What's the best u get for this 2014? I guess my Best is the moment I met my ex yesterday in a sort of gathering occasion... Best is because I realized that I absolutely felt numb towards everything, no hatred, no misses (definitely, cos the me now will never go for such a guy - I still waiting for a prince Macho or a yoga guru), no anger, no happiness, jus purely no emotions. I dun even bother, however, I think people around me got affected more than I do.. But I didn't appear friendly either, for good reason, 1st of all, no point acting friendly, 2nd - I dun need any extras in my life, 3rd - that's how I treat a stranger (especially someone of a opposite sex), I dun smile to stranger who stare at my direction, lastly - The "me"' now want no drama, I dun wan further rumors, gossips, watsoever that come my way. So, dun mistaken that I still hold grudge, I don't, at least, no longer. Cos am happy that we didn't make it, and glad that we break it. As this is what makes me strong and do things that I thot i'll never be able to do. I can't imagine how i'll look like, how lowly i'll stood becos of my appearance, how much more worries will I have in term of financial, health, how much more tears do i have to go thru'...
To me, love comes in many form... love from friends, love from family, love from pets... it don't have to be a guy-girl kinda love or rather sexual love.. many times, people mistaken companionship as love, mistaken sex as love, which am totally tired of.. I keep improve my strength, my physique, my fitness level, not to be appealing to opposite sex, not to attract more guys, but to be stronger, strong till a guy come to me and say 'Girl, u're strong!" I don't mind losing what a woman call an asset - my boobs, cos I seriously want no drama. I need a very strong guy who think that he is able to handle my stubbornness, my strong character, my tears, my fitness level, apparently, I had yet to met anyone, I guess I tend to bring their ego down. But doesn't matters, its jus a companionship afterall, I have all my time occupied, moving towards my goals and my dreams.