late post : KL trip day 1

finally... been waited for so long... i finally pluck the courage to read abt my KL trip wif my abangs... alot alot of pics... how should i start? recall recall....

OMG... its like 2 mth ago... how to recall all in details.... alamak! leceh sia~

it was a fri... took a day leave and set off @ kallang area... heading KL wif my abangs~ suppose to mit raffeeh but as usual, he will be late and left only mi and fendy... mit up wif the rest of them @ the kopi tiam nearby... met fazli's wife as well as mul's wife... get on the bus and here we go... the one tat left mi wif a deep impression was tat bus captain... OMG... he is damn 'niang', make fendy wonder y all their KL trip will get to see such person...

fazli and his wife... still 'stranger' to mi as this is our very first mit up... but as time past, we get along better...

fendy~

the man's talk~

and our little gentleman here... raffeeh's son~
a little treat along our journey...

ayamas~!!! *yummy*
went over to Hardrock once we reach~ as fendy need to buy some t-shirt... and took monorail to the HOTEL~ all by myself... mi taking one room all by myself... cos all guys wat, and they wanna give mi some pivacy... put down our stuffs and we went for lunch and shopping again~

mul and his wife~

fatherly raffeeh... along a street of KL, enjoying our lunch~
went over to chinatown and do our shopping... but to my surprise, i'm not into it and i dun noe y!

doing our shopping~ and purchasing of our tix back homeland~
and back to our hotel again... for some bath and off we go for our nite life... while preparing for my nite, received a call frm raffeeh and fendy... dinner is ready!!! they ask mi to go to their room and take care of tat little boy while the two man went out to buy some dinner... and of cos accept the offer...watching tv while raffeeh slping soundly... children get tired easily~ and soon, after less than half an hr of waiting, here come my dinner... hmmm... dun really noe wat's that... but its yummy... something like rendang beef or mutton? and indian prata kind... very nice food~ really feel so 'homely' wif my 2 abangs ard.... i'm been phampered... after eating, went over to fazli's room for some 'warming up', but not for mi lah cos i'm no gd drinker wat... b4 we set off clubbing, they start drinking in the room liao~

some pics taken in the room~ and off we go...

heading KL zouk for the 1st nite~ nice pic taken... haha~

taking random pic in the monorail... let mi present fazli and wife... fazli wife look better in spec huh~ haha~

seems like fendy is so happy wif this trip... change over to mrt... took a pic of the empty station...

look eerie sia~ its totally empty, unlike sg one, even last train, there's also ppl taking the train... but here... totally empty, only the 6 of us... EEEeee~

finally we reach zouk... but becos of the expensive drink charges, we left for another club... we settle down @ this club call nouvo~ do visit the webby... quite a nice place lah... mainly hip hop... in fact, the age limit for KL club is 21yr old... haha... but i illegal entry... anyway, they won't check my ID wat... haha... some more my abangs can't throw me outside and go enjoy without mi wat... haha...

wif only one miserable pic taken...

mul and his wife~

and of cos the photo freak, fendy!
i din really move alot cos the mood is jus not rite~ but fazli seems to be enjoying, he dance non-stop wif his wife... and did i mention tat he's so damn disturbing~ he keep on disturb his wife and force his wife to drink... OMG! they r more like buddy den hushand and wife lor... funny~! and worse, his wife was like almost drunk, and yet this disturbing guy go and order 2 test tude of dun noe wat liquor...and guess wat... his wife pour it on the floor while he was not looking... haha... but still she can't take it and collasp... haha... until den i get to see the 'husband-ly' fazli~ let his wife lay on his shoulder... haha... so sweet... and at ard 3am, club close and we shall get going~ the last song played: "Akon - Mr lonely" which made fendy singing non-stop... the others took a cab back, mi and fendy decide to walked to our hotel but... -_-! *sweat* we went the wrong way and of no choice, we took cab back too~ mit up at the coffee shop jus opp the hotel and hav some supper b4 we call it a day... while eating, i ask fazli y he keep on forcing his wife to drink... the reason he gave me... 'have fun wat'... haha... and so we end our day... inorder not to wake raffeeh and son up, fendy slept in my room for the nite~

So Who Am I to U?

u been telling mi tat i'm special in ur life, something more den fren... but do u really feel tat way? to mi, i'm nothing more den jus a 'listening money-lender'... when u need money, u look for mi... when u hav something which u want to share but dun wanna anyone to noe, u look for mi... i'm jus tat to u... i'm nth better den tat... is it fair? when its my turn to face a prob... where u? u can gif mi reason saying tat u actually wanted to mit mi earlier but i called u at 8pm, too late and u dun wanna stay out for too late... to u, u feel nth, jus reject someone who is un-important... but to mi, ultimate upset... and who noe? do u noe? or rather do u even bother? and the following week, u claim tat u not bking out on weekend, u will be bking out on a weekday, will call me out for a chat or something... but did u? same thing... do u even care? only until i sms u ask u when r u bking out? u said tat u already bk out for the week and back to camp liao... wat the f**k? and the following week, i ask u out... and wat f**k up reason u gave mi? saying tat u will be booking out at a later time and u will be off to do some stuff and will mit mi at a later time... and ya, wat f**k i got? calling u back @ 7pm+, wat i got frm u... u haven settle ur stuffs and guess won't be miting mi... oh my... trying to be understanding, i kept quiet... do u really understand mi? knowing who i really am? u can come and remind yrs ago wat did we chat abt... ever ask mi, when we go into different school, will we still keep in contact? and i say 'difficult'... but the main problem is do u even care? hav u ever notice? its alway u come and look for mi and not the other way rd... y is it so? jus like the case here... if i go look for u, will u even care? so wat am i? jus a listener... worst den a counsellor, at least they r paid to listen... and mi? so wat really piss mi off? yesterday... did u bother to even sms me to mit up wif mi? nope... u fuck care mi... and y? cos u r currently contented wif ur life and u hav nth to tok abt... and ya, i dun care if u wanna come and mit mi... but wat i really fucking fed-up is... when u were to mit up wif mi, u r tired, u wanna reach home early, wanna spend more time @ home... but if u were to go for mid-nite movie wif them, u r not tired, u r fucking energetic, u dun hav to spend more time wif family... wat the fuck? and ya, as if i dun noe them... u went for a mid-nite movie wif them, u dun even bother to ask mi if i wanna tag along... u dun even care... i do wat i can... in fact, i dun even wanna join ur yesterday, cos i dun wanna see how happy u r wif UR FREN... but y do she wanna keep wanting mi to mit ur, it only hurt me more... but maybe no one noe... but y? y is our so called 'very damn bloody good frenship' only exist when there only mi and u... and it become a piece of shit when we r out as a big grp... becos of man's ego... i keep quiet, i dun wanna let anyone noe wat happen between us... help u wif ur secret... even try to to shout @ u yesterday when so many ppl is ard... u may think tat i'm jus agn, trying to hide myself up but nope, i'm jus trying to save ur face... and i believe tat's the last thing tat i'll do for u... i noe wat i did jus a minute ago might make u suffer also... but seriously, since i'm nth to u den y will u even be sad... i really hope tat i'm the one who suffer and no one else... maybe to u, i'm really nth... but to mi, u ever is one of my very good or even best fren, jus not its no longer the same... but no matter wat, i dun wish to see u suffer... and let mi suffer alone in stead... jus leave mi alone...

so who gng to listen to mi? selfish human beings agn... no one i can tok to and so i prefer not to tok abt it to anyone, rather den a dead blog... and wat else... i mean even he can do this to mi, who else i can really believe? and ya, not only him but also some other ppl who i dun wish to mention... cos when the person whom u believe most and trust most had dissapoint u, no one else u can trust anymore...

So How's Life?

life been 'so far so gd' @ sing post... things are getting better... and relationship wif my colleagues... getting to noe almost all of them and soe are really of quite gd relation... haha... but still no one is as gd as raffeeh and koon... i mean where to find sia? some more, mi and them had known each other for quite some times liao, tat's y... but ok, some of them has start to lame wif mi... especially shukor... and of cos not to mention daniel lah, i and he can really chat lor... not becos of what... jus becos both of us noe eddie... haha... and we can really share all wat our tots...

been spending money non-stop agn... anyway, went to PGPR on monday... too bad, ah koon went home liao when i reach... they having OT and i swear, i nv seen front office in such mess b4... poor eddie hav to work OT almost everyday till like 10pm... sad... anyway, went over to maintenance, my 'homeland'... as usual, MR LAMLI is there and he forever so angry over mi calling him LAMLI!!! haha... and mul is there too, working day/afternoon shift... raffeeh and fendy also there working OT... and of cos danny will always be there, typical workaholic! went for dinner @ river valley area... nice food serious... ramli's treat~ hehe...

ramli and rafi, see ramli in thick jacket, he's suffering frm a flu... poor thing~

mul~ looking @ dun noe wat~

not to be mention... MR LAMLI~

rafi, a snap shot... look @ his face!

and of cos fendy...

mul's nasi lemak~

yummy roti john~ *yum*yum*

-end of day-

ash update!!!

2 yr old ash... happy birthday to my darling ash (19/7)

Pieces of MI

some pic of my taken these few days~ hee...


Taken @ blk 4 lvl 2 during my pgp times~


taken @ home after work... trying to show off my nails~ hehe~ gd hair days...

.:: you melt my heart with your smile ::.

...i notice your eyes...

...i notice your present...

...i notice your voice...

...i notice your existence...

...i notice your charm...

...i notice your coolness...

...i notice your smile...

...that smile that melt my heart...

Topic on Racism : wat so special abt ur YELLOW skin?!?!

first i hav to declare... i'm a chinese, pure chinese... used to be racism also... until i mit some really nice ppl den i realize how ugly chinese can be...

the prob lies expecially on singapore chinese... u noe, the leceh ones~ those that forget their roots and can say things like "i'm a english", can't even speak simple chinese... shame~ hai~ and yeah they can be so bloody racism... as if born wif a fairer skin is more classy... and pls, u mis-use ur yellow skin... y? hai~ so sad sia... jus heard my fren who is a malay, he used to be a property manager and becos of 'racism'... yellow skin freak go up to his area manager and say "eh! ur property manager is a MALAY ah!!!" freak! rubbish... do they hav to do that... wat it mean? so wat if he's a malay... as long as he done his part, capable of doing the task, wat's wrong wif his skin colour, language and so on? dun understand... and sad to say, so far i only heard chinese, singapore chinese saying things like "i'm a english, i wanna go USA, AUS, so tat i can speak english, so that i no need learn chinese"... hey come on lah, u born wif this skin colour, u can't escape from fact... and yeah, some chinese can be so proud tat they can speak english so well and think chinese-spoken ppl are lousy, are low-class... freaking.. leceh rite?! and all over again, the racism topic... if they r so proud of their yellow skin den y think chinese-spoken ppl are low class~ freak! contradicting sia... born in singapore, we can't afford to be racism, and of cos we also can't jus depend on one language to survive... in fact, 2 are also not enough... for mi, myself, i seriously discriminate those who think so highly of 'english', and neglect all wat not ard them... PLS! racial harmony... many ppl hav forget abt the importance of it... respect other, respect urself!

Late post : daze @ PGPR

the time when i go out for lunch wif hairil the liar, on his bike!


liar hairil & his bike!


accompany him to pay his installment @ the industrial area... alot of bikes huh~


on the road... wow! so near to the cars~ taken frm where i sit..

the day when shamsir drop by @ PGPR


@ GSA store... as usual, joker... he is more tan as compared to last time... still the same old pervertic and funny shamsir! becoming a father soon, his wife is finally pregnent~ cool! *power*


Bon Jamel @ the store... jus wake up? haha~


the turtle tat is abandone by the resident @ the cluster kitchen and find a gd owner... another resident @ GSA... seems like the turtle is having a gd life now!

still got one more bloody long late posting... my KL trip wif abangs~

late post : dinner wif wilson

went dinner wif wilson after work one day... a late post also... had dinner @ sweasen~


my bro! wilson~!


mi of cos~!


mi & wilson bro!


end the day...

Late post : Gao mei bday~

a very late post! gao mei bday:

full of pic... forgot when is it liao... anyway, we went to MOS to celebrate er bday...


the guys who had left us for NS... bye bye to their beautiful hair... wilson, wee, jun zhong and ah yuan~


wee & jun zhong... the gd buddy~


kieth kieth... so long since i last saw him...


mi and my 安仔, yandao anot? and of cos tat duper red-face tat heng lah~ haha~


shu zhen and ah yuan~


mi and junzhong~


mi & cute cute 的ah kai~


mi & girl girl yun jing~


girl girl & my rival, ivan~ haha~


the white and black... liping & mi~


mi & wee~


mi & ah pat!


grp pic~!


and lastly, kieth and his girl girl~ hehe~

sux sux simply sux~

OMG! i hate hate hate... jus hate my new workplace... sux... taking over is jus so sux... especially when u got a very 'extra' manager and a very 'ke gan' assistant manager... simply hate this place... taking over is jus too much for mi sia... ultimate sux... underpaid... seriously underpaid... paying mi so little and expect so much... wat the hell... hate the place sia... i dun wanna care... once i finish my job i'll jus leave the place ON THE DOT and hack care wat my rubbish ass managers might say... f**k sia... and yet, HR dun wanna let mi go... dun wanna transfer mi out, dun wanna let mi quit... jus hate... sometimes i really hate manager... brainless... they noe nth abt staff welfare sia... everytime stress us like hell, ma chiam we not human beings like tat... no life sia... no mood sia... completely jus not me sia... hate hate hate... start thinking wat i wan? wat is my aim? wat is my goals? wanna take a degree but dun noe wat to take... web design? real estate? IT? HR? OMG!!!! wat is my aim??!!! gng crazy sia... all probs jus lies on the management level ppl, they sux! everything is not ready, system not ready, everything not ready... its in a mess! hate hate hate~ swap swap, wanna swap wif my ex-colleague but will the HR allow? ARGH!!!! can't stand liao... getting crazy~ been telling myself, take it as a learning stage, a stepping stone, gain experience... but i jus dun enjoy... so stress to the extend that complete moody, can't even be bother abt my make up, which i usually so concern abt... can't eat, can't slp well... no appetite, skip my breakfast and lunch... even my shopping mood gone to the drain... no mood for shopping... slept @ 12am, wake up at 5am... can't slp... and jus so tense up... hate it... dark eye circle getting worse, pimple break out! OMG! hell... so wat if i can't wake up @ 6.50am, 50 min more slp, i can't get myself to slp, den wat's the pt?! so wat if the traveling distance is so short as compared to PGPR... but i jus not happy, give mi OT, i can hav better income, but i'm not happy! hai~

miss my abangs so much... so touch by them u noe... calling mi since the 1st day i'm there, they noe i'll not be able to adapt, so they try to console mi... but so touch... send tears to my eyes sia... rafi, koon, tjew and ramli... rafi and koon called mi up the most... early morning when i jus start working, they called, lunch time they called also, even after work... so touch~ telling mi tat working life is like tat, giving mi advice... telling mi how to convince the HR ppl (but it din really work)... really so touch... down here is so boring, even the technicians are so bloody stress by all these managers lvl ppl... life @ PGP are so diff... when i got so much job assigned to mi, feeling stress, there's always koon, rafi, ramli, ashraf, eddie, even cleaner auntie to rubbish wif mi... making mi enjoy my working life so much... dun mind abt the long distance travel, the short slping hr, only less den 6hr of awaken time spend @ home... but i still like, motivated to go to work...

ok~ jus keep telling myself, gain experience, for only less den 6mths i'll be gng off, leaving the place for better offer and better future... ya... try my best... jus wanna be myself...