamant that the Ox should under no circumstances set up house with the Tiger. Such a partnership would inevitably end in a battle that could terminate only with the departure or disappearance of the Tiger. The Ox, the stronger of the two, would keep on charging until the Tiger was destroyed. An Ox mother could never get on with a Tiger child -- better for the latter to leave home!

February is the month of the Ox. The time of the Ox is from 1:00 a.m. to 2:59 a.m.; their direction of orientation is north-northeast. The Ox's color is violet.

Compatibility

(1 - least compatible, 100 - most compatible)

Rat 88 - A stable and steady relationship
Ox 72 - Conservative! Mutually protect & provide
Tiger 33 - Almost impossible to make it work.
Rabbit 72 - This could work.
Dragon 52 - Don't, two of you will fight constantly.
Snake 85 - This union can be a good one.
Horse 37 - Unfortunately, they are part.
Sheep 56 - Probably not.
Monkey 81 - Nice. They are compatible and stable.
Rooster 86 - You are lucky enough to find each other.
Dog 62 - Difficult, but possible.
Pig 69 - why not, it worths a try.

曲名：我要快乐歌手：张惠妹

2009-03-21T02:44:00.002+08:00

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的

Just totally, entirely tired..

2009-03-19T23:34:00.006+08:00

its been ages since i last blog... so much things tat i always wanted to write abt, so many time i'm been distracted, and fail to blog abt...

some times life just unpredictable, terribly sux... ppl are not who they seems to be... not saying that anyone being bad but jus ppl try to hide abt their feelings, try to assume things, try to avoid... sometimes i feel my life being empty... empty in a way, there's nth much to really happy abt, there's neither anything to be sad abt... i dun leads a roller coaster life i'll say... unlike the past, when i can express my feelings to my close ones... i begin to believe in forgetting... which i realize its nv forgotten but jus avoidance... not tat my frens had changed or had left me, but i just can't seems to really let myself cry out wat within me... being to hard to myself maybe, but am jus to use to force myself, sharing joyful things but not bad times... its like being handicapped... buried myself in other biz to divert my attention somewhere, thou' during quiet times, i still ponder abt things... sometimes i blame myself for being too harsh on things, too harsh on ppl... but its like the way i feel towards relationship... wat done is done, wat done can't be undone... i'll reflect, but i will nv regret... cos regret can't bring u back to where u start... there's future to look toward but not past...

having a long long break... this long break have somehow kill me in a way... one can't be left doing nth... they will lost their mind... not to mention abt ppl like me, who thinks and analyze too much... i'm tired of tearing, tired of explaining, tired of getting pissed, tired of feeling sux, tired of complaining, tired of life, tired of pain... tired of life, but i noe that it won't end so soon and i hav to continue and try to improve my life... this tiredness have somehow push me to a limit... to the extend i wish to isolate myself for awhile... at times i'm proud of being myself... but at time i hate myself for who i am... someone jus taught me something abt the word 'assume', 'assume' is make an ASS out of U & ME... so nv assume, jus do...

always... i feel... no one had really understand me tat well... or i had nv gif anyone a chance to understand me... again, something hit me... the slogan tat i used to say when am in my poly life : "no one owe u anything, hence no one need to take ur nonsense"... this verse come running in my mind agn... agn, i begin to push myself hard... wan myself to be independent, even if i noe i'm not really like tat... maybe ppl ard had bought the image i try to create... i dun wish to admit tat i need to sometimes fall back on someone becos i'm not as strong as i appear to be... in a way, i dun allow myself to appear weak... I'm fine, i'm really fine... its jus back to sq one... in life, there's alway bad times... jus like recession, it will always come back, its jus abt the duration, how long this whole shit will last...

some stuffs in life can nv belong to anyone, and one can't really own anybody, except themselves... like i always say, i came to this world alone, i gng to leave this world alone also... even if the whole world forsake me, i must nv forsake myself... its only me who noe how to love me and truely love me...

am too tired... too tired to say much... too tired to do much... too tired to explain much... too tired of having expectations... too tired of being demanding... too tired to recover things... maybe its jus me... easily defeated...

its late... sweet dreams to me... gd luck for my tests tml... god bless...

问心无悔

2008-12-27T01:43:00.002+08:00

This is dedicated to my ah bao...

i can swear to god tat i hav nv done any stupid thing like this.... i may be a bitch, may be a slut, but am definitely not a 小人villain.

I hav my class and standard to maintain... i'm not tat 卑鄙. if i dun like i will jus text, scold and say in front of the person, i dun do stupid thing by acting as a passerby or who and make comments... 明人不作暗示... i dun hav to hint, i will jus say out frankly!

i can jus die rite away if i'm the one who did tat... i can swear... i dun noe who the hell who did tat and wat the hell this person wan... i mean... well... y no ppl wrote tat on my blog... maybe u may say this blog is not as popular...

well, afterall i jus wanna say... this bloody rubbish bo liao thing is not my instruction!!!! tats it...

Season Greetings from Ashie Boy

2008-12-24T15:39:00.000+08:00

Never take someone for granted

2008-12-24T15:32:00.000+08:00

DeSoLoGY: Season Greetings - delicated to all my FRIENDS

2008-12-20T11:07:00.005+08:00

I always love this wonderful day, Christmas day... thou' i'm not actually a christian, but i jus find this season to be the most beautiful... when u see nice lighting... and people shopping for x'mas gifts... pressies, xmas trees... i jus love this season...

its a time i do a look back at my performance this year... i will say tat its a year of change... Jeslyn had grown up... i realize and learn to see things not only from the surface... i learn abt communication... loving every single ppl... see the ugliness of human nature... met the lovely beings ard me...

Achievement:

More sociable, outspoken, confident, frenly
Make more frens, e.g. Jason, andre, GANGz, edward, etc... gain buddy fren like Eric...
Realizing goals and aim, dare to dream....
Taken her 1st step to explor her dreams...
getting back contacts like Jarell, Casin, Gad, Kean, Wilson, JEN JEN, Timothy, etc...
Getting back her tanned and shape...
have a better understanding of myself....
Swimming regularly and watch diet...
Complete my degree course
Learn to appreciate life
Spending more time wif precious ppl like Shumei...
Have her 1st gecko ink! and develop a DeSoLo logo for herself
Turning into a bitch but its a total wonderful thing
Bought my Prada Shades (ok, i'm proud of it)
Start my 1st flea market sales

Loss:

Dark eye rings due to lack of rest
Taken up bad habits
Enter a f**k up film and not getting her mthly pay
losing one close fren (used to be, but i hav get over it, ppl come and go, its fine)
KGssss... (which is gd)
got herself a sux job, underpaid, no leave, no mc, basically no benefit
bad hair days...
Purchase my 1st pair of Specs! which mean my perfect eyesight is GONE!
Not able to prepare xmas gift cos of stupid Company's pay delay
Been stalk by ex... YUCKS! he's mad...

i think tats all... hmmm... its seems to be more gd den bad... so i should be happy... but the list next yr are guarantee to be BETTER! hehe...

i love my xmas, pls dun let any more evil mouth or jeslous eyes ruin it... finally i understand the meaning of wat new boss say... different perception and mindset cos lost in topic to tok to... i jus officially announce tat I DUN NOE THIS GUY NAME ROY and HE DUN NOE ME... so ppl, dun bother to ask him wat went wrong wif me... and pls... there's nth wrong wif mi... its jus something wrong wif ur eyes... haha~
i had nv in my life felt so great abt life tat i dun even thot of the word 'sux'... My true real frens are all understand me so well, and they see me improving and not getting worse... my close fren like Alex, Eric, Shumei, Trina, Wilson, Jen... other den these ppl tat i mentioned, no others are consider as my close fren... so dun bother to tell me abt ur comment, abt how u judge me by jus LOOKING and not listening nor asking... tats bull shit... the judge from the court took bloody long period to come out wif their final sentence, after thousands of qns, millions of analyzing... and ppl, by jus looking at pics, looking at the surface, ur can say craps... and ppl who i once treated as fren can go buy their words... how true this fren is? this only show tat i had wasted my time on this relationship... and i seriously hav so many thing to do, to fight for and no time for nonsense... judge all u wan... until one day when i succeed, den u come and tell me abt ur comments..

If i were to listen to everyone's comments, i dun think i will even find myself, find the plc tat i'm standing rite now... Telling me abt social management, u r kidding me... i can afford to stay out of hse for a week, jus by miting different frens each day...! my schedule is simply in a mess due to all the things tat i need to do and ppl i need to see... until i hav to start referring to my organizer... think i'm kidding... haha~ b4 u tok, pls use brain, dun tell ppl how other see her, when u dun even noe how ppl outside see u... Jeslyn treat outside comments as shit, cos she believe herself, and not others... even if ppl come telling her rubbish nonsense abt her frens, she dun gif a damn... no one is prefect... mouth is wif them, they can say wat they wan, my mind, my body, every part of me is MYSELF, i dun need ur nonsense... i hav always been a easy gng person... none of my fren, any of them tell me abt mi ditching old fren when i hav new frens... my frens who r wif me for YEARS, even longer den u and me... wilson, jen, shumei, my fren for more den 10 yrs... there r times when we r all bz, we can't mit up wif one and other, but we hav nv gif up on each other and still cherish each other... this is fren... so confident wif this frenship until u r so assure tat they won't turn out to be as jerky as u ppl... fren is not jus companion, but a listener, a talker, a heart to share, a shoulder to cry on... fren will nv gif up on u... and how many frens u hav? i mean real true fren who noe u inside out? go think abt it... and i can say i love my fren... to the extend whenever i'm outside, i see things tat remind me of them, i will buy for them for no reason... tats fren... u dun need expensive gift, u dun hav to be rich... u jus hav to be urself... well... i'm slapping myself, cos haha... i gonna say this frenship is not measure by the length of period ur noe each other... i can understand a person and accept the person in jus an hr and make him my buddy, cos life is jus like tat... fren is like a love relationship, all depend on fate, degree of accommodation, degree of acceptance, common likings, care & concern... it can end like a relationship too... jus by realizing everything... not worth my effort in save-keeping this frenship... and i'm sorry... my xmas and new yr eve and day are reserve for gd use... not for time wasting... :)

last but not least, love everyone ard u... only ppl wif goals and see things tat people can't see will be able to stay happy and hav no regretion in life...

In this beautiful season, i wish everyone a merry xmas (not a noisy one)... hope tat everyone will be able to find their goal, dare to dreams... love all lovely beings ard me... *Kisses & Hugs*

p.s. there's simply nth wrong wif my dressing even if i wore a band across my forehead! i hav mass send out my pic to millions of ppl, and the feedback tat i got back are perfectly alrite! u can jus say its disgusting, but millions of ppl dun feel tat way... which means u are the odd one out! wahahaha~ i Love myself... and tats' it... and... thou' i noe a few frens thru' u, but i won't gif out on them, they r still my fren... but of cos they hav a choice to walk out of me, i'm fine... (if only they r as ignorant) *cheers*

DeSoLoGY: Keep an open mind in order to succeed in life

2008-12-16T10:01:00.004+08:00

Been in the working society for 3 years... these essential 3 yrs means alot to me... a major transformation... from a little ignorant kid to a person who dare to pursue her dreams... i have grew up...

wat hav i really been thru' at the age of 23... well... in fact, everyone been thru' many things, its jus their degree of acceptance and analyzing the situation... watever that may seems to be a mishap is jus another lesson to learn... u may grief, may upset, may get angry, but keep an open mind to see things and realize all individual's faults... i mean, it takes 2 hands to clap, the fault usually lies on both parties (including ourselves) but ppl jus dun wish to accept or even face it... same issue goes to my current boss... jus becos of egotism, face value, u lose out in everything. no matter wat experience u have, how much worth of assets u hold, how high ur self value is... all are pointless when one can't even face themselves... by saying means nth... To say is always easy but to really admit one's fault, it really takes a lot of courage... but agn, its all depend on a person's view... for me... well... i cherish all my frens, no one is special, everyone is special... i aim to be fair and balance (its a trail of Libra, I can't help it)... i treat ppl the way they treat me... if i dun feel sincerity, i will hold back wat i give in... well, tats normal, i mean who wanna be an idiot?! No one is perfect, neither am i... its a bliss when ppl dun pick on u, so wat it is to pick on others... The world is small, u nv noe if one day u need helps from others... being revengeful is the stupidest thing to do... jus dun bother abt ppl's life... dun force, keep things neutral, keep an open mind to accept ppl as well as ourselves...

Life can be wonderful, jus how u view it, how u wanna live it... as DeSoLo always said, 'Life is short, Happy or sad, like it or dun, u still hav to finish this path... y make is a miserable one? jus keep urself happy and make full use of ur life... live with no regret, die with no regret'

There r always gd and bad ppl out there... gd ppl to help u, bad ppl to trash u... but its u urself to choose if u wanna allow them to help, or allow them to trash...

Most importantly, Love urself... learn to love urself before anything, before anyone...

have you make your choice?

2008-12-11T13:29:00.002+08:00

After 3 yrs of working life... i had learn to be responsible to myself, my family, people ard me that worth of care and concern...

at the age of 23, i mark myself, i name myself, i sort my mind... i make my choice... to make a different in my life... in my old parent's life... in control of my life... dare to dream... set my goal...

A person wif no plans and no goal is equal to a corpse... one feel astray with a target in life... life will be different when u see it in a different angle... when u noe ur purpose of staying alive.... when u have a target... when u decide to put ur thots into actions...

Goals make one person feel the sense of belonging, feel the meaning of life...

Everyone jus go back and think... wat u wan? and wat u have? and how u gng to do it? jus think and ask urself...

Tribal Tattoo Designs

2008-11-26T13:30:00.001+08:00

accounts for nearly a third of all tattoo design search requests, and the term "tribal" of course covers an astonishing array of tattoo design possibilities, from the traditional tribal tattoos of indigenous and aboriginal cultures, to the latest in graphic design for the body.

While today it is possible to find some incredibly breathtaking tribal tattoo designs, you’ll be hard pressed to experience the full, authentic art of the tribal tattoo experience in commercial America. Now, electric guns and high tech and high quality inks have replaced sticks, styluses, bone needles and plant dyes of the modern tattoo’s ancient ancestors. Modern tattoo artists have replaced the shaman and medicine folk of old.

The History of the Tribal Tattoo Design
Most likely, the very first tattoo happened on accident. All it takes is a few rowdy primitives playing around the fire. It wouldn’t take long for someone to fall in, get poked with a charred stick and later heal before they’d realized that they were on to something. The news probably spread as fast as the fires that prompted the invention. As a matter of fact, it is rumored that the first tattoos were of the sun or flames in honor of the sun god(s).

There were three major factors that took the practice of tribal tattooing from the realm of art and into the plane of the spiritual: Pain, Permanence and Loss of the Life Source (blood). This mystical trio elevated the tattoo from mere art and transformed it into a chance to draw people into a relationship with God, a god, magic powers, or a trance or vision state.

Because body and soul were generally thought to be identical to one another, your tattoos then existed on two planes: the physical and spiritual realms. Many of the tribes from Borneo believed that tattoos would not only be enough to get them to the proper spirit world, but that their tattoos also offered them special qualifications for advantageous occupations upon their arrival.

It has been found that most (if not all) primitive tribes used some form of body marking, be they tattoos, scarifications or the use of plain, temporary body paints. This art prevailed worldwide until the arrival of civilization as we know it, when the tattoo fell into a temporary loss of popularity.

Times May Change, But The Reasons Stay the Same
In ancient times, tribal tattoo art was popular for many of the same reasons it is so alluring today. Tribal tattoos were employed for many motives.

To Identify Clans, Tribes and Families
Originally (and hence the name) tribal tattoos were employed to identify and group tribes, clans and families together. Not only did this enable you to easily identify one another, or recognize distant relatives, but it was generally believed that your tattoos would allow you to find your tribe and join it again in the afterlife. Today, fraternal orders, gangs, members of the military and other organizations also have designed tattoos that are recognizable to their fellow brothers and sisters.

Marriage Tattoos
In addition to a tribal tattoo, ancient men and women may also wear a marriage tattoo. Not only would this serve the same function as the modern day wedding ring (as a witness to your commitment to another), but again, would allow you to find your spouse in the afterlife. This was understandably important when husbands and wives would “cross the veil” several years apart from one another. In modern times, this form of tribal tattoo is still prevalent, and you will often see spouses and life-mates with matching tattooed armbands, “rings”, initials, and hearts as a permanent witness to their love and fidelity.

Rites of Passage
Ancient adolescents approaching maturity would often come under the prick of the tribal tattoo point before being socially accepted as an adult. A woman who couldn’t bear the pain of a tattoo would be unfit for the impending pain of childbirth – making her unacceptable for marriage. A young man who couldn’t take it would be seen as unfit for battle or hunting, often dooming him to the role of outcast. Today, many teenagers eagerly await (or don’t wait) their eighteenth birthday and celebrate their entrance to adulthood by getting a tattoo.

Totem Animal Guardianship
Many tribal tattoos were administered as proof of the power of certain totem animals over the lives of those they chose to guard and bless. This was especially true amongst Pacific Northwest Native American tribes and the Druids and Celtic people of the British Isles. Being bestowed with a totem animal guardian was a two-fold blessing- not only would you gain the strengths and abilities of the totem animal, but the tattoo also served as a mysterious link between the animal spirit and the bearer of its marks. Different animals provided different strengths and virtues to their receiver. Today, animal tattoos are wildly popular. Lower backs, upper backs, shoulders and arms abound which have been decorated with gentle butterflies, fearsome dragons, and deadly scorpions in hopes that these creatures’ merits will take hold.

Magical Reasons
Probably the most documented and understood of the magically charged tribal tattoos was for the purpose of love spells and charms. These tattoo magicians would mix special herbs and potent concoctions to their dyes and would apply the tattoo to a small, generally hidden area to activate the magic. Generally, these tattoos were kept hidden because it would be foolish for an old married woman to go around wearing the marks of a foolish youth. Today, who doesn’t know someone who knows someone with an ex’s name tattooed somewhere, whether they’ve covered it or removed now or not?

The rich, spiritual folklore still survives today. Tribal tattoos are being given in droves, to people as different from one another as night is from day. You can find a tribal style fairy, Hawaiian themed designs, African inspired prints, and Celtic crosses (both pagan and Christian), and even Maori facial tribal art. But it appears that the ancient superstition still prevails. When faced with doubts or indecision regarding tattoos, the modern tattoo artist and administrator will tell you….

“When you should get a tattoo, the tattoo god will tell you that it is time.”

(Taken from Vanishing Tattoo)

Hair Care for Dry Hair Type

2008-11-25T13:08:00.002+08:00

Dry Hair Type: Dry hair looks full, feels dry and frizzy and tangles easily and is difficult to comb or brush especially when wet. Split ends are common.
Causes of Dry Hair: Dry hair receives insufficient oil from the scalp. This can be caused by chemical processing such as coloring and rebonding, or may be inherited. Often dry hair is also a result of over-exposure to the sun, stress or nutrition imbalance.
Use a moisturizing and nourishing shampoo and always follow with an intensive conditioner.

Avoid heated styling whenever possible, letting your hair dry naturally instead.

Use hair masks once a week to step up on hair hydration.

Brushing the hair regularly can stimulate the scalp to produce more oils.

Taken from ShoppingLifestyle!

News: Singapore worker killed after jumping into tiger enclosure: zoo

2008-11-14T12:47:00.001+08:00

SINGAPORE, Nov 13, 2008 (AFP) - An apparently disturbed worker was mauled to death by three tigers at the Singapore Zoo on Thursday when he deliberately jumped into their enclosure, the zoo said.

The white tigers pounced on the 32-year-old contract cleaner after he jumped into the moat surrounding their enclosure and then moved toward the animals, the zoo said in a statement.

The zoo, one of Singapore's most prominent tourist attractions, described the victim as "apparently disturbed and agitated".

Fellow workers reported that he "was acting a little bit erratic and odd, throwing papers around" before the incident, assistant director of zoology Biswajit Guha told Singapore's 938Live radio.

Guha said the cleaner worked at the chimpanzee area and was on his lunch break when the tragedy occurred.

"Goodbye, I won't be seeing you again," Guha quoted the victim as telling one of the zookeepers.

"And they saw him riding off on a bicycle and coming back in through the front entrance again, and then about five minutes later, the whole alert came on the walkie talkie," he said.

Horrified visitors screamed as zookeepers rushed into the tiger enclosure to try to rescue the victim.

They threw rocks to try to distract the animals, which dragged their victim toward a passageway, said Guha.

Zoo workers finally succeeded in luring the tigers away from the man and confining them to their pens, but paramedics later pronounced him dead.

The victim had injuries mainly to his head and neck, Lieutenant Colonel N. Subhas, the director of public affairs with the Singapore Civil Defence Force, told AFP.

The zoo identified the dead man as Nordin Bin Montong, a zoo contract worker from Malaysia.

"At no time was any visitor or Singapore Zoo staff exposed to any danger," the zoo said.

Police said they were called to the zoo about 12:30 pm (0430 GMT) and were investigating the "unnatural" death.

The zoo said the moat and other permanent safety features at the enclosure meant there was no risk to visitors or staff.

"Nonetheless, we have temporarily closed the White Tiger exhibit to visitors to facilitate investigations into this unfortunate incident," it said.

(news taken from Yahoo!News)

DeSoLo is a Fag Hag

2008-11-05T21:39:00.001+08:00

A fag hag is a slang term for a woman who either associates mostly or exclusively with homosexual men, or is best or good friends with a gay man or men. It originated in gay male culture in the United States and was historically an insult. Some women who associate with gay men object to being called fag hags, while others embrace the term. The male counterpart, men who have similar interpersonal relationships with lesbian women, are called dyke tykes or Dutch boys; furthermore people who associate with gays, lesbians, and bisexuals may be called fruit flies, regardless of their sex.

Taken from wikipedia, the free encyclopedia...

friends...

2008-11-05T20:29:00.002+08:00

jus another random blog...

ya... jus saw my dustbin mei's entry... and i realize i got wonderful ppl ard me... thou' i seems to have more guy frens den gers... mainly due to many reasons....

1. i hate the sensitivity of women
2. i hate the needs of taking care of weak gers
3. i hate the gentle princess gers
4. i hate it when they can fake like jus so natural
5. i hate it when they feel so ultimate sucky when u flirt and they start gossiping behind u...
6. i hate it when they ger jealous easily
7. i hate it when they are so closed minded
8. i hate it when they comment abt ur life and the way u live it...

and well.... at this moment.... after my SOCIETY TRAINING... haa... my darlings, i'm jus getting happier, more confidence, more sociable, more open up, more open minded, more bitchy... i believe women will jus HATE me... opps =X
I dun mean to...

i always tell ppl ard me... i got more guy frens... its either guy or gay.... but i dun hav much ger fren... i can use jus my hands to calculate my true ger frens... name it:

Trina, Shumei... who else... hmmm... i still recalling....
and my 2nd class of ladies are my Ju, belle, pei, Tricia, ... who else...??

but my true gers is jus so excellent who can jus take over like 100 true gers tat others have...
u name it, u hav it... someone who noe u so well, who dun even hav to ask, and they noe ur ans... someone who take care of u even if u appear to be strong... someone who nv forget u when she might be jus so far away... someone who not afraid of showing her bf to u... the trust... the love, the care... ya noe... i'll say i'm content wif wat i hav... thou' my gers are either bz or far away... but they will be there somewhere still thinking abt me... and i noe...

glad for the change i realize in myself... ppl might jus HATES me...thinking jus another bitch, another slut, another fren snatcher... but i dun do those on purpose... i jus wanna be open up to everyone, able to speak and jus say wat i wan... let ppl noe abt the true me and not think other wise of me... ppl who r really to share and not jus make unpleasant rubbish feedbacks....
I'm not a booster, i jus wanna voice out wat i see, how i feel... so ppl who are lack of confidence are a absolute NO to me... their lack of confidence make them lose faith in themselves and dislike jus any better gers ard them...

oh btw... am sick... so i dun noe wat the fuck i'm toking abt.... jus rubbish thru out... *yawn* i'm getting abit drowsy... OMG... someone jus hold me... well... i see trina and shumei... wahahhaa~ illusions after i took the medi??!! Oh Gosh... it sound so..... haha~

Do some good deeds, Calling for All Blood Donors...

2008-10-25T10:34:00.002+08:00

What

Youth Favorites @ Dhoby Ghaut NEL Station

When

Sat Oct 25 11am – Sat Oct 25 5pm

20081025T110000/20081025T170000

Where

11 Orchard Road, Singapore

Created By

Singapore Bloodmobiles (www.donorweb.org)

Description

Organised by Youth Donor Club
Concourse Level @ Dhoby Ghaut NEL Station
11 Orchard Road
(Enter via the escalator near the 7-Eleven at Orchard@Atrium)
(Bus Services No.: 7, 14, 16, 36, 64, 65, 77, 106, 111, 124, 128, 139, 162, 167, 171, 174, 175, 190, 502, 576, 578, 579, 581, 587, 590, 598, 700)

Taken from http://www.donorweb.org/

Tattoo @ Dragon Pearl Inking

2008-10-16T14:48:00.004+08:00

ya... i got my tattoo done on monday...
And as everyone will start asking... 'Is it painful?'

the ans is 'NOT AT ALL'... dun be frighten by the sound of the needle... its really not as pain as u hear... the pain is bearable... jus like cutting urself wif a penknife... its nth.... its not as bad as piercing... less painful den eyebrow embroidery... if u're not afraid of injection... well, tattoo is nth to u...

finally i got myself a gecko, which i had been thinking since 2 yrs back?! a partial self design tattoo... with meanings behind...

TaDang... my tribal Gecko... with the DeSoLo (DSL) logo (totally self-designed)and a 'dragon-like' broken tail... the head, body and legs are add on by the cool handsome young tattooist... *blush* actually my fren's fren... he's cute... haha...
BTW, this gecko is COPYRIGHT RULE PROTECTED!!! its mine...

another qns, y a Gecko?
ans grab from http://www.vanishingtattoo.com/
Gecko Tattoo Designs - A very popular lizard for tattoo designs is the gecko, which appears often in Polynesian tribal tattoos. The gecko is supposed to have supernatural powers, and is regarded by Polynesians with fear and awe. It is rumored that if a green gecko "laughs" at you, it’s a terrible omen of illness and bad fortune.

Just as the lizard is able to drop its tail in order to escape danger, so the lizard totem shows us the principles of letting go and self-protection.

Get it? cool meaning huh... haa... and how to read the DSL logo?

now u noe y... and its COPYRIGHT!!!

anyway... some pics of the yandao Tattooist...

not very clear... thanks to James' Shaky hands... haha... and spare me, i have to crop off my body lah... cos i'm FREAKING FAT!

sorry to say that DeSoLo is a fussy customer... i spend quite some time discussing with the guys on my tattoo... whether to have round toes for the gecko (which make it look like a freaking FROG), whether to have design on its head and so on... haha... troublesome customer... but the tattooist is frenly and nice... my Mr. 'Jamie's' frens... :) waiting for mr 'Jamie' to get his Koi fish done... Big Project... *anxious*

and they are so funny... sickening 'Jamie' keep asking Dewei, the tattooist to tattoo 'i love james' on me... and guess wat... after it was done, Dewei claim that i move about and cos some small mistake, and tat he hav to do last minute 're-design'. he took a marker and wrote 'I love James' OMG! *scream* and he pick up the tattoo needle... *scream* it really scare me sia... *faint*

as usual, the bhb Jeslyn will say 'my bday coming, so dun charge me for the tattoo lah' den dewei said 'my bday also coming' den i quickly respond 'den i do free tattoo for u too lor'... -_-! wahahahaha~ *evil* jus alot of stupid craps... but fun lah... enjoy my very 1st tattoo session...

anyway, the tattoo parlor is @ pearl's centre #02-48, name: Dragon Pearl Inking.
Website: http://www.dpinking.com/

if anyone wanna get a tattoo, buzz me... i can bring u there *wink*
Or u wan one of their name card, jus text me...

lastly... my Gecko is peeling le... hee~ abit itch... but NO SCRATCH! if not no nice no more... got to sacrifice my weekend Suntanning for 3 bloody weeks... *sigh*

歌名: 说好的幸福呢歌手: 周杰伦

2008-10-16T11:53:00.003+08:00

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
曲周杰伦歌词提供再兴
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

Extremely love this song... its touching... remind me of some stuffs, which really pain me... feel like saying "sorry" to someone... *sigh* i'm getting emo...

Anyway, Jay's new Album is out! 魔杰座, is out yest! and i regret not purchasing PRE-ORDERED!!! its completely out of stock!!! F**K! upset... and the ppl @ CD-rama said that the metal casing one is out, no more! only left wif the paper pack one, which will only be in on Friday... damn lagi upset! should hav bought the PRE-ORDER!!! hai~

Anyway, enjoy the song...

So Many Restrictions

2008-10-02T10:34:00.010+08:00

There's so many things that i wanna tok abt... but... it seems like there's so many eyes looking! opps =X

I'll try to be nice but no doubt... DeSoLo is a bitch... haa~ i miss the time when my dustbin mei was here... Trina, when will u be coming over to bitch ard wif me? i'm waiting...

Something i can't get it... y is it so that swimming on a 'rainy (not as in rain but there's no sun and its super cold, u noe the kind of weather when jus after rain and abt to rain agn)' day, will still get me TANNED?! OMG... i told it won't act on me... and still i got tanned after a morning swim yest... i din apply suntanning oil, well i din apply sunblock either... I DUN HAV ANY SUNBLOCK LOTION CAN! anyway... there's bloody no sun and only light drizzle... y do i still get tanned? OMG~

I guess Roy have had enough of me... haha... OMG... i'm so bloody mean... i have pass on the NUM maddness to him and not forgetting the slimming Craze.... haha~ i hav manage to build myself up quite.... hmmm... i will say gd, at least to me... thou' weight lost is not as speedy... but at least i look Fit and healthy~ hee...

Compare this...

i took it in May, when i was in bintan... and this....

(Taken on 12 Oct 08)
I'm proud of it... thou' I'm not at my best yet... but i still feel great... and i start cam-whoring... haaa~

and ya... both of us get really crazy over NUM until we wear their part tanks to town to shop for more NUM stuffs... OMG~
i got my 3rd and 4th pc of 'Mister Vainpot' and 'Mister Over Joyed' on last sun after our suntanning @ sentosa...

"U look familiar, are u at heeren yesterday?'
'uhhh... i'm at jurong... -_-?!'

haha~ shhhh....
And yest... i got my 5th party Tank~ i got myself 'BRAZIL' and 2 NUM shorts: 'BRAZIL' and 'GERMANY'... reminded me of that 'ah jie' we met in Cafe Del Mar last sunday... haa~ and roy got his 1st mister series 'Mister Promiscuous' and a pair of flip flop from Braziliano Praia~

Anyway, the cute little di di who serve us... the sales ppl @ NUM may be cute and hot but... u noe it lah... haha~

I shall stop buying NUM for a moment huh... oh ya... even my new suntanning oil is from there... FAINT~ haha

another thing... am i really dun look like my age..? ppls thot am like 26 yr old!!! OMG... I'm born in 1985, yr of ox tagged with the word 'LIBRA' on my head... hehe~ and pls! at this moment... i'm not even 23 lor... i'm only 22... still a young little INNOCENT GIRL... haa... ppl said gers @ my age look kiddish... hmmm... but at least ger ard are like wat they say... dun tell me u find tricia kiddish?! O_o or Nisa? or even my dearest TRina... haha... Its abt wat this ppl experience and how they dress up... i dun care wat kind of image i portray to others, i only noe wat kinda image i wanna see in myself... :) Anyway, gers out there, no matter how old u r, how fat u think u are, how ugly u feel abt urself... Jus need to learn to love urself... find the style u wan, find the type of beauty u seeking for... and love urself... with a 'positive' self esteem, we r unique... well, i rather be unique den to be jus pretty... haha... at least there r ppl who are addicted to me as well as ppl who hates me... haha... watever it is... jus live with no regret and live like there's no tml~ enjoy every moment u have in life... jus do wat u wan... be Free... No restrictions...

Pictures times~

Taken on 14th Sep 08, sis's birthday~

My jie jie... thou' i kinda abhor when ppl say i look like her and said that i'm the elder one... but... i still love her the most... (hmmm... she's the 2nd actually, cos i love myself the most, haha~)

My malaysia childhood frens~

Kissing the bday ger...

A grp photo... with my family and my relative... WHERE's ASHIE BOY?!

Some random pics~

My Handsome Daddy...

Lastly, my ashie Boi... the giant shih tzu~ haha~

The rare drinking session i had wif Xiao Mun Mun... haha~ 'thats y ppl prefer others than Heineken' SHHHH... =X

Roy and Me... pouting~ hee~

the one and only beer that i will drink~ Hoegaarden

I declared myself MISTER EMO... sob... ;(

One of the dinner session wif Roy... :)

@ Bugis Breko... on the 19th Sep 08, after a visit to Botak Uncle's office... opps =X Ray Ray will sure smack me hard for that... :p

Roy wif his Healthy Sandwich... me wif my Caesar Salad...

Random pics --->> caught Goldie Ger hugging bolster~

ok... Bear wif me... i'm a Parasitic Narcissist... haha... u can choose to skip this session, but jus dun let me noe abt it...

Before my haircut... my hairstyle go out of shape~
After my haircut...

Phew... be rest assure, you jus wake up from the horrible nite mare... haa~

Last but not least, a ultimate lame msn chat been posted up... featuring Jeslyn the DeSoLo and Roy the aHRoy:

jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
i am proud of myself
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
becos i found someone who i really love and someone who love mi... and i'm so sure that it will be forever and ever after...
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
??
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
wow
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
u got bf!?
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
hmmm
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
she my gf and my bf, she is my life and my everything
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
???
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
ya!
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
i know
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
urself!
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
YA!!!
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
how u noe?!
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
wahahah!!!!
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
OMG
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
I KNEW IT
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
u so so understand me so so well
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
i'm touch
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
haha
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
i also found someone that i love
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
Hasebe Yu
aHRoy : NUM craze~~!!! says:
wahahaha!!!
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
-_-!
jes|yn-desolo is a an Over Joyed Parasitic Nuisance. says:
pls kill urself

The word Sensual...

2008-10-02T10:22:00.005+08:00

Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) -

–adjective
pertaining to, inclined to, or preoccupied with the gratification of the senses or appetites; carnal; fleshly.
lacking in moral restraints; lewd or unchaste.
arousing or exciting the senses or appetites.
worldly; materialistic; irreligious.
of or pertaining to the senses or physical sensation; sensory.
pertaining to the philosophical doctrine of sensationalism.

American Heritage Dictionary -

–adjective
Relating to or affecting any of the senses or a sense organ; sensory.

Of, relating to, given to, or providing gratification of the physical and especially the sexual appetites. See Synonyms at sensuous.
Suggesting sexuality; voluptuous.
Physical rather than spiritual or intellectual.
Lacking in moral or spiritual interests; worldly.

Urban Dictionary is the slang dictionary you wrote

2008-09-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

This is so so interesting...

http://www.urbandictionary.com/

Check it out!

Long Update

2008-09-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

Finally... i'm alive agn... i mean my blog... for like so long i had neglect this little space...

Anyway... been trying to get back all my contacts... hmmm... feeling rather sad, cos after trying, i still lost some precious contacts... hai... and many ppl had changed... those who were once by my side... everyone seems to be so bz... and i dun noe wat are they bz-ing with...

Catch up with My 'Son', Kean Kean, and TN... kean said that i look different from b4 - when he 1st knew me... thou' i manage to slim down agn, but i look rather hectic and exhausted... is it due to work? or... hai... miss the old times when we had regular kopi sessions... ah kean will share every of his problems wif me and take my advice... now... even the two of them seldom mit up, jus like mi and shu, seldom mit up alrdy... tat's sad...

Toking abt Shu... i feel really sad... i jus find that she had changed, and we had become so so distant... i begin to lost touch wif her... she's forever bz... and ... hai...

Roy... still as usual... maybe i mit up wif him often... nth changed... at least am glad wif that... and wilson bro... still as cocky... the endless 'suan-ing'... relief in a way...

work wise... forever up and down... things seems to be gng down agn... many things cock-up... and am so pissed wif things... hai... how can i take care of everything? but everyone will jus think that they have alot of things to do and others are doing nth~ anyway, its in a mess... forever messy... when ur brain is messy, everything will be as messy... its like for e.g. a brain dead person is a dead man! brain is like everything.... so if the brain is gone, everything is gone-ED... hai...

Considering my next plan after my degree ending this yr... checking up all the available cos... i feel like taking up a diploma... learning technical... should looking at if i should take interior design? civil structure? electrical? mechanical? building?... and... comparing schools... gonna do my research asap... sch visiting... but for sure i need to take up autocad and 3Dmax... I need to learn abt the basic drawings of plans and stuffs...

am on diet again... so far i manage to shag off at least 6kg (certified by DOCTOR)... happy... but still the fit fit kind... cos i been toning up my arms, my thighs and my tummy... abs abs abs... anyone care to hit the gym? sports? some long long distance walks? swimming? badminton? beaches? i need to work on my beauty... facial and stuffs... massages...

Crazy shopping away.. bought lots of tops... still short of jeans... and more shorts needed... got my eyes on a couple of things....

Shades from Prada...

Bracelet from Tiffany...

My 2 aims... and ya... i needa get a hp... cos my bloody HP is failing me... it 'salt' alrdy...

OMG~ its kinda LATE... many pics to be posted... STay TUne....

Title: Single Artist: Natasha Bedingfield

2008-09-21T16:10:00.001+08:00

Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you

I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't

[Chorus:]
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be

Ah yeah Uh Huh that's right

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

[Chorus]

Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't

X2:
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be

Who on The L Word is GAY?

2008-06-02T13:28:00.002+08:00

Offical Fan Site of The L Word

I jus love this.... the result is kinda SURPRISE ME! haa~

Support The L Word... Season 5 is OUT!

Bintan Trip 17 May 08 - 19 May 08

2008-05-29T12:08:00.007+08:00

my 2nd trip to bintan... its my heaven... beaches and sun...

None of wat rumors ppl spread... i.e. dirty beaches, horrible plc, etc. i do agree that its kinda expensive t shop there... well, after all its kinda very commercialize... its a tourists place of interest, of cos u will expect the expenditure to be high. If u wan cheap shopping paradise, head batam town resort, or bangkok, where most tourists went there for shopping... well, its BEACH resort, so the only best things is the BEACH... lovely sun and beautiful which u can nv find in anywhere of singapore, jus forget abt sentosa, its nth compare to oversea's beach resort... check out the pics i had taken...

Having our lunch b4 heading to the ferry terminal... YA! i'm wearing SPECS, i have SHORT-SIGHTED! humpf~! its all 'ds' fault....

Boarding Gate 4

boarding pass... compare to my previous bintan trip in 2006, the terminal changed alot... now they even try to operate like ma chiam AIRPORT! with boarding pass somemore sia, scan and enter! EZ-link meh?!

Just before departure... there's DFS there, no worry... jus grab some cheap beers and ciggies...

Bid Goodbye to singapore...

In our own world....

BRF = Bintan Resort Ferry

Cam-whoring...

ah bao horrible + terrible stinkiko Breath! haha~ just kidding...

Act cool sia~

reaching the carefree place...

Bus to fetch us to the resort...

In the bus...

ah bao frown... cos i took too many pic?!

Our room... we took Nirwana Beach Club, its more of a chalet style... as mention, its a BEACH CLUB, hence all sea sport activities are held here~! no beautiful swim pool, bath tubs and big king-size bed.... dun expect too much from here... but i'm happy enough cos its a last min booking... Thanks to Linda from Holiday Bagus, she give her reservation to me! else i can forget abt gng... :)

Happy me...

hmm... i bought my pooh pooh along... :P hey, if possible i'll stuff ash in my bag lor...

Showing off my new pair of WINGS... haha... i believe i can FLY~! haha... i try to 'take off' but too heavy... wahahaha....

We reach there at ard 7pm local time, therefore no more sun... we jus jus in the dark and hunt for dinner...

The bloody chao cha bo from the beach club cause us to miss our bus to pasah oleh oleh (where the central market is, food are cheaper over there)... of no choice, we settle down at beach front resturant at nirwana resort, a 5 min walk away from our place. its cost us a bomb, a BBQ buffet with a bill of SGD$100 for two... hmmm... not tat ex... but i'm not prepare to spend so much on food~ anyway, the food is good... no doubt... at least better den the dinner i took at the level 2 bistro...
after the dinner, we walk to nirwana resort pool side and have a good chat... jus relax & enjoy... and stroll by the beach while we make our way back to the room... beach club have night party gng on at their very own pub by the beach... a small open air mini disco place... so if u're heading to bintan, may try walking to the beach club at nite as other resorts like nirwana and mayang sari will be kinda quiet during the nite... but u can always choose to stay in the room to watch ch 8, ch 5 , ch u, all the local tv channel... haha... BEH SIAN MEH?! forever~! OMG~!

The next morning we had schedule our day...

of cos we started off with the usual in-house free breakfast...

The morning beach... i miss it so much...

get change and get ready to get crazy~ too bad... there's only 2 of us, i can't take pic of our sea sport activities... anyway, we did kayaking... almost the same as cannoe but i can't picture out the diff.... my 1st time doing that... haha... my hands are so so tired lor... but its damn fun... haha.... cost us $18 for 2 person ride for an hr... have a short break and we head for the jet ski... when i insisted... haha... bloody ex, $45 for 15min, but i had nv tried b4, so i *fuck care ah! haha...

Pic taken after the activities...
very fast, time out, we hurry for our mangrove day tour...

While on our way to the reception area, we spot a monitor lizard walking on the small lake which leads to the pond next to the rooms... no kidding, this lizard is bigger den those we saw at the mangroove forest...

That's the huge pond...
Shortly after we reach the counter, the resort personnel took us to the mangrove plc...

Da-dah... the tix...

Waiting for the tour to start...

ah bao in life jacket, on the speedboat towards the mangrove forest...

1st we came to this stone, the fisherman there worship this rock, as during the high tide period the stone that is half emerge into the water make it look like a crocodile... hence the ppl believe that this rock which they known as crocodile god will bless them with more fishes and gd harvest...

The Kelong... 3 families actually stay by the river and they fish to earn their living....

The charcoal hives, the black colour thingy are all charcoal, this hive is formerly use for production of charcoal but now no longer in use...

the guide claim tat this is 'titanic'.. -_-! spot the heart with the arrow~! faint...

This trip really remind me of geography study during my sec 3 times... and yeah... the mangrove tree do eliminate the extra salt out from their 'body' naturally... the guide gave me a pc of the tree leave and can see bits of salt on the leave surface... i taste it... its salty... haha

Thru'out the journery, the guide intro us to all the different roots of mangrove trees, i.e. knee roots, breathing roots, etc. and one tat totally AMAZE me was... hmmm...

'standing roots' or something... he root will jut out of the water surface to catch the oxygen...
when i saw this, i keep laughing to myself... cos...

Dun u think it look like million of cocks standing on the water... wahahahahaha.....
end of my mangroove trip...

We went back to our 'house' after the trip to wash up and have a rest b4 heading to pasah oleh oleh...
Grab myself a pc of sarong, a shirt and a full body massage... but not fantastic at all... :( ah bao got himself a foot reflex but he dun enjoy it either.. i still prefer the uncle @ far East... ;p and... we have miss the dinner... :(
Head back to 'chalet', grab a thin crust pizza from the pub while listening to their live band singing R&B, nice wor... can really sing quite well... unlike the one i heard at Devils (they turn r&b into slow song, probably cos they can rap or wat)...
Back to the room, wanted to have some beer (cos i bought hoegarden @ DFS) in the room before joining the night party at the beach bar... but was too exhuasted... very fast i fall aslp....

Our last day @ bintan... i went to change my departure time, instead of 3.30pm, i change to 7.30pm... haha... as usual took the in-house breakfast den head back to resort and have a nap before check out at 1pm... after check out, we left the lugguage with the 'chalet' and continue enjoying our beach day... suntanning and swimming...

Is it the beach jus so beautiful...?! we even pick up some seashell and coral... :) remind me of my younger times when dad & Mum will bring mi & sis to beaches and pick sea shells...

The sea water is jus so clear... we even saw small fishes... nice...

The unforgettable nirwana garden garden resort...

Our lunch... Pizza by the pool~ hee...

Wash up at the pool side rest room and ready to go home... get really tanned... i look like a malay huh... -_-!

Bid goodbye to the beautiful evening beach...

Bid goodbye to the beach bar at the back...

We so dun wanna leave.... i will definitly go back agn real soon.... shor weekend getaway anyone?! buzz me k~

伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意

2008-05-29T11:41:00.000+08:00

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

This song is nice.... hee.... enjoy~

Libra Daily Love Horoscope

2008-05-29T11:06:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, May 28
If you are not careful, the following weeks could be a narrow squeeze of money, since you over spent on details, gifts or outings to such a degree that you actually are left without anything in the budget for the rest of the month. Don't give so much importance to the size or quantity of your entertainments, since a simple gift in a given moment can have great sentimental value.

OMG! how he noe tat i'm spending alot?! scary~

Allergy....

2008-05-02T16:51:00.004+08:00

i jus realized that i have this allergy.... when this particular thing hit me, i'll feel so fucking disgusted that i wanna throw up... it will make my blood boils and make me start cursing... U suffer from this too? i believe my fellow mates are... cos they felt the same way....

i'm allegy to 'thick-skin' ppl... ya noe... those who are ugly yet thot they are pretty... 丑人多做怪...

i believe they are born with this illness... illusion... they will have this illusion that they are very pretty, ma chiam nicole kidman or J.Lo... can't they go consult the doctor and take some medication to curb this life-threatening illness... wondering y is it life threatening..? well, we are the life that been threaten! u noe disgusting picture can be harmful to human well being?? OMG! be more considerate... i feel that i'll die young... cos alot of disgusting beings ard me and try to hunt me with their look... OH GOD!

Its kinda contradicting in a way, cos... i so wanna ask them for their giant poster.., better still if it's full body... cos ya noe... i stay in old HDB flats... at the back of my flat lay the river of kallang... its was said to be haunted... i jus need their giant photo to scare away all evils... my Dearest, can u give me a few pc of '护身符'...

Symptoms tell u that u are a victim of the tragedy:

When u happens to view some pic of a particular person, u start qns urself 'Is she/he really a human being?'

When see such the picture, u loss ur appetite and the doctor said u are fine!

when u see the pic, U begin to bite ur finger hard, hoping that its jus another nite-mare... (however it seems to be a stubborn one, it refuse to go!)

u begin to ask ard if anyone have the same feeling as u do...

u will begin to avoid everything that remind u of her/him... i.e. u stop eating pork out of sudden, or immediately u turn to 7-up when u see her holding a can of coca-cola!

Come on ppl... share ur thots wif me, if u are one of the victims... stand wif me and we shall fight these monsters....

**support hoegarden**

ROY! dun keep luffing k! its obvious k....

lots and lots to saypart 1

2008-05-02T14:43:00.002+08:00

YooooHoooo... i'm back... after ard a yr o torturing life as a tenancy exec... haha... i find out i hv so so much to tok abt... jus sooooo much... i dun noe where to start my DeSoLoGy....

anyway, i'll try and recall and blog as much as i could... i jus had a haircut @ reds... my preferred hair salon... i enjoy my every haircut session them... but i hate the facts that usually after a haircut, the hairstyle will have to take a few days to settle down and go in style... my current hairstyle jus look like a....

pathetic.... i will go and highlight my hair real soon... tired of this head of blacks strings....

recently the weather in sg is going mad... a late summer i'll says.... the season of hot humid weather came late this yr... usually this kinda climate will hit sg in march, but this yr march, was like dec rainy season, even for early april.... only until these days the weather turn real hot summer... and today, outside temperature might easily hit 34°C... Due to the wet climate, i had skip my weekend sun dating session.... and i have turn fair... haha... make an effort to have my long-forgotten sun-bath last sunday at my fav spot, sentosa KM8... good sunny day... and ended up i got myself 'chao tah', i was burned~ sun-burned! OMG! i can't accept it... i actually got sun-burn.... NO No nO no.... aloe vera and more aloe vera, finally it manage to save my beauty skin a little, but still... its itching every now and den... thanks to ah bao for her 'no-sunscreen' powerful banana boat suntanning oil... it really have no coverage at all... no worry, i'm recovering... and... i still wan sun... haha... wat till my skin settle down... *nob head*

i got so many things i wanna buy... i wan a hair curler... i saw this 10-in-1 curler by philips, so tempted... i can have the sexy big curl, trendy duper curl, silky rebonded, Q Q maggi mee head, maybe even AFRO....

Messy

2008-04-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

I'm so messy now... so bz... but happy...

and i realize myself in a mess... OMG!

My hair is so long & messy! my nails are so long and not trim! my Face becoming like the road surface! my hand become so rough tat my mum start complaining! my Dark eye ring become so DARK that ma chiam i'm wearing sunglass to slp! HORRIBLE!!!! so i smell so stinko (hey, i BATH EVERYDAY ok!) !

i have so much abt work and school tat i wanna share... i became so so workaholic (but i'm still playful)! i so feel like taking another engineering degree after my Facilities Mgt Degree... i'm MAD! i so wanna make my way up.... soon... real soon...

ANYONE NEED RENOVATION WORK FOR THEIR OFFICE? SHOP? A & A? TENDER? CONTRACTORS??

i should create an image for myself! ok... tml i'll wear Yellow Boots & perm my hair! not forgetting the distinguish big fat hairy mole! haha... oh ya... where's my measuring tape?!!! EXCUSE ME!

i hate growing up

2008-03-08T00:19:00.004+08:00

i so tired... am really exhuasted...

y do i have to work so hard? y am i not born to be bimbo, jus get a bloody 'high class' vase kind of job, getting a mthly pay with gd bonus and dun even require the use of brain! like, be a 'high class social escort' or something!

y do i wan to be who i wan to be, be so ambitious... wanting to advance myself, trying things out! can't i jus lay back and sit at the couch from 8am to 5pm, 5 days a week, make myself like a display vase, then seduce a rich man son and cheat him into marrying me and give me nth but lots of money! or born with a golden spoon, like paris hilton, brainless, and only need to open her legs wide! y do i have to be someone who persus my dreams, my goals and tired up myself....

being a human being is jus so tedious, the path to success is jus so tiring... am i expecting too much support, am i not doing much enough. prephaps i'm jus pure stupid, who wan to be indepent... y am i not someone who is always waiting to be spoon-fed...

recently, there's so many news.... sg security level is decreasing, ppl can get kill at crowded plc, terrorist can easily escape from protected compound. how i wish someone will just run out from behind and stab me to death, or when i'm seating at a corner, some terrorists set a bomb and bomb me to death, or wat... den i dun need to even work so hard...

if ur think that by jus saying is a kind of support to me, thanks. u can save it to urself... i can't change who i am, i can't change my expectation of myself, i can't change my attitude towards things... maybe by asking me to die is easier den asking me to change...

i did wat is within my limits to show my appreciation, to show my respect, to show how much i treasure but it seems nth, it seems not gd enuff... prephaps by being a bimbo will be jus gd enuff for u... i should have chose to be a loner, and stay as an old maid till i die... it will be much much better for everyone...

sad to say, till now, i nv regret for being who i am, i only regret coming to this world as a human being...

Reincarnation is only a kind of punishment... maybe vanish is den a bless....

Retro: Back to the 1940s

2007-11-08T08:14:00.005+08:00

suprisingly... am into the oldies recently... perphaps its the cause of recent movies... like 'secret' acted by Jay Chou features the song, [情人的眼泪] by 姚苏蓉 . And in 'Lust.Caution' acted by Tang Wei and Tony Leung, a scene features Tang Wei singing 周璇's [天涯歌女].

after all this attractions, i began to download and listen to the oldies. other than the 2 songs mentioned, am into 夜上海, 夜来香, 不了情, etc.. i noe these song are really old... in fact ur might think Teresa Teng's are far better... but if u really concentrate on these songs, u will find that its nice... really gd... they can really sing, reach the high notes, constant, especially in their 拉音 damn power... Their chinese pronunciation is super... and enough, its not 'eerie' at all...

And here i go... Recalls the song 天涯歌女 'original' by 周璇 (01.08.1920－22.09.1957), a chinese singer/actress in 1930 to 1940, She was known as 金嗓子 and 歌后.

歌曲：天涯歌女
歌手：周璇

天涯呀海角
觅呀觅知音
小妹妹唱歌郎奏琴
郎呀咱们俩是一条心
爱呀爱呀郎呀
咱们俩是一条心

家山呀北望
泪呀泪沾襟
小妹妹想郎直到今
郎呀患难之交恩爱深
爱呀爱呀郎呀
患难之交恩爱深

人生呀谁不
异呀异表春
小妹妹似线郎似针
郎呀穿在一起不离分
爱呀爱呀郎呀
穿在一起不离分

High Class Ang Mo BASTARDSSS

2007-11-01T15:11:00.002+08:00

About This Video
Did not pay in the end! The 3 British assholes ...
Did not pay in the end! The 3 British assholes in the video probably weigh 200 kgs combined and they want a 67-year old man to ferry them on his human-powered trishaw. Throughout the ride, they were mocking him openly. When they decided they have made enough fun of the poor man, they pretended to have no money to pay for the SGD$10 ride and made the man follow them around like a beggar. The video clip ends abruptly but in an interview with "The Newpaper", the senior gentleman revealed that they left in the cab without paying.

The senior uncle was mocked, humiliated and cheated of his money. These 3 assholes actually think this is funny and uploaded it at http://youtube.com/watch?v=XH6RIzb_UKU as "The slowest taxi in South East Asia" and commented "This guy was hilarious."

In a newspaper interview, the rascal Bo Davis who uploaded the video wasn't repentant and said that they were not bullies, just "insensitive. " His account is at http://youtube.com/user/B0Davis Feel free to tell him how you feel about him.

Do refrain from racist taunts in your comments. The bastardly acts of these 3 hooligans are theirs and theirs alone. There are bad eggs in every society. There are also many good people around. See http://www.flickr.com/photos/sallyand...
(Uncle Lee looks cute!)

Unlike what Bo Davis has claimed, the outbursts from the Singapore public have nothing to do with their race and nationality. If 3 local lads did the same thing to the elderly man, they will similarly be condemned and will eventually find their sorry asses in prison where they will be given "VIP" treatment. Bo Davis and his gang are lucky they are tourists and are now back home. In this part of the world, you simply cannot bully the elderly. If you did this in South Korea or China, the only way you can go home is in body bags.

On a side note, why are our elderly working such a tough job at such an old age? Is it because their public assistance grant of S$290/mth is not enough? I leave it to you to find out. These are the same people who built Singapore to what it is today but they can't enjoy the fruits of their labour and even have to be humiliated by tourists. This trishaw rider was a construction worker in his younger days so he literally built Singapore up! What is being done to help these people?

If you see senior citizens on the streets peddling their wares to earn a meagre living, please have a heart and buy whatever they are selling. Your comfortable lives in Singapore today are fruits of their labour.

i simply hate this ang mo-sss... they're bloody bastards... i really can't bring myself to finish up the whole videa cos i jus find them too sicko... imagine if this senior guy is your grandpa or so! how u feel?! simply fuck-up to the core... rubbish guys... they really have nth better to do and pls! its not funny at all~ lame... i shout upset for these bastard cos they dun seem to be born by human beings, they are so creature like! puke~ disgusting ppl... pls... god... make them learn... gif them their retribution... like kana knock down by cars and their head jus flew off and been eaten by crows... i curse these rubbish human beings...

and ya... and agn... if u said that its GOOD for SENIOR citizens to work until their death day! now u see, wat happen?! our fellow guys been MOCKED, becos he simply can't survive in such a 'FINE' country! shit... i can imagine when i grow old and still working and been mock by some foreigner and get mock and humiliate cos of my age and am still working! who to blame? the bastard ANG MO-SSS or the pathetic world that i'm living in?!

Ash Love Piglet

2007-10-31T17:39:00.002+08:00

When a dog fell for a PIG!

btw... its R21, pls make sure that you are above 21 in order to view the clip...

for foreigner, 18 and above will do... wat to do, sg restriction is somewat different from others... Uniquely SingAPore...!

Enjoy....

Hello Kitty Feast

2007-10-31T01:34:00.000+08:00

Catch the Hello Kitty Feast @ Takashimaya...

From now till 7th Nov 07!

dun miss the sale out there if ya're a Big Fan of Sanrio!

*wink*

Doggie Love...

2007-10-22T13:35:00.000+08:00

these few days i came across alot of things that i really wish to pen it down... but... hehe... lazy... well... i'll start my love for doggies again...

was at this pet shop call 'pet stop' @ upper serangoon... ah bao's bro working there... went there to buy some stuffs for my little ashie boy... OMG... there's like so many doggies... simply love it so much...

recently i been to many pet shops, realize that nowadays not much sales of puppies in most of the pet shop... and even in shops like pet safari and the one at parkway, there's limited puppies... but at pet stop, there's plenty of these bunch of cuties...

haha... met this black english cocker spaniel, name 'blackie' by the shop owner... he's only ard a yr old, was abandoned and brought to the pet shop by passerby... the poor boy was believe to be abused and abandoned. he injured his spinal cord, its a permenant damage... the dog cant walk properly, suffer from pain still... and blackie really have a very beautiful face... he is so pretty... how i wish i can take him but mummy sure won't allow and worse that he's injured, not ez to handle... anyway this lovely boy is such a sweetie... hee... its a pity... but gd enuf, the pet shop is keeping him... they bought him to the beach and he can swim... surprisingly, this sweetie can 'run' real fast, even faster den a labordor... well, he will drag his feet and use his fore-leg to 'run' 1st, when it come to a point, he will flip his hind-leg and 'run', somehow not like normal dog, but he is faster den normal dog. can u imagine if his spine is perfectly normal, he would be a great runner..! i noe i'm like discribing an air plane when its departing... haha... but its true, according to ah bao's bao...

its funny rite... y would ppl abuse pets... especially dogs... are they mad or deprise from watever nonsense... all this ppl should jus die out of a sudden and go to hell...

J-DeSoLo: ChangeS

2007-09-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

opps... not been updating.... have been super bz.. (as if, well, tat's the normal excuses that ppl gives wat!)

fine, i admit i'm jus pure lazy lazy lazy to the core... alot of updates....

1st big news!!! AKU GAIN WEIGHT AH... 10 KG okay! OMG!!! siao liao lah.... enjoy life, and ended up eating like nobody biz.... regret... all my pants pants cannot wear le... sob... i started my diet all over again.. i believe i can make it... give me 3 mth... i been watching my diet super closely... i'll be back...

2nd, not been suntanning these days... OMG! i'm super lazy, no wonder gain weight....

3rd, found my new hobbies... its kind of lame i noe... haha... i begin to enjoy prawning! haha... with my ah bao and his gang... yeah... 30 bucks for 3 hrs and only 6 prawns... haha... ah bao and me share one rod... we are lousy i admit... its ex but its jus for the kick... when u thot u caught one but it went off, and u jus lift the rod to check if the bait is ard, instead of the bait, u saw a prawn on it... tat's jus so fun.... hee...

another hobby, i'm hook to 'fishing', i mean 'fishing' those soft toys @ the arcade... haha... i'm childish i noe... lucky ah bao is there to be childish wif me... its this big machine with 2 deck and u have to scoop the sweet and drop it on the desk and it will push. anyway, u will get the toys in the end and plenty of sweets...

4th, found my new love... KUROMI, Sanrio character... i already post it on my previous entry... i simply love kuromi... i want plenty of it... but compare to hello kitty and my melody, kuromi stuff is quite rare in sg.... anyone gng taiwan? hongkong? japan? buy mi kuromi pls....

5th, been waiting to for the release of the movie, lust.cautious.... OMG... Tong Leong's movie by Lee An... i believe it will be a great show... Tony is acting as a bad guy this time rd and a violent guy... and Lee An have gd compliment to Tony, saying that he's a ideal actor that a movie director ever met. catching the sneak preview next wed with ah bao... yeah... can't wait for it...

6th, planning on a holiday trip... with my ah bao... haven't thot of where to go yet... bintan? taiwan? hongkong? thailand?

7th, changing course... changing to a facilities management course, it will take a yr and start next yr... will be super bz next yr... not much break for this as this cert will take only 1 yr.... jia you....

8th, bday coming.... hint hint.... hehe....

okie... its late... got to go be pig le.... tata....

KuRoMi

2007-09-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

Kuromi is a Sanrio character. She is a white rabbit-like creature wearing a black jester's hat. She is the rival of the older My Melody character and has a darker image. Most of her merchandise is black and pink. She is voiced in the anime by Junko Takeuchi.

Description
Kuromi is a white rabbit who wears a black jester's hat that features a pink skull on the front. She also has a pointed black tail. She usually has an evil or cocky expression, but can also be love-struck.

Friends
Kuromi is sometimes seen riding on a purple tapir known as Baku. Baku has the power of flight.

Kuromi is the leader of a tricycle gang known as "Kuromi's 5." Other members include a cat named Nyanmi, a dog named Wanmi, a fox named Konmi, and a mouse named Chumi. They all wear black and drive around in a menacing fashion.

Kuromi is the counterpart to the other Sanrio rabbit character, My Melody. Although My Melody has warm feelings for Kuromi, Kuromi's feelings are more inclined to rivalry.

Official profile
Birthday: October 31 (Halloween).
Personality: Although she looks cruel, she is actually very girly. She loves handsome guys.
Hobby: She enjoys writing in her diary. These days, she's into romance stories.
Favorite colour: Black
Favorite food: Pickled leeks.

History
Goods featuring My Melody and Kuromi first appeared in Japan in July 2005

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My New Love... so cutie rite this thingy... i want KUROMI!!! i want many many KUROMI!!! hehe... Turning into a kid huh... who's fault..? last mondaY i jus went to 'catch toy toy' with ah bao and roy... i got 2 stitch bubble blowers... hehe... and lots of candies... hee... i like it... and today ah bao bought me a kuromi finger puppet keychain... hehe... i wan a big big kuromi... hehe~ love my ah bao!

Ash with Kuromi...

stitch bubble blower

Anna Sui mini rouge from ah bao~

十二莲花

2007-08-30T02:09:00.000+08:00

第一可怜罗莲花出生风场昧快活
凄惨落泊就是我做牛做马也得拖
第二可怜莲花酸苦命莲花心头酸
后母不为仔打算想要嫁人也久长
可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代
第三可怜莲花姐坏命做工到半暝
头烧目晕那是病破病也得去赚钱
第四可怜莲花代好坏人客阮招待
十分招待嫌阮坏要打要骂又要塞
可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代
第五可怜莲花种有人实在无同情
也无外多钱阮用要打要骂又要种
第六可怜莲花城流落欢场歹名声
后母爱钱无爱仔迫到阮呀无路行
可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代
第七可怜莲花红阮是可怜歹命人
后母当阮不是人害阮痛苦一世人
第八可怜莲花头流落欢场昧出头
后母顾前无顾后害阮暝日目屎流
可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代
第九可怜莲花时做了这行已几年
可怜家人无相见阮嘛不知企叨位
第十可怜莲花光归暝做工到天光
想到有厝唔汤返终身再也难见光
可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代
十一可怜莲花怨想到身世真哀怨
后母迫我做这款越想心内越超烦
十二莲花无了时堕落黑暗难见天
少年赚钱是一时老来怎样过日子
可怜呀莲花呀实在可怜代

Another song from the 881 movie... extremely love this song... but... not able to find the mp3... too bad

881 - 一人一半

2007-08-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

jus waTCH 881 wif my ah bao... hmmm... not bad the show... the soundtrack are nice... its kind of like a musical movie by sg... consider it quite a gd sg production... wat i like most is this sound and well, i believe roy love it too... delicated to all u guys out there... enjoy:

by | Wu Jia Hui 伍家辉 | One Half 一人一半 |

english translation:

One Half

A Half For You
No Lost In Love
A Part For You
Our Love Will Last

As Time Goes By
As Silent Tears
As We Go Together
Love Is Challenging

You Are The One
Right Here Waiting
Just For Your Passionate Looks
I Fight For Love
Forget The Wound
I Really Willing To Die For You

A Half For You
No Lost In Love
We Found Love
Why Are You Leaving

We Found Love
Why Are You Leaving

I dun freaking gif a damn

2007-05-30T19:31:00.000+08:00

anyway, these days i been happy, very happy... for those who heard it, for those who hav not... jus dun be surprise... its jus parts and parcels of life... nth had change in me... i dun see it as a change... jus tat simple, somebody elses took my heart away... tat's it... nth in me have change at all... however, i feel that i nv changed but return back to who i really am...

i dun gif a damn to wat u guys think or seen... tat's me... the only thing is... i'm happy and tat's it... jus 'happy'... enjoying everything jus like the way everyone do...

Label me watever ur love to... i jus like the way it is... no one noes how good and wonderful it really is... jus heart this cutie alot! *muack*

Choices

2007-05-25T00:43:00.000+08:00

life is jus make up of CHOICES... its not jus abt making choices... its more abt being responsible for your choice...

I'm back to SPC, back for more challenges... i love my job but i hate the ppl... its always the same for me... wondering wat my 'new' company gonna bring me to...

i jus begin to enjoy my life agn... but somehow the thing abt choice came into place agn... Born as a librian... i hate choosing...

i hate myself for not able to do things jus as wat i wan... i hate it when i think too much abt the consequence... hate it when i put ppl b4 me...

:( where r u? :(

Wat the hell?

2007-05-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

Sign... what is life all abt? a moment i feel great, a moment i feel sux!

well, i'm offer to stay on... switch to FM, good opportunities... but i'm scare... wat if one day the force tat drive me to work was gone! wat can i do? stuck?! hai... but who gonna reject better offer? its all abt money... i dun noe wats ahead... i can't see anything... i jus wanna enjoy myself to the max... i'm feeling old and ugly... i'm feeling drained and useless... mending my broken pair of wings... i hate ppls at work... seriously... jus a bunch of FUCKers! but... at least i got a few good ones ard... hehe~ tat's my drives maybe... MUACK!

Thanks God!

2007-04-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

OMG! i'm extremely EXCITED! jus as i thot that life gng to fail me... i recharge myself agn! yeah~ Finally i have the rite reason to leave HELL forever... i got a job offer le... entering into the residential field... well, many ppl discourage me by telling me how sux residential managing could be... but... ya... i had enuff of commercial buildings shit...

after 2 years spend here at SPC... i'm totally tired of everything... the responsibility is jus too heavy... perphaps its me without enuff of experience, perphaps its lack of a good guidance, perphaps its jus the wrong time, wrong place...

i enjoy looking at building, solve defects, attending to my tenants, attending to my contractors... its nice at times.. seeing how ppl appreciate me, mainly my tenants and contractors... i receive gifts, greeting cards, a frenly smile, sincere words from ppl whom i offer help to... i enjoy myself, able to handle all this without teaching from anyone... but sad to say... no one in the company truely appreciate me... or rather jus tat one sucker who dun appreciate me, insult my capabilities, insult my abilities, and mis-use my smartness... worse, when he's the complex manager of tat site... watever i done, even if my clients, my tenants recognise my efforts, this bloody sucker will jus go spread rumours saying that how lousy i am... He nv wanted to understand my job scope but to insult me of not knowing my work, lack of knowledge of that bloody tenancy system which i had been working on for the past 1 year 10 mths, which no one else in the whole organization know how to use it. Further to all this displease, he even accuse me of not handing over my stuffs properly so as to cock things up... y is he jus so political and narrow-minded, thinking that the whole wide world is jus the same as him!

Oh full of shit... 2 years working in SPC, half a year at PGP... 1st time ever, i seriously hate working to the max! jus becos of one bloody fake old ah neh, becos of his selfish thots, he turn the wkplc into a bloody battle field... can't rmb since when, the topic ard the site is only abt politics and endless politics... asking me to fight for them, fight for myself, to fight against the devil, the way of fighting and jus every thing abt wars... I'm tired, truely tired of all this ppl, all this abt office wars... Everyone were severly injured, u see bleed scattered, death... Whether to pity those who got killed in this battle or to laugh at them for trying to fight...

I becoming abit more racism after all this rubbish... racism against that minority no more den ah neh... my apology, but the sight of neh jus make my blood boil... its jus affect me tat much... the way these ppl FAKE themselves! OH Hell... Human Beings are jus so ugly... they will do jus everything to get thing their way, even to the extend of shedding fake tears infront of superiors! LOL... funny beings... wat is this 50+ year old man thinking abt? to thrash ppl's rice bowl... jealousy? to kill family and live happily in ppl's misfortune? pathetic...

Should i said its a retribution... in life at times, even if certain things are known to be harmful but u jus couldn't get rid of it... i.e. sharks, we knew sharks are horrible creatures, they ate almost everything on earth, they attack human beings even, but still 'save the shark' campaign is on, y? they deserve to die ain't they? but... without sharks, it will kill the entire animal food cycle... another example, Drugs, drugs are harmful, in fact its illegal... but there's jus no way to get rid of it... if governement ban the use of poppy field, imagine the villagers who relay on the harvest for a living... same logic here, jus as that old black man din realize, by killing the sub-bordinates, things cock up and surface out... in e end, he suffer from the risk of been sack for his inability to manage the site...

Human beings are born wif brains, meant for the purpose of thinking and analysing... however, not many of them seems to make full use of its functions...

for wat i had experience in my wkplc...maybe in this life time, not much of them will experience wat i facing now... but well, a miserable yet good experience, at least i been thru the pain, the suffering, it build up my endurance in a way... and make me cherish watever that will come my way in the future...

Thanks god... Bless me wif a better new coming wkplc... after being thru this shitty plc... its seems like no barriers are unlikely to be overcome... And agn, like wat DeSoLo will always said... Thanks for watever and whoever, who play a part in my life, whether its a mispha or a fortuity, they jus make me realize and make me learn, in terms make me stronger.

~ jus a piece of mind to share. for those who have yet to enter the society, dun be surprise, that's jus the real world out there ~

Phantom Maddness

2007-04-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

I admit... i Kana the Phantom virus! catch the song broadcast in my bloggie~ its 'all i ask of u' from phantom... haha~ went to catch it wif roy... OMG! one word for it! ULTIMATE! Love it... everything was jus too good to discribe... catch it b4 it ends... its been extended to 20 may and no more... so... dun let this chance fly away! CATCH IT! no regret~ Muack~ nite~

p.s. pray for me... my interviews tml... hope to get into tat down town east offer....

Damn it!

2007-03-18T04:56:00.000+08:00

Freaking pissed... i'm blogging since 3am... and ya~ agn... as usual... this freaking stupid lousy idiotic blogging! Error in saving... and there goes my nearly 2 hr-worth of entry go into the Virtual RUBBISH BIN! SUX! damn it~ so pissed off... and tat stupid 'recover post' function is another pc of SHIT! fuck!

anyway... i hav had alot to blog, a damn bloody lots of pic to be posted... but i'm bloody damn tired rite now, gonna ZZzz... not sure when i'm able to post all those up... ARGH....

Btw... Had my blog skin changed! haha~ am a bloody Narcissist! i admit it~ *muack*

jus one pic to end my entry:

-END-

~~~Good-Nite~~~

Work isn't everything...

2007-03-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

Finally, i bk thru myself... i'm in a relax state... i had sent in my resignation letter, whether or not its a wise choice, i dun care, i can't bother it any more... after sending in my letter, i jus so relief... tat blackie been spreading rumors, been commenting behind my back saying how lousy i am and wat so not... i dun care... i dun need his comments, he is no one to made comments on me... but dun ever let mi hear any of it... since its the end, i'll jus shoot out watever i'm not happy wif... cos i dun care anymore...

money is my only concern... hmmm... planning planning planning... life is jus full of rubbish... jus depend on how u clear this shits... and understand that shit will always be shit! haha... well, ppl comment that i couldn't write but den... hmmm... i seriously think tat i couldn't write FORMAL english... my cursing and swearing is still perfect! haha... and ya... i neglect my blogging habit... oh gosh! shit! i should start blogging all over agn...

anyway, i jus watch 'The protege' not long ago... and i tell u, pls watch it, its bloody NICE! haha... i love it to the core... and guess who i'm watching for... it gotta be daniel wu?! ya wrong!!! ITS THAT MAN ~ ANDY LAU... haha... OMG! thou' he act as an bloody old man wif a head of white hairs... but... i jus love him... i jus love his acting, especially in scenes which he is require to be a real ANGRY MAN, shouting and scolding someone until the extend that he's so agitated that his veins shows... like one of his earlier movie 'Long zai bian yuan'... there's a scene which he scream at his 'godbro'... OMG! i jus love tat so much... and u can catch him agn in 'the protege'... OMG! i love him... he had become one of my fav artist... haha... worth watching seriously....

and oh ya, u can't miss out tat lady... hmmm... i dun rmb her name, i guess she's new... her first show... and u can't believe how gd she is... she's pretty and she can act real great! she will sure win one of the watever golder horse award...

obviously the storyline... other den jus another 'non-friction' movie... this show is like a documentary! telling u wats drug, how it come abt, y ppl take drugs, and the simple logic of economic! the demand and supply... there's demand, tat's y there's supply...to blame those drug Traffiker or drugs addict?? and understand tat even if u noe how harmful drugs are but u can nv get rid of it... and watch it to understand human nature... human jus love to blame other substances... like the drug addict blame it on those who supply them wif drugs... and the traffiker blame it on the demand of these drug addicts... so who is rite and who's wrong?

its not jus a movie that is so direct as u see, unlike those watever show, i.e. davinci code and sort... this show is more straight forward that u dun need to guess here and there... but however the art behind is to understand what its teaching... not jus abt 'Drugs are harmful' but abt human beings... ppl take drug out of 'heavenly feel'? NAH~ ppl take drugs out of 'lone' and 'empty'... watch it and u will noe it... hmmm... i mean WATCH and THINK and MAKE SENSE to it... hee~ enjoy~

Exhuasted... Tired...

2007-03-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

I'm not doing good these days... really not... dun mistaken, all is abt work and only work...

I'm really exhuasted... my work pressure had affect my personal life... crying all days and nite... couldn't slp well... been falling sick... breaking down every now and den... everyone was like telling me... y? y make urself so troubled, so miserable... afterall its jus work... no pt letting it affect me... true... very true... perphaps am thinking too much... afraid of out of work... but somehow i find myself struggling to work... stay up late even if i'm tired, jus becos i dun wish to slp and wake up to another working day... tat's so hell... i broke down, i scream at my boss, i dare him to get me replaced... but i noe it takes time... and i couldn't wait anymore... should i jus leave? i wish to... but... to leave without a job is a big danger... a discount in my self market value... i dun wish to... i knew by enduring, by staying on... i can learn alot of things... but its too hell to stay on... its been troubling me all this while... thots of leaving, jus wanna take a break of work... do my studies... change of environment, rest my mind... but i jus concern too much of how others will feel, how i had disappoint my clients, they been giving mi chances and helping me... but still, work isn't my everything... i dun wanna carry on my life this way, tat's not wat i wan!

money into consideration... habit of spending... i dun noe how i am to survive without a job, without an income... but really too tired of all these shits...

leaving.... should i be hunting for another job? concentrade on studies while doing some part-time? accept the offer of doing a small biz?

i hav an interview tml... wif SMRT, doing leasing... i dun noe if i wish to be shortlisted... somehow i wish to be, so tat i can resign with a good reason... but i'm tired of working... on the other hand, i dun noe wat is there for me... will it be better or worse?

I spoke to my HR manager, the one who brought me into CPG, asking for a transfer back to NUS... he sound enthus, but he need me to speak to tat blackie as its not nice for him to intercept in between... hence, i spoke to blackie... he will only transfer me out when he get a replacement... and it will roughly take him a mth to find replacement and another mth for me to handover... its hell! 2 mths!!! if i dump my letter, it will take only one mth... and best after one mth, i'm totally out of this shit, whether they got a replacement anot, whether i welly hand over all my stuffs anot... doesn't matters anymore...

the stress level is hell... even my mum begin to encourage mi to leave the job, seeing me crying, depress, falling sick... my mum is a traditional chinese, she sure dun allow me to resign jus like tat but she jus can't bare to see me in this situation... she give me her support... she even come to me and say: "hav u dump ur letter? not yet! do u noe u need one mth notice! if u can't take it den resign, dun keep on holding on to it, and suffer! jus quit and slowly look for a job!"

To think of all this... i should jus leave and hack care everything.... i wanna hear from u guys... should i leave?

A Real Loser

2007-02-18T23:49:00.001+08:00

i jus feel real lousy... I'm turning into a coward... a useless bum...

i'm not who i used to be... i hate myself... i hate life... i hate ppl...

我是個無知﹐無能﹐無聊﹐無趣的垃圾。或許是我不知廉恥高攀你。可否讓我能把不捨擱在一旁﹐不要在累人累己。

Maybe i should put up a strong front ... maybe i should isolate myself... maybe i should be fake... maybe i should hide... Maybe i should let go and nv get involve... anyway, i dun look forward in staying alive for long... Can i jus slp forever and nv wake up anymore...

M.I.A

2006-12-31T02:23:00.001+08:00

OMG! can't imagine... my last entry was like more den a mth ago... and ya, here come my last entry for year 2006... some updates of my recent life...

updates:
hav been real bz these days... ya... a short period of MIA... i hav freaking lots of photo to be upload, but... hehe~ no doubt, i'm bz to the extent tat i dun even hav time to blog, hav time for my social life...

bz wif....

Work
School

1. work-
hmmm... how should i put it? A gd news? or rather a bad news? to me, definitly i see it as a gd one... i got PROMOTED!!! but... with no increment... well, pathetic many might think... hmmm... but b4 comments are made, maybe ur should hear me out... ok... after one yr wif CPG @ SPC, finally, i can shake off my 'RECEPT' position... i'm taking over my senior's post as she left the company for another job offer.. ya... promoted with no extra cash to my pocket... but to me, i see it as a learning opportunity, with this experience, my career will advance to a higher stage. A lot of pressure, but lucky enuf, i hav support from ppl who can guide me. As company hav yet to empoly new staffs, the 2 gers are left to take care of 3 person's job. And of cos, as the main contact, i carry a heavier responsibility, hav to ensure things are right and ans to client or higher management... As i'm not technically train, i seems to face difficulties in my tasks. And of cos as wat ur noe, its my 1st job, to gain experience, to build career, require a lot of efforts. And SPC is not a plc for trial and error, even for a beginner like me, i can't take this new assigned task as lightly. To learn fast and settle all outstanding stuffs is critical. And of cos to prove my capability, i expect myself to make it asap and gain trust from ppl above me, believing that i am able to take care of tenancy. its rather a rare opportunity, seldom ppl wif a non-related diploma are able to take up a position of executive in other professional. Another pt, i'm only 21 yr old, still young to fight, still can afford to be paid low as i dun need to support my family, so money is not my main concern for the time being. And most importantly, FUTURE MONEY is more of my concern. no one are able to walk without experience any falls and injuries... i dun see the meaning of getting a gd pay but in a useless job, as in no way for uograde, no way for improvement. perphap sense of achievement is wat i seek for, gaining respect for my hardwork. To see in long term, rather den short term. if short term money is my main concern, i must well drop everything and be a prostitude, easy money and no knowlegde require. i got my pt there...

and ya, things @ work are not stable yet. hence i expect my 1st 3 mth of taking over to be tough. Am prepared to do OT whenever i can, even to go back during holiday... cos i rather hav a short period of suffering, as i noe when i fight for it, i manage to get thing stable as fast, i can start sit back and relax... Jus took over for 2 weeks, and jus too much outstanding stuffs to settle...

2. School -
one of my headache... too much effort/time been spend @ work, somehow i neglect my study... hai... worry... and ya, my tutorial and project... hav to buck up on it...

Tats all... jus hope my frens are able to understand... once all this stuffs get stable and settled, i will definitely catch up wif u ppl... at times in life, apportunity and chances dun come by easy, its up to us to grab hold and make full use of it, gain most out of it.

Thanks.

& to all my darlings...

A LAGI HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

*p.s. recently there's a lot of goat near my wkplc, as u noe its 'Haji'. These goats are to be slaughter in hrs time... hai~ understand tat its their tradition and religion practise, but to see all these live goats in front of my eyes, thinking that all jus can't escape from their fate of been slaughter, i jus can't help it but to feel extremely sad... *sob*...

I'm Back but Drained

2006-11-19T23:17:00.001+08:00

I'm back... hmmm, well, i'm back since sunday nite... haa~ OMG my trip is jus so lagi BUDGET! haha... in total i only spend like S$245 which include all expenses, hotel, transport, entertainment... Crazy... haha~ in another word, i din spend much lah... bought like... 3 pair of sunglasses for myself (i noe i'm mad), 2 bracelets, one mango racerback (ya lah, its MNG agn), one ciggie box for my shu and one surf pants for Roy... and tats all... so miserable rite... nth much to buy lor... cos lao niang been buying authentic stuffs, which over there it cost either same or much higher, so no pt buying wat... and i'm jus trying to save more for my Turi Beach Trip. Gng KL wif fendy and Rafi is always a 'no-need-to-think-too-much' experience... haha~ they noe the plc well enough, they will organise everything, and keep their hotel stay cost at lowest and keep transport cost at affordable price... and ya, clubbing @ KL is a must for fendy! i only went for the 1st nite, too exhuasted to go for the 2nd nite... went to KL hard Rock, surprisingly, i was shock by their live band... OMG... its so so so cool... they can sing R&B either @ the same tempo as the original one or faster den it. And they can RAP well... Latest hits are no problem to them, guess wat, they sing Freign's London bridge! tat's really so cool... and my Lovely PCD's buttons and Don't Cha... and not forgetting BEP's Let's get retarded, hey mama, Pump it... slow one like Ne Yo's So Sick... they even sang that indian R&B all time fav (i forgot the title), OMG! i was like 'WTF! they can even sing tamil song! PIANGZ!' they r so so gd... and ya, a series of Rock songs which DeSoLo not interested in at all... and they really ROX! power lah... i ever went to devil's live band and momo's one, really not as fantastic, but theirs really ROCK! anyway, Been to KL for like 3 times in 1.5 yrs time, i dun really feel much abt this trip...

Gng wif this bunch of dearie abangs, OMG! They are all wearing Sportie Shoes and hell, am wearing heels, thou' not this slim high heels lah... but my feet is suffering... the long hrs of walking ard, make my feets so painful... The ankel is aching and feets' condition become so bad, minor crack heels and corns... OMG! becos of the lack of enuf slp... my whole neck and shoulder is aching... hell! and due to the same result, plus bad weather, skin care insufficient, PMS, i got a terrible pimples outbreak! *sob* A need to pamper myself.. Facial, Massage, Foot Reflex, pedicure, Spa... i need all those... OMG! My beauty... not having enough slp and it totally eat up my beauty & health... not been slping early ever since i finish my exam... even for weekends, waking up early for suntanning session... and weekdays slp at 1am or later, and waking up @ 6am... and worse, KL trip... of cos, u can't expect me to slp my trip thru'out wat... so agn... slping late, waking up early... reach home @ 11.30pm and back to work the next day... ya... catching up wif frens after work and the bad habit of slp late wake early is still on... it tear my health sia! my neck is really so painful these days and not to mention abt complexions and darker eye circles... *cry out loud*

went for a classic mani and pedicure @ bugis village on tuesday. REGRET! take note ppl, dun ever go this shop @ bugis village lvl 2, venus manicure or something like this, nice interior, as if its so pro! located rite at the very end.... quite a big shop.... the look and and real is a total DIFF! FUCK! all the shop assistants are china gers... SHIT! i went there cos i tot it might be gd cos as i said the 'PRO' interior design... and other shop are all not available... sad to say, this shop is even a few bucks more expensive den the others... it cost me bloody $43! if the service is gd and everything, i dun mind... but den... it sux! 1st, the ger who did the pedi for me, dun look frenly, and she's very rough, she accidentally cut my 2nd toe and it bleed...! FUCK! and nvm... i tot a foot scrub is included but no... nvm, it might be my problem, din clarify clearly in the 1st plc... another ger did the manicure for me... she's slow... but well, no cuts, no bleed... den the 1st ger done wif the pedi, she took over the mani... HELL! a total HELL! my left hand is perfectly safe, as its done by the slow ger, but my right hand suffers... she cut my cuticles too deep and it bleeds!!!!! FINGERS! 2 fingers!!! my index and my last finger BLEED!!! and my middle finger also kana! CB... worse! at ard 8.30pm, all the gers left except 2 gers, one is that rough ger. and while doing the manicure, they hav a tiff! and RIGHT INFRONT of ME, CUSTOMER... oh come on, its not very pleasant to argue in front of customer rite... and ya! WHILE DOING MANICURE FOR ME, THEY ARGUING! now u noe y my fingers bleed! fuck! she basically vent her anger on me sia! i was like really pissed off... and i told her 'hello, its BLEEDING AGN!' and she said... "ur skin very skin huh, easily cut.." WOW BIANG! -_-! sweat ah! i sweat i'll nv go back agn... but i appreciate one thing is, she is so angry wif the colleague but she still force herself to smile to me... so... hai... wat to do, i'm a kind and loving soul... but for sure i'll nv go back agn! SHIT!

wed went to BioSkin @ parkway during lunch for my package... i tell u, i love Parkway BioSkin, the lady is so nice! shit, i forgot to get her name... anyway... i was like asking her abt the spa and massage prices... den i bought some facial voucher instead... while making payment, i was like complaining abt my neck ache, den the lady said, "i keep my ger to massage ur neck for u lah"... OMG! for free leh! so nice sia... SHIOK ah... massage liao feel so slpy... *yawn* shiok~ preparing for my coming facial... happening... being a gd ger, go home straight after work... haha

Thur went for foot reflex... and... the noe me! i mean ppl from the shop... haha~ i went there once last mth... and they still rmb me... haha~ giving me a special rate of $27 for foot reflex + hand/plams massage + shoulder + neck + scalp + bavk massage for a rate of freaking $27 only!!! great deal... its @ far east... whoever who is interested, buzz me k!

Fri... went to Balaclava @ suntec with shu, james & frens... btw, james is shu and mi's current cousremate... hehe... full of laughter cos of my inspired of 'big fish, small fish' game... been force to drink some beer and ya! i still hate drinking alcohol... a happy day but somehow i'm not as happy, cos i'm so occupy by some bothering stuffs, cos of a silly man who misunderstood my meaning... anyway, back home @ 12am...

Sat... a miser afternoon i hav... anyway, went over to mich's chalet wif Shu... I love love love such 'gathering'... we always take the opportunity to catch uo wif each other... and met xiu xiang, hmmm... really nice miting her agn... surpricingly we got so many common topics... nice chatting wif and so on... left @ 7am wif shu... and head home...

While I'm Away

2006-11-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

ok... Guys... Be good... i gonna leave for KL tml... 10/11/06 to 12/11/06... Everyone be good... especially my ah shu...guai guai hor... i'll go and see wats there to get for u guys, but... no promise... :p

Stay good, guys... and ya... many others tat i really worry for, my sexy daddy gonnaBe, my 83 ... haha... dun miss me too much... bleh... be rite back~

Yet another DeSoLoGY - 喜新厌旧

2006-11-08T09:15:00.001+08:00

"Life is about Meeting New and Dumping Old?
人类天生的坏习惯是喜新厌旧吗?"

*bare wif it, I'm getting abit Narcissistic these days... :P i been throwing my pics all over my bloggy... hehe~ probably cos of my diagnosis of personal mental disorder (well, i self-declar as a 精神错乱 not 神经病 k... jus abit gila but not CRAZY!)

OMG... hell~ life under dramatic construction... haha~ i sound abit too exaggerate... not as bad as u ppl tot... ya... jus as wat DeSoLo is... emotional, negative, sensitive, fear of pain, she is able to walk out of a painful emotional situation pretty fast... maybe am immune from it... haa... wow~ 说大话... not really immune lah... can walk out fast cos mind stronger den heart... am a follower of mind, perphaps tats the reason y i'm keep on"thinking so much"...

Fated to be in unclear situation... the kind of unclear is like keeping everything unsaid, with alot of bloody hell-like mind game involve... and my dears, am not a gamer k, i dun game! i hate mind game... My mind is for guilding me to the 'no-pain' boundary, not for gaming...

Born wif very bad temper... i dun throw tantrum doesn't means i hav an angel like attitude... very stubborn, i believe there r ppl who experience my stubborness... am impatient... very harsh... harsh in decision i mean... 坏脾气又任性! 真难搞哦! dun ever try me... once my anger get working, my reaction will be out of control, u gotta lose me forever... i dun like been taken as a dummy... like... 把我当成牙签，填补空间, take me for granted. look for me when need me, hack care me when u dun need... i hate this kind of thing! it sux! I dun pester ppl, i dun go after ppl, i dun even approach stranger... so... 搞清楚好吗，是你先招惹我的? piangz...

human being is born imperfect, full of bad habit... like... the one i always say... Selfish and greedy... realizing one more... 喜新厌旧... direct translate: adore new and abhor old... having new stuffs and get tired of old stuffs... meeting new and forgetting old... very pathetic... but... agn... this mistake is all wat human being detest yet commited... haha... to the extend tat at times, stuffs dun means jus non-living things... horrible and ugly being huh... but well, tat all wat human being BORN to be... NATURE~ really... not wat ppl taught u but wat u possess since the very 1st day u are brought to life... sob... 好无奈啊，但这就是千真万确的事实。不在你我的控制防卫内~

currently constructing my life... cut away some of my habits... putting my heart in some other stuffs... resisting the facts tat ppl come and go jus so fast...things are like 一波未平，一波又起, getting far out of control... scary... trying hard to stablizing my conditions... relax...

p.s. will be away for 2 short trips this mth... KL (10/11/06-12/11/06) & Batam Turi Beach (26/11/06-27/11/06)... really SHORT trip, but well! gd enuf le lor~ bleh :p

CANCEROUS FOODS / PRODUCTS

2006-11-07T09:06:00.000+08:00

"jus one of the email tat i received and wanna share wif u guys... jus
take note of the food/product and lead a healthy life!"

INSTANT NOODLES
Dear instant noodle lovers,
Make sure you break for at least 3 days after one session of instant noodles before you eat your next packet! Please read the info shared to me by a doctor. My family stopped eating instant noodles more than 5 years ago after hearing about the wax coating the noodles - the wax is not just in the Styrofoam containers but it coats the noodles. This is why the instant noodles do not stick to each other when cooking.

If one were to examine the ordinary Chinese yellow noodles in the market, one will notice that, in their uncooked state the noodles are oily. This layer of oil prevents the noodles from sticking together.

Wanton noodles in their uncooked state have been dusted with flour to prevent them sticking together. When the hawker cooks the noodles, notice he cooks them in hot water and then rinses them in cold water before cooking them in hot water again. This process is repeated several times before the noodles are ready to be served. The cooking and rinsing process prevents noodles from sticking together.

The hawker then "lowers the noodles in oil and sauce to prevent the noodles from sticking if they are to be served dry. Cooking instructions for spaghetti require oil or butter to be added in the water when boiling the spaghetti to prevent the pasta from sticking together. Otherwise, one gets a big clump of spaghetti!

There was an SBC (now TCS) actor some years ago, who at a busy time of his career had no time to cook, resorted to eating instant noodles everyday. He got cancer later on. His doctor told him about the wax in instant noodles. The doctor told him that our body will need up to 2 days to clear the wax. There was also an SIA steward who after moving out from his mother's house into his own house, did not cook but ate instant noodles almost every meal. He had cancer, and has since died from it.

Nowadays the instant noodles are referred as "cancer noodles".

SATAY LOVERS (BARBECUE)
If you all eat Satay, don't ever forget to eat the cucumber, because eating Satay together with carbon after barbequing can cause cancer.
But we have a cure for that... Cucumber should be eaten after we eat the Satay because Satay has carcinogen (a cancer causing element) but cucumber is anti-carcinogenic. So don't forget to eat the cucumber the next time you have Satay's.

PRAWNS (SUGPO) & VIT C
DO NOT eat shrimp / prawn if you have just taken VITAMIN C pills!!
This will cause you to DIE in ARSENIC (As) toxication within HOURS!!

PORK AWARENESS
Try this and see whether the pork you bought has worms. There goes with your "Bak Kut Teh" for those who love it. Most men love to eat this so watch out before it's too late. If you pours Coke (yes, the soda) on a slab of pork, wait a little while, you will SEE WORMS crawl out of it. A message from the Health Corporation of Singapore about the bad effects of pork consumption. Pig's bodies contain MANY TOXINS, WORM and LATENT DISEASES.

Although some of these infestations are harboured in other animals, modern veterinarians say that pigs are far MORE PREDISPOSED to these illnesses than other animals. This could be because PIGS like to SCAVENGE and will eat ANY kind of food, INCLUDING dead insects, worms, rotting carcasses, excreta including their own, garbage, and other pigs. INFLUENZA (flu) is one of the MOST famous illnesses which pigs share with humans. This illness is harboured in the LUNGS of pigs during the summer months and tends to affect pigs and human in the cooler months.

Sausage contains bits of pigs' lungs, so those who EAT pork sausage tend to SUFFER MORE during EPIDEMICS of INFLUENZA. Pig meat contains EXCESSIVE quantities of HISTAMINE and IMIDAZOLE compounds, which can lead to ITCHING and INFLAMMATION; GROWTH HORMONE which PROMOTES INFLAMMATION and growth; sulphur containing mesenchymal mucus which leads to SWELLING and deposits of MUCUS in tendons and cartilage, resulting in ATHRITIS, RHEUMATISM, etc.
Sulphur helps cause FIRM human tendons and ligaments to be replaced by the pig's soft mesenchymal tissues, and degeneration of human cartilage.

Eating pork can also lead to GALLSTONES and OBESITY, probably due to its HIGH CHOLESTEROL and SATURATED FAT content. The pig is the MAIN CARRIER of the TAENIE SOLIUM WORM, which is found in its flesh. These tapeworms are found in human intestines with greater frequency in nations where pigs are eaten. This type of tapeworm can pass through the intestines and affect many other organs, and is incurable once it reaches beyond a certain stage. One in six people in the US and Canada has RICHINOSIS from eating trichina worms, which are found in pork.

Many people have NO SYMPTOMS to warm them of this, and when they do, they resemble symptoms of many other illnesses. These worms are NOT noticed during meat inspections.

SHAMPOO
Cancer-causing substance in shampoos. Go home and check your shampoo. Change before it's too late... Check the ingredients listed on your shampoo bottle, and see they have a substance by the name of Sodium Laureth Sulfate, or simply SLS. This substance is found in most shampoos; manufacturers use it because it produces a lot of foam and it is cheap. BUT the fact is, SLS is used to scrub garage floors, and it is very strong!!! It is also proven that it can cause cancer in the long run, and this is no joke. Shampoos that contains SLS: Vo5, Palmolive, Paul Mitchell, L'Oreal, the new Hemp Shampoo from Body Shop etc. contain this substance.

The first ingredient listed (which means it is the single most prevalent ingredient) in Clairol's Herbal Essences is Sodium Laureth Sulfate. Therefore, I called one company, and I told them their product contains a substance that will cause people to have cancer. They said, Yeah we knew about it but there is nothing we can do about it because we need that substance to produce foam. By the way Colgate toothpaste also contains the same substance to produce the "bubbles". They said they are going to send me some information.

Research has shown that in the 1980s, the chance of getting cancer is 1 out of 8000 and now, in the 1990s, the chances of getting cancer is 1 out of 3, which is very serious. Therefore, I hope that you will take this seriously and pass this on to all the people you know, and hopefully, we can stop "giving" ourselves cancer-causing agents.

Please, pass these information.

Predicting Future

2006-11-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

If only i'm possess with the ability to see future... If only chances are given... If only i can turn back time...

best if i can do without getting emotions involve... best if i'm in control of myself...

was digging for my this tension's album, happen to hear this song... once i ever so in love wif this song... jus wanna share... enjoy~

Title: 先说再见
Artist: Tension

* 当时我没话可说两眼无神脑空白
那消息实在来得太快
也可能是我自己太冲动误解你对这友情的期待

# 爱情像是一场戏我这出是个悲剧
没演完就有这样的结局或许是我真的不懂爱情
我还能怪谁只好怪自己

@ Goodbye my love 我都明白虽然无奈还是要看得开
Goodbye my love my love 短暂的爱
或许十年又一天你才会珍惜这一段爱
你不会明白我心有多痛心里好痛 Goodbye my love yeah

Repeat * # @

Why does this always happen
I guess it was over before it begin or perhaps
It was never meant to be 只好在今天 Goodbye

先说 Goodbye 我都明白虽然无奈还是要看得开
Goodbye my love 不想分开 (短暂的爱)
或许十年又一天你才会珍惜我我的爱

Pieces of Me

2006-11-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

Born as a sensitive mammal... tat's DeSoLo... i think and think of all things ard me... be it a person, an act or an event... Strong in a way tat i hardly shed tears, independent in a way tat i dun need someone to be beside me all the time.... mentally weak... escaping from facts, escaping from truth... i dun like ppl to lie to me, but i prefer truth to be hidden... unable to accept truth or facts... afraid of truth... many times, truth hav failed me, truth hav hurt me... fear of pain... i run, i escape, not to face it, but i understand no matter wat i do, truth can nv be change... unable to accept it gracefully prephaps...

Mind Imprisoned... i'm stuck in a way tat i can't help it... i can't seems to walk out... its been yrs... I can't help it...

A choice need to be made... but i choose not to face it... undecisive... too many things tat i can't bear to let go... i dun wan to choose, i dun dare to choose... Greedy & Selfish... Uncertainty...

I dun noe wat i wan, i dun noe wat is it tat i'm holding onto... wat should i do? wat i should be done? Unknown...

i sense the changes... i feel tat things are not as gd as b4... Maybe i'm lying to myself to make myself feel better... Maybe i'm acting... I noe myself, i noe where i stand... Dreams & Reality... one day i hav to wake up and i noe... i'll be fine in no time...

i'm walking out... i'm leaving... i noe i'm not patiene enuf, i noe i'm a bit harsh, i noe i'm a quitter... but i afraid tat i'm holding on to the wrong thing, wrong idea, wrong dreams, wrong goals... most of all, i'm afraid of wasting my time, my effort, my true emotions on things tat bring no satisfying returns...

gng thru wat i went thru, i'm sure u will become like me... its nth ez for me to come to the current state where i stand... its beyond imagination...

is it really late? or is it an opportunity? or is it my turning pt?

Libra - its hard for the scale to be balance...

HOU BLING~

2006-11-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

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wahahaha... jus to entertain Roy's Blog Entry~ wahahahaha~

On the 19th Oct 06 . . .

2006-10-29T21:38:00.001+08:00

well, i noe i'm not been updating my bloggy as often... hmmm... alittle bz, or shall i say i'm jus plain lazy... Shall share abt my recent life den hit onto my blog topic (it got to be a outdated entry agn)...

hmmm... having my exam next sat, i got to like study study and study... URGH... not having gd times wif my new BLACK boss these days... a extremely difficult leceh FAKE old man! fake as in act frenly... agn, these ppl boost abt how gd, how capable he is, tat higher management send him to take over this project... but somehow i wonder higher management gave him these hard to handle project is becos of his ability to turn everything fine or is it trying to chase him away, make him quit his job (and the company dun hav to compensate)... anyway, i been in there for more den a yr... there's nv any big issue, until these days, becos of some bloody ppl (other den black boss, there's another old maid), they miser my days sia.. i freaking feel so not wanting to report to work... They jus simply make no peace in workplc... jus one qns... if u were the manager, will u actually tell ur clients tat one of ur empolyee threaten to quit cos of been force to accept ur client's request during an OFFICIAL MEETING. Oh come on, its an internal issue, clients shouldn't be involve and of cos it will invite unpleasant rumors from the client side and obviously the company's reputation will be affected. Its a LONG story... Afterall, he's jus a very FAKE person, who act as an angel, saying tat he will HELP u but den sabo u and bring up his good name! PUKE!

enuf of him, he will jus dirty my beautiful blog... well... had finish up my assignment wif shu and hav handed it in... relieve... hmmm... been rather gd ger these days, not gng out after work... monday mit for assignment purpose.... tue a stay-in for a public holiday... DULL... well, went to hand up the assignment wif shu and went over to city hall to shop for some stuffs and back home... nth on agn on thurs... and fri, mit 'Ronald', kean's best pal, he jus came back from china... cool... we can actually click pretty well... amazing, nv expect myself to meet great ppl outside my sch and work... haha~ we went for supper, we as in Kean, Ken, 'Ronald', my darling Shu & me... haha... and ya, i forbid myself to eat... no food for me after 6pm... am on strict diet agn... and we crack alot of jokes along the way... haha~ and thanks to the well build of kean's body, which make him look a little gayish thou' he's 100% STRAIGHT, the 2 ger start disturb him... we purposely call him 'SISTER' and said stuffs like 'hey sis, when is our next facial session? The latest Lancome 2 way cake... blah blah blah'... which in term make passerby tot he's really a gay... haha... Anyway, a nice mit up... haha~ and SAT, one of my craziest day... went to work in the morning, together wif juanna, we head Seri's plc to make a hari raya visit... only manage to reach @ 3pm... and wow! mit Gad for a movie @ 6pm... :p i'm late... *blush* haha~ catch 'death note'... its nice! the storyline as well as the lead... wahahahaha~ but the interesting part is abt the investigation of the mysteries... well, expected lah, its made from jap comics... so ya... they r jus full of ideas... Its great... and rush home after movie... hav a refreshing bath and quickly rush down to Parklane Kbox @ 10++pm, mit up my sec sch pals... and ya! its Samantha's bday~ hee... hav a gd nite of singing... ya... nag by buddy Dewei.... complaining tat i giving excuses for suntanning session and blah blah blah... haa... soon, i promise soon... i won't forgo my suntanning for long, trust me... i hate it when i'm fair-skin... and for Mich, get to catch wif her alittle more yest... and ya, sang till 4am and head home... *yawn* and sun, day-in... a Homely day... hehe... oh ya, one of my relative from malaysia is coming over to stay as she found a job in sg... hmmm... i begin to realize how small my house is... hai~ and SHIT! i hate it tat my house hav only ONE miser toilet... which means... we got to queue up for using TOILET! HELL... anyone wanna take mi in?? but... pls do make some space for my ashie boy, my tarepandas, my bone bone, my mashi maro & my mini stinki pillow... haha... ok ok... no kidding, if anyone hav gd plc to rent, do let me noe... helping my relative to get a plc near town area, best if near my plc... *wink*

Dinner @ Soup Restaurant

2006-10-24T02:16:00.000+08:00

shall touch on my dinner last sat... Sis's treat~ haha... To be said as my bday treat but den its actually for PaPa, my sis dote on my dearie daddy alot... yeah... and its for him~

The Yummilicious Chinese Cuisine... DeSoLo Love SOUP... yeah... to mi its one of the most tasty thing which isn't as fattening~ haha~ and ya... the chicken, highly recommended by GGGGGad...
Munch Munch...

Of cos... i won't stop my narcissism... haha... i heart myself alot... and yeah, my new haircut, but i doubt there any changes... length maintain, jus a bit of trimming done... layered them, make my hair more volume...

The BOSS of the day... its on her...

The Old lovey dovey Couple... As loving as usual... jus falling for this kind of simplicity... *muack*

My mummy Heart me lotz... *sweet*

My DaDDy... caught on cam wif mouth full of food....

my ELDER sis... no choice but to state it down cos... everyone tot i'm the elder one! do i really look tat old? sob...

I heart my Mummy Too... thou' she might be a little naggy at times :p... haha~ i love taking pic wif her and get her to make those cutie funny faces... Gee...

Wif my sis agn... haha~ we look alike? do we? hmmm....

MuM & DaD wif nice background... *weeeeee*

Mi agn... actually i wanna take pic of the beautiful background but den... the DiDi sat there and block the nice 'scenery'... Humpf!

Shall end this entry wif a pic of the desert... *drool*

hmmm... ya... i noe its abit BIMBO blogging... haha~ but... (Trina's Slogan) 'I LIKE CANNOT AH!' haha~ anyway, highly recommended to those who luv SOUP and CHICKEN! haha~ *wink*

Post Party Activities

2006-10-23T23:32:00.001+08:00

wow wow... am back... back from my bday party... finally... its like so bz...

and thanks to those who came, those who gif pressie, those who help... and ya... especially to SHU & ROY... my 2 dearies, help me the most... love them all... thanks to gad, pat, belle, edwin help me wif the bbq... am really a bad host, i actually get my guest to do bbq for me... so sorry.... thanks to sexy ah kean and horny ah ken, send the drinks down on fri and came on sat... no doubt kean is having a bad hair day, he still attend cos its JESLYN's BDAY! haha~ and ken, he wore lens sia, so yandao wor... and ppl like ramli and raffeeh who came jus to pass mi the pressie and din eat anything... so touch.... and juanna who came after her dinner... and my poly niangs, new pump pump + bf, ben, rizlan, john & ariel... and weixiang, one of my designer who came wif a nicely wrapped up pressie... Thanks to cutie Jen helping me as a entertainer... haha~ and ya! mich and dewei, they and their mangos.... OMG... so many ppl to thanks... jus whoever who attend the party, really appreciate it... am a bad host, many ppl din get to eat the cake... hai~ i dun noe wat my mum was doing, she cut and cut den keep a huge portion in the fridge... well, she tot everyone hav their share... hmmm... i guess its jus too messy... OMG... i din took enuf pic, one of my greatesy regret! SHIT! but anyway, waiting for ppl to send me those pics...

and ya... my pressie... let me show off... PLS... haha~

My 'cam whore' racerback from roy, weiXiang & dexter~! (i noe i look totally hell in the pic! BUT pls FOCUS on the shirt and not the face! wahahaha~)

The addidas watch from ah koon, rafi, fendy & ramli... they bought me the black one actually, i went all the way to tiong bahru to get it CHANGE~

my 2nd watch... actually i went to change it too and top up 100 bucks to get this, my dream watch... jus love it... :p

The Shu Umera Cleanser from my Poly Niangs.... love it to the max!

A ulitmate lovely pressie from a lovely fren, esther... so sweet of her, she's also an anna sui's fan... and so sad, she's outstation, and of no choice she hav to gif my party a miss...

True star GOLD from Kean the sexy and ken the horny... SHIT one lor... i told kean tat i wan True star and not true star gold, but den he showed tat stupid sales girl and she gave him true star GOLD! probably the ger is trying to con his money cos Gold is much expensive... but i still prefer true star! HUMPF!

my 2nd DKNY delicious series from wilson brother... so sweet...

well... i got another 2 bikinis which i haven't hav the chance to take pic of it... actually juanna and mich bought the same bikini for me, so went back and exhange agn... haha~ i did alot of exchanging huh....
hmmm..... others are all CASH CASH CASH... my ang bao!

still waiting for 3 pressie... one from Trinana... all the way from aussie, and it got to be 2 X delivery, as in she sent out the stuffs she bought for me and still one outstanding one, my PCD jacket, haven reach her yet, so she will send it out at a later time... love her, wonder wat she getting for me, a real surprise sia... afraid tat i might drop my tears.... *touch*

2nd one from my dearly ah shu... she gonna get me the New Urban Male racerback? or the bag? or anna sui loose powder? or doll girl on the beach? or gucci envy me? ... hmmm... dun noe which one to grab... haha~

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went over to the pasir ris PA complex on fri noon... ROY went to rent a car during tat period, and he really help me alot... drove the stuffs over and help in the decor and BLOW BALLOONs... i mean PUMP balloons... and Shu came down at a later time with pat and yuan... and not forget kean and ken sent the drinks down in the noon... and gad sent 3 bottles of white wine down in the late evening... couldn't fell aslp for the whole nite, cos darling ash is making so much noise in the middle of the nite... send shu to work and do my preparation... and ya... ppl start coming in... and the usual stuffs happen... eat, chat, cut cake, blah blah blah.... den bid gd bye... haha... end up left only a few of us... and jacob came over at 4am, hav to be awake for the mahjong session as requested... and ya... I DIN SLP! all the way till morning 8am! finally, i got my slp... and... wake up at 10am for wild wild wet session wif roy and shu... OMG! nuts... play till 4pm... went back to chalet, NOPE! no slp... cos... getting ready for dinner, as uncle and aunties coming for BBQ session... and we start playing mahjong agn... end up reaching home ard 1am... OMG! scary... totally exhuasted... wake up on a monday morning, went to get all my pressie change... and mit roy for dinner, after tat accompany him to return the car... tue is a total sch day kinda thingy... jus went to sch and ya... nth much... and wed... i got a dinner treat from Wilson Bro... kua kua kua... catch ah kean @ NYDC... walk ard, grab my New Urban male England racerback... den back home... a few pic to be uploaded... fri, back to my NUS gang of abangs... farewell dinner for Chan @ Keppel railway station... and ya! i got my hair CUT! haha~ Worse of all, i'm out of my mind to actually went to Little india on DEEPAVALI EVE! OMG! thanks to Fendy & Rafi... more of it to come... i went for dinner @ soup restaurant wif family... there will be another entry on it... *wink* Finally SUNDAY, no suntanning~ haha~ god bless... i'm having nice ppl ard me... i totally heart my bday week... So much love and concern... I HEART U GUYS~ *MUACK*...

and ya... counting down to the end of my bday week... i'm officially an O.L.! O.L.=OLD LADY... sob... haha~ ya, i'm been too exaggerate... but HEY! many ppl told me tat once a lady hit 21, she get old very fast... hmmm... as in feel tat times pass a little too fast, faster den expected... that's wat my surrounding ladies told me... :(

anyway... a big *KISS*... thanks everyone who play a part in building who i am today, no matter its gd or bad... haha... loving every seconds of my life... *muack*

For Trina and Trina Only

2006-10-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

dear ger,

While i'm walking along the shopping alley of far east plaza... i came across this toy shop... and i saw something which remind me of u.... it send tears to my eyes and filled the surrounding with Misses & Emptiness... I jus miss u so much...
Guess wat i saw...?
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Who else? It got to be Ms PIGGY! Kua Kua Kua.... but no doubt, i really miss u alot~ hehe~ Counting down to Mar 07... another 5 more mths to go... SOON.... Dustbins re-unite!

My Bday Wishlist....

2006-10-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

OMG... its like... i hav loads and loads of updating to be done... my birthday preparation, realizing DeSoLo to be a Extreme Sucker for GENTLEMEN, to get my wishlist up, to get my recap of my bloggy done b4 my 21st plus another espisode of DeSoLoGY! so many things to be done... hai~

anyway... i'll touch on my wishlist and also alittle of my bday preparation...

well... i got my buffet dish chosen... It's HALAH.... got mee goreng, oor nee, mutton rendang, watever lah... and my mum will be frying bee hoon, nuggets, fishballs, etc... alot of food i will say... lagi lots and also BBQ!!! haha~ eat until u puke! my bday cake is one challenging case, should i jus get my uncle to make a lagi big aga aga as my bday cake or should i buy? its ex leh... hai~ i was a key wif a crown on top... haha~ so grand rite... haha~ as if! money money money... jus needa fock up quite a sum for all these~ and ya, my guest list... oh... ard 50 pax coming?! afraid tat the plc might be too small.... anyway, it will be at pasir ris holiday flat, will update everyone agn... can't wait to get my wishlist up!!! haha~ here it goes~

well.... haha~ my wishlist is abit too ex... haha~ i hav to admit... but well, there's cheap stuffs k! haha~ jus get me anything from the list, i'm happy enough! haha~

Can someone buy me this hp... BLACK LG chocolate Black Label Series (KG800)... Jus addicted to dark choco~

I seriously always wanted a mont blanc pen... jus a simple one will do... the one in the pic is MEISTERSTÜCK PLATINUM LINE HOMMAGE À W.A. MOZART... haha~ well, tat bloody pen cost like 200-300 bucks or more... kua kua kua... haha~

Get me a OTO Trimax TX-908 pls... i dun wan tat osim one hor! haha~

A complete season 1 to 6 Sexs & The City DVD uncut version...

If someone really love me tat much... a SAXOPHONE pls...

DeSoLo jus love purple so much and she wants PURPLE GOLD... jus any nice design...

and haha~ here comes my LADs...

Any of the above... but no Erro cos i hav Erro already... preferably, Mirari, but she's a limited edition, quite difficult to find in sg, but i noe china sq have it, but they r selling it far too ex! I wish i could hav Sine the souls, but haha~ hav to buy it from online and not in sg! haha~ but i doubt anyone will get me this for me... cos its far too freaking rite... haha...

here comes my perfume madness... jus any perfume for ladies... jus anybrand which is STRONG! and pls dun get me the following:

Escada Sentiment

Kenzo Flower

DKNY Be Delicious

Britney Spear Curious

Cool Water

Preferably:

Anna Sui Dolly Girl On The Beach

DKNY Red Delicious

Tommy Hilfiger True Star

Gucci Envy Me

Get me a Authentic Juicy Couture Bag... I mean AUTHENTIC one k! hav to be import... hehe~

This watch from Solvil Titus... i wan tat butterfly print one... haha~ it cost like $200++

I serious think i need a nice big gd jewellery boy! saw this @ mini toon...

ok ok... buy me bikini den... ya... hav to be 'L' size... OMG! haha~ I'm FAT ok... haha~ some hints... go check out Bugis village level 2... there's nice bikini~ dun buy me those awkward one k! haha~ too fancy isn't too gd... and ya... i dun wanna mess up my current tannlines, so pls dun get those tube kind or watever... haha~

I need a pair of Flip Flop... my old le... wear and tear... but agn, i dun encourage ppl to buy me slippers or shoes lah... not very gd... but can like buy me Beach Shorts or Racerback Tanks.... i will love to hav it... and i mean racerback, not sleeveless, not spagetti straps, not tube,.... pls dun gif mi yellow, orange, pink, bright GREEN, LIGHT purple... i would like to hav Dark Purple, black, dark brown, white, army green.... red still can lah.... hohoho....

Ok Ok... i wan no hunk k! i wan tat racerback tank!!! from NewUrbanMale.com, u noe tat shop at heeren #04-02 & city link! yeah.. tat one... pls get me a "num england" one... for FEMALE one PLS! a 'S' will do... *muack* i wan it so much... cost : $59.90 ... :p

Get me a lighter with 'DeSoLo' Engrave on it... u can get the engraving service @ Far East... dun rmb the unit no.... haha

ok... simply VAIN DeSoLo... jus get her cosmectics.... a few to grab...

Shu Umera Cleanser with green tea Extracts~ hehe~ cost: $145

Chanel Inimitable Mascara... BLACK pls... and waterproof is a MUST!!! Cost : $45

Anna Sui Loose Powder... Colour : 702 (the darkest tone). Cost : $68. if the case can be chosen, pls get me BLACK Rose... hehe... not pearl WHITE case pls!

Anna Sui Glitter Mascara... Cost : $39

I think this is the CHEAPEST thing off my list... Shu Umera Eyelash Curler... Cost : $23. i wan a GOLD one pls! haha~ pls! for this, if u buying this for me, keep mi inform, i dun wan like getting 10 curlers on my bday! its no jokes! i expect alot of ppl will be choosing this... how pathetic... haha~

Loreal Stretch Mark Eraser! ok... i need tat... i got plenty of stretch marks... and ya... any gd brand tat works, dun hav to be loreal~

ok... can get me anything... but! no EYE SHADOW PLS! DeSoLo hates eye shadow.... hmmm... lip gloss, well, u can try, but... i hav got only one mouth, and i already hav like 15 gloss, rouge & Sticks.... hee... hmmm... Mascara... yeah! any brand, but MUST be BLACK and WATERPROOF! Diorshow, anna sui preferred! hmmm.... Blush ya~ i need blush, i'm running out of blush... jus get me any gd one, but no no NO PINK pls... u can get me those peach colour or dark red but no no BABY PINK! NO! eye liner... ok... help me, any brand, jus any brand, i wan it LIQUID, i wan it BLACK, i wan it to be PAINTBRUSH tip kind.... hehe~ simple~ go check out estee lauder one, something like theirs... can try anna sui's, i haven't tried tat yet... hehe~ Get me gd eye gel, eye cream, eye mask tat can successfully remove my dark eye circle.... Facial mask for pore refining but pls! NO WHITENING stuffs for DeSoLo... buying me Whitening products, they will only end up in Yahoo Auction :p ok... something frm body shop, really gd powerful body moisturiser! hehe~

Add on to my Anna Sui Addicts... buy me all the accessories like:

The hand mirror

The fold mirror

Anna Sui Hair Brush~

Anna Sui Fold Hair brush~

Everything in BLACK! hee... ok... wanna get mi necklace, or bracelet... well... u can try gng Couple Lab at PS, get me a bracelet, pendant, necklace with the word 'DeSoLo'... or jus get me anything tat is unique, black, gothic... haha~

my present seems to be a little too ex... and... troublesome... alot of requirement, hav to be black, have to be this and that... ok... Simple... jus buy me....

Jus buy me shopping voucher!!! Lots and lots and Shopping voucher... it can be from Taka, Robinson, Tangs, Seiyu, ... PLS! dun get me LEVIS, SUNTEC, PERLINIS, etc... jus get me the major departmental stores one which i can get tons of make-ups and Make-up and BRAS... wahahahaha~

ok lah... buy voucher also troublesome....

CASH... jus gif me CASH... its the best... no requirement! haha~

My Cake Design is OUT!

2006-10-09T10:02:00.000+08:00

yeah... finally i got my cake design out... credits goes to John & WeiXiang... OMG! my 2 great designers... haha~ my faerie with a key... i add on my own words which just go so smoothly with the pic... Muack...

i hav made the order and sry i shall not post the pic out, cos to gif everyone a surprise... only my designers, roy, my sis and my mum saw it... it got to be choco royal my fav cake from sweet secrets... haha~ so happy...

i got like so many things done... i even got part bags for kids... hope i hav enough for them... left wif some banners and stuffs for decor and tat's it... its like so fun doing party... and my last gorcery shopping to be done tml... been really bz these days, jus trying to make everything run well and nice... i even got my hair done... well, i guess, its more abt the guest who r coming tat i'm excited abt... a mixture of my family, my relatives, my sec sch frens, my poly frens, my cyber frens, my colleagues, my ex-colleagues, its like so fun... and the few ppl who r staying over on friday... so nice...

I seriously need a LAST MIN diet! haha~

2006-10-07T09:32:00.000+08:00

歌曲：白色风车
歌手：周杰伦专辑：依然范特西

白色的风筝安静的纯真
真实的感觉梦境般遥远

甜甜的海水复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福

很可惜没有祝福但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭

我陪你走到最后能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么反正不会松手

我陪你走到最后能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见因为我在等待永远

p.s i jus love this song... maybe its the chorus... '能不能别想太多' and '你说不该再相见只为了瞬间谢谢你让我听见因为我在等待永远' ... its like... so sweet~ haha~

I Got It Jus So BLING!

2006-10-06T09:02:00.000+08:00

finally, money in, and there it goes, i do all my shopping for my party...

OMG~ i extremely love this, i bought an album from this shop at raffles city... by rite, its meant for autograph... and i got a SO BLING kind... OMG! tie a white ribbon on it and get a few stickers... and glitter pens... haha... tat's DeSoLo's madness and it cost me close to $100... wow! jus for tat album, yeah... but i really love it jus so much... really! and ya, all those party items... i'm crazy enuf to think of buying this disco ball thingy, IF only i hav extra money left...

till date, everything are like almost done, except the cake! haha~ pray hard tat john can get the faerie done on sun... praying...

ok ok... everyone was asking wat i wan... i hav my wishlist up (i know i went alittle too overboard, too demanding :p)...but for those who had like sponser me stuffs, help mi up, actually, dun hv to buy anything for me lah... i felt so loved ya know... there's ppl who offer to help, who took leaves, who rent car, who sponser me wine and liquor, who try so hard to draw me a faerie, etc... OMG... extremely thanks to Jocelyn, ah Roy, Gab, Kean, Ken, John, Dickson and MY SIS!

Anyway, as long as everyone is happy and enjoy themselves, i feel gd enuf le... hehe~

So U Mean That's Jus Wat DeSoLo Is?

2006-10-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

Oh my... looking into wats in DeSoLo... haha~

Jus realize a few things abt me~ If only u noe, DeSoLo is changing every minutes, and she nv stop realizing more and more abt her changes....

So Wats up in DeSoLo...

I'm building myself... ya... building in a way which i will love myself more... get it? being strong being tough... i nv stop building myself... i dun wanna be pretty, i dun wanna be cute, i dun wanna be sweet, i jus wanna be myself... one who can nv be replc, can nv be imitate... get wat i mean? unique ba... i wanna be special... like... hmmm... u dun rmb the person becos of her being nice looking, but jus her, something in her... rmb her unknowingly kind... ya... i aim to be... and i believing myself to be one... bare me wif my over confidence level... i was once a low self esteem sufferer... but i change, i build myself up... something tat am so proud of... even until now... am still building... i dun wanna be somebody... but i wanna be wat i wan myself to be, jus a Pure DeSoLo kinda attitude... ya...

But at times, my confident jus drop... drop to the extend tat even i myself feel bloody ugly! sometimes i feel like a nobody, i'm jus empty and nth inside... who i am, wat i hav to attracts? i simply feel that i hav nth... pure NTH at all... Plain is the word.

Am tough or rather i look tough... i enjoy the admire, the envious from ppl... envious over my confidence, my freedom, my happiness, my toughness, my 'take it or leave it' attitude, my 'dun gif a damn' attitude... yeah rite... DeSoLo is a Total Bitch... i can be jus so Bitchy tat ppl HATES... but i can be jus as loving if u treat me gd... well, standard libran... fairness, fair treatment... i dun like ppl to be my followers... u can love me, u can like me, but pls! dun be a poser, u can nv be me... u isn't me, dun try to act like me... OPPS! i dun mean tat ppl wanna copy me, but tat's jus a comment. i mean, who will enjoy such thing... hav ur own style, make it ur way to outstand others, dun follow... dun sound as if u noe me really tat well if u dun noe me... dun tell me wats rite and wats not... dun INSTRUCT me wat to do... i hav my way, way of doing things, respect pls... tat's DeSoLo... hate me by all means, u hav the right to do so... but dun be a hypocrite... *wink* haa...

DeSoLo thinks alot... i'm born wif such ability... i can see thru a person easily... jus by a few words, i can tell, wats in u and i strike... ok ok... perphaps my words are jus too daring... but i believe i'm able to... so... try me... well... i do wrong too... afterall am jus a human being... so... dun expect too much frm me, i hav my limits... i dun wanna be jus a bomb shell... empty inside... haa...

DeSoLo might be tough... but... still... a Evil Step-mother who desire for a Princess kinda treatment... am a sucker for gentlemen... a extreme sucker for it... and am no kidding... i fall for guys who treat me like a princess, who take cares of me even if they too think tat i'm tough and so on... perphaps all girl long for care and concern, love and dote... mi too... i appreciate and admire guys who respect me as a women, who take care of me as a lady... i jus simply love perfect gentlemen kind... fetch me from wherever i am, open doors for me, send me to my door step, sms me jus to noe tat am sound & safe... haha... ya... i noe... it sound so not DeSoLo... but well, tat's the secret side of DeSoLo... :p

but contradicting enough... DeSoLo Hates PRINCESSES... i hate those 'once broken consider SOLD' kinda fragile little girl... i hate it... i love tough, strong women! yeah... i hate everything tat is so GIRLISH! like... BABY PINK! URGH~~~ tat's hell! the world worse colour ever... to me at least... haha~

toking abt being contradicting... ya... DeSoLo is a bloody CONTRACDICTING person! i admit ok... hate me as all u wan... everytime i wonder... am i trying to be somebody, am i desire for things jus becos ppl have it and i dun hav... i ask and ask, but no ans... am a weirdo ok! sometimes i keep stressing myself on qns which i myself can't ans... like... 'wat i wan?', 'am i trying to be somebody?', etc.... maybe i'm jus ordinary and nth special at all who no one will rmb... :'(

Afterall, maybe no one noe, or no one even bother... DeSoLo believe in fate, DeSoLo believe that fate has somehow arrange something for her and she know it... but everytime she try to fight for wat she wans but she's jus not as strong...

DeSoLo afraid of pain... very afraid of pain... running away frm the word 'love' is a way she protect herself from pain... at times ppl might see me as a 'imature' being, can't settle down... but i truely noe tat am not being imature but am jus avoiding from pain... liking can be a very painful experience... and i'm scar of it... so scar of it... ya... i think too much... everyone knows... i'm born as a libra, born under air sign, i can't help it but to think rather den feel... cos to me, feeling isn't true, feelings can lied... instinct can be unreal... Heart had failed me so many times, it makes me believe, makes me trust and disappoint me. My brain is the one that bring me out of misery, make me stronger, protect me from pain... over-protective perphaps... but only ppl who truely felt pain, den will scar of pain... tat's my life, not all ppl are arrange to experience such pain... maybe i jus hate the sight of tears... thou' i myself love crying... maybe if someone out there will wanna noe wat curse i hav, who noe wat i think fate has for me, who wans to help... i'm still waiting... but nvm... i had resign myself to fate... *wink*

anyway, DeSoLo will still be a happy soul... no matter wat happen...

Ah Neh Neh . . .

2006-10-02T10:14:00.000+08:00

Muahahaha~ i really go NUTS abt my tanning session.. and OMG! i'm loving it like HELL... so addicted to the colour and i mean SO! haha~ show ya a pic taken in June 06~

Tat's the fair me... well, not really tat fair but consider FAIR to me le... OH... bth sia~

and i took a pic on 30 sep 06, which is sat nite~

Oh My Goodness... i heart myself jus SO SUPER MUCH! i love tat kinda DARK CHOCOLATE tone... it makes me feel so dangerously yummy deliciously Sweet... wahahaha~ TRINA TAN! haha~ i sure she go nuts when she see this skin tone... she heart those kinda angel white fairness skin... haha~ yeah! BABE, we r jus so contradicting but yet so loving... wahahahaha~ *muack muack*

ok... my mum go nuts too... she frown whenever i said i wanna go suntanning... wahahahaha~

New nickname by Dearies: Keany the sexy, Ken the horny and Ricky boy... they name me 'AH NEH'... OMG!

Get ready to BLING on the 14th Oct 2006

2006-09-29T15:41:00.000+08:00

well... i had plan... haha~ My 21st... i dun noe wats got up to me... i go crazy in doing the party... not becos i wan it to be so on and blah blah... but cos since i wanna do it den do a nice one... quite crazy of me lah... hav send my invitation out... i bet a few of them won't be having it... but anyway, jus let me noe, cos its like i dun noe who i send out to and who i missed out... haha~ i'm an idiot i noe...

anyway, the theme of my party will be 'BLING BLING'... well, gothic hav to be put aside if not it will be so halloween... and ya, i dun wanna scar the hell outta my mum and relatives... so... i go for bling bling... hmmm, ya... i hate PINK, BABY PINK~ so i can't go for a PRINCESS kinda party, its jus so not me lor... and yeah! there goes, BLINK! am a R&B freak... hav everything plan... hmm... the balloons, the lightstick thingy, the autograph book, the decor, the make ups... etc... must be blink, if not, i'll help u to be... but i doubt ur wanna try me... haha~

anyway, note to all... i need a designers, i need ushers, i need helpers... DESIGNERS!!! someone who can draw... i wan a big cloth banner to be up! haahaaa... i noe... i'm doing alittle too... kua zhang le... well... tat's DeSoLo if i wan it up, it hav to be nicely UP! yeah... anyway, alot of things to shop... lucky lao niang got alot of lobangs... and ya, if u ppl hav any events, be in birthday, xmas or new yr, u need packet drinks, can food, wat so ever. jus let me noe... *wink*

so fun... fun as in to do a party, but not fun as in to be the lead... haha... madness~

A ReCap of Tropical-cyclones.blogspot

2006-09-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

OMG... finally the long awaited... a reCap of my very own blog... this coming 3 yrs old baby... a showcase of changes in Me... From Jeslyn the Cyclones, to Jeslyn DeSoLo... From a ger to a Lady... From a Freak to a Human Like being... Ok... Most of all, From a GUY to a GER~ haha~ hey hey... am nv a butch b4 k! thot i noe i extremely look like one, dress like one in the past... well... i tot tat's trend! haha~ Here it goes... Take a Deep Breath.... Woo...

Started blogging in the yr 2004 Jan... my first clubbing session ba... OMG! its at this TECHNO club lor... well, all collasp! haha~ a gd thing ba~

ok... No Doubt... tat's me... OMG! at the age of 18! haha~ I'm not a BUTCH and NV was!

Those endless KTV session... and ya, my All-Time-Fav action... kissing Jay on the screen! i think he will FREAK OUT! haha~

oh haha~ tat's Roy, he will kill me when he see this! definitly! haha... Roy wif his center parting... anyway, we r in sch lab... haha~

The days when i love short hairdo and ya! SPIKES~

The very own Art Work of mine...

Go thru a stage when my darling Ash Boy kena this cancerious Skin Lump... sob~

OMG! Hell... I'm still as BUTCHY! went for a new haircut~

my Cousin's wedding, at least i look more like a human beings~

During my Attachment Period... OMG! I'M SO BLOODY FAT!

HELP! Tats Auntie Jeslyn rite at the bottom right corner.... a BBQ @ PGPR...

Last day of my Attachment which in Oct 2004?!

well... haha~ i transform a little more le... haha~

At Jay's concert 04~ wif this SWOLLEN face~

Some Drinking biz wif my Niangs~

The ger wif golden hair, fully dress-up for Presentation!

Another Street drinking Session wif the Niangs, celebrate Rizlan's bday... miss it all so much~

taken on Val Day 05~ jeslyn says 'FUCK!'

Ladies in Black ang Gents in Blue, My FYP grp... presentation, all our sweats & Tears...

ROY! more yandao le rite?! haha~ and me! more chio liao rite *puke* there's still plc for improvement!

I'm Freaking without make up and ya... i haven got my brows DONE!

See See... Roy turn yandao liao! wahahaha~

Presenting my FYP project~!

Its still the time when dieting haven't took plc~

OMG! at kuishin BO! YA! EAT SOMEMORE!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA~ still so freaking!

Still in SHORT hair~

Finally... am into anna sui and gothic! the purple and black~

tat's wat i mean... i look better den last time le lor... but... it can be better, trust me~ haha~

but am still into short hairstyle~ haha~ my DEEP gothic punk style! wow~ *evil huh*

When Trina Enter my Life

Tat's my LAST pic without make up... its taken like 1 yr back or even more... haha~ now, i simply dare not even try ! haha~

& finally my diet set in... i lose 10 KG... and here it is... haha~ *proud* and yeah~ i got my brows DONE! nice nice~

its really wonders....

Beginning of this yr... i hit MOS! cool~ *muack*

When DeSoLo Appears... when i can start Shopping @ MNG! wahahahaha~

The time when my sis Graduate~ *muack*

As time passby not only had i turn into a lady, but i also had a better r/s wif my sister... we get closer now... so much closer...

The time when belle came into my life~

The time when my style not only gng in gothic... i tried gng BLING BLING!

I shaked off a further 5KG!!!! OMG!!! i love myself... *muack*

Consider as recent pics~

Oh ya~ i jus had a baby niece in March~ haha~ Chloe~

My bestie... soulmates... after so long... ya... she's still wif me... our bintan trip...

My very first time in bikini... *blush*

When suntaning become an addict~ haha~

Tat's jus how much i heart little ash.. my 3 yrs wif him... haha~

Taken Jus a few days ago... haha~ *muack*... so much changes in 2 yrs... wow... when anna sui, lancome, estee lauder took my face.... when momo and suntaning become an addict... when Trina and Belle appear... when Ah Shu, Roy, Zhenhui still wif me... when work took over sch... the changes.... tat's jus me... haha~ i heart myself more now! *muack*

My Birthday Coming

2006-09-15T21:03:00.000+08:00

OMG! DeSoLo is celebrating her 21st bday! so excited!!! but... alot of money to be invested in and FEAKING lots of things to be plan... like... buffet, invitation, entertainment (as if), decor, blah blah blah... jus alot of things ah!

working on it k... and ya... freaking lots of ppl bday coming... and ya, HAPPY BDAY to my Dearie SIS! and happy birthday to ZhiQiang, my cyber fren, and ya, happy birthday to my ex... ~_~!
and alot of coming LIBRIAN's bday... OMG!!! my Beloving fellow libras... the born charmer... haha... the vains.... So happy... birth of libra, which means... NEW BORN LIBRIAN!!! haha~ happy~

Tml i can get my intense suntanning~!! Company Family day at Wild Wild Wet... opps =X its my 1st trip to WWW wor... haha... *shy* PLs! let tml be a ultimate sunny day!