HaPpY BiRtHdAy, Ah LaN!!!

last sat went celebrate ah lan bday~ hav so much fun~ take tons of pic sia~ hehe~ as usual~ B4 tat went to dye hair wif xiao mun and sis~ crack alots of jokes sia~ haha~ finally found the colour tat i really long to hav~ hehe~ but kana nag abit by my mum lah~


(top to bottom)1. a grp photo... 2. mi, zh, mun and alan~ 4. our feets~ hehe~


the bday boy and his little bday cake~


Mi and XIAO MUN~


Forever, MI and ZHENHUI @k@ TRICIA~


again, the 3 of us~ hehe~


Lastly, its Mi, Me, Moi & Mee~


a little pic of ash tat i took! caught him red handed, stealing the pear and ate half of it~ power sia...

Know More Abt Myself

You are Gold Pegasus, who is extremely cheerful and seems like a very open person.
You can show consideration to others, and have a good sense of humor.
You are also a person who doesn't want to loose.
However, you can be very temperamental, and can suddenly become optimistic, and next minute you are very pessimistic.
You look for fancy atmosphere in daily life, but you know that is only to cover up for your own dissatisfaction and discontent.
You possess unworldly bilateral character.
You have very unique personality, and people who like you and those who don't are clearly divided.
You tend to be audacious, but you must be careful when you use it.
Because Gold Pegasus people tend to be divided into those who exhibit great talent and those who can go stray from the right path.
Unlike your confident attitude, you are rather too nervous, sensitive and can easily change or give up your objectives.
Your natural instinct is fabulous, and you have a passionate personality.
You tend to lead life with lots of emotional ups and downs.
You dislike being restricted, and prefer to enjoy freedom, and this will not change even after you get married.
Therefore there is a chance of you getting divorced.

taken from DOUBUTSU URANAI ~

Everything went wrong at the same time

this week is quite sux for mi~ out of sudden everything jus went wrong~ frm fren, to relation, to fren again and to work~ wow biang~ wat a week sia~ ok~ but anyway had settled some of the problem liao... cleared all e misunderstanding btw us~ and first thanks to those who care for mi~ wilson: thanks for taking care of me every now and den... mich: thanks for being there wif mi on monday. ZH: thanks for calling to ask wat happen to mi and tok mi rd~ xiao mun: sorry for all misunderstanding and stuffs. but glad to say tat this actually do improve our frenship... to mi, its actually means an increase in our frenship level~ thanks for listening to watever i told u yesterday, make mi really open out and say watever i being thinking lately... i noe i'm silly, but out of control~ hehe... anyway a very thanks you to u guys out there~

for frenship, ok~ end of all problems~ wat e next, wk~ hai~ sicko sia... guess my supervisor for my current dept condemn mi sia~ i been doing the job yet he feedback to my LO saying i din do my job and din report to him~ fuck sia~ den when i report, he insult mi, saying wat for reporting to him since i'm not fix to one dept~ fuck sia~ early in the morning gif me trouble~ got to tok to my LO personally regarding this matter, ask her if i could report to another guy who actually assigned mi task and will not be bias towards mi... but more fuck~ i can't get through my LO sia, call her, she not in. leave msg, she din return call~ fuck sia! wow biang~ wat e hell! got to settle this matter asap~ if not my SIP sure jialat one~ dun wan my effort to go down the drain sia~ i actually did the job and yet he say i din~ wat the hell~ so unfair to mi... dun noe when did i offended him sia~ wow biang... lucky sia, tml he time off, not coming, if not i sure jialat sia~ hai...

so wat's happening today at wkplace~ as usual, fun! today finally saw fendy liao, he had been on 2 days MC since tue. so after long weekend den see him~ haha~ as usual lor, ah mui~ hai~ now i got damn lots of nick frm them sia~ rahim: pussy cat, miao miao... rosman: boy boy... ah koon and his thai worker: ah wan... raffeeh: auntie~ fendy: ah mui... shamsir: violent ger... fazli: ah lian~ jia lat sia~ hai~ den tat sicko fazli, when ask mi to help him update his stuffs, be so nice to mi... den when i finish doing, he gif mi kuku face~ kuku one sia~ den tat raffeeh worst, he keep saying: 'pls lah~ can u behave like a ger anot~! ah yah, sorry ah, forget u not a ger!' wow biang... thank hor! haha~ sicko sia~ haha... kns sia...

Artist: Alicia Keys
Title: If I Ain't Got You

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what’s within
And I’ve been there before
But that life’s a bore
So full of the superficial

Chorus:
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
with no one who truly cares for me

Chorus:
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, yeah

Outro:
If I ain’t got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain’t got you with me baby

Artist: Guy Sebastian
Title: Angels Brought Me Here

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces and walking
Back into the light

Into the sunset of the glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you,
I found You, my miracle
(chorus)
If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear
that the ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heart beat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of You
My miracle
(chorus)
Brought me here to be with You
I'll be forever grateful
Forever faithful
My dreams came true
When I found You
My miracle

(repeat 2x)
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear
That the ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE

When I Need Your, Where Are Your?

maybe i really had made the wrong frens... wat e hell mann~ who are there for mi? those who hav steads one, no choice... i can't expect them to gif mi all their time... they hav their life... i appreciate, really appreciate what wilson gif to mi the care and concern... i dun blame for not being there when i need him, he got his life, his gf... i can only accept everything~ who else is there? those who i trust~ who? where r they? one, take care of her DOG!!! dun even bother to ask wat actually happen to mi~ one jus dun wish to come out and left mi alone BLEEDING, yet he knew my problem~ some frens are gd party partners but they might not be a true fren~ wat can i say~ i really need someone at this moment~ where are they? try to be a gd fren, listen to them, advice them, help them, etc... but wat i gain in e end? nth, jus 7 letters, NOTHING! haha~ tat's my fren~ those who i tot that they were my gd fren~ maybe i jus gave too much and expect too much in return~ or jus tat i appear to be too strong, everyone thinks tat i could handle all problems... but who really noe the inner me? who noe? i'm a human, i do hav problems... i's not always tat cheerful, tat 'happy go lucky'~ i do hav feeling, i do hav problems~ ya~ like wat the tarot card say, i tend to hide myself, isolate myself~ but wat~ i wish i could open out, i wish someone would listen but where r they? even when i cry, i hav to hide... not i wan to isolate myself, i got no choice~ i dun like to go ard begging ppl to listen to mi~ but deep in my heart i really need one, who actually noe? wat hurts mi most is not tat incidents tat happen, are those frens tat surround mi! come on, jes! wake up, no one owe u... jus tat u given too much~ do u really believe tat they will treat u like how u treat them~ jus wake up and see~ where are they? u can't even hear their concern~ for wat? when u face trouble, u still care abt ur fren, ask abt her sick dog, yet she dun even bother to say a sorry for not been able to listen to u~ not they owe mi, is i owe them... i'm here jus to return all my debts... i hate acting, really HATE~ when i'm out wif ppl, i tend to act very well~ laugh like mad, acting stupid~ but who noe i'm actually bleeding inside~ BLEEDING BADLY! why my life is so 'wonderful'? a life wif no one love, only ppl who out to cheat mi... a life which require so much acting tat make mi so tired... a life tat no one wan to listen or not worth listening... a life tat ppl only bother abt my 'happy' side and not my 'sad' side~ a life tat owe ppl so much... a life tat is out jus to return and suffer secretly~ wat a 'wonderful' life i hav! thanks god~!

at this moment, after reading all this, u might think tat i'm ridiculous~ all this are wat u'm thinking~ jus wat u actually wrote in ur blog, telling all those guy abt how u think~ u might think tat i'm asking too much, u got ur own poblem~ but hello! did u care in the 1st place or jus been ka po? hav u ever think abt this question, why to u, u got no fren? cos u only care abt those who dun appreciate ur present but forget abt those who try to give theri fullest~! that's the reason y u losing more and more frens~ and sad to say, i think i'm one who u gng to lose~ i do cherish our frenship! but i can't help when i'm not given a chance to~ not i wanna leave but u CHASE me out~ ya... gif and take~ but wat i hav~ i temper may be funny, maybe u r begining to dislike mi, jus tat i din realize~ pls... if u think tat U dun need a fren like mi, jus throw mi out, dun left mi hanging there, doing stupid things for someone who i consider as FREN~ pls... ya, serve mi rite for all this... i'm jus stupid~! why believe human beings? y? maybe in ur life u got only one and only fren tat u really appreciate, tat is TIM~ i'm jus not e one~ serve mi rite for thinking so highly of myself... thinking tat i'm some body to u~ haha~ laughing at myself sia~ its jus so funny~ so stupid~ ya i noe, i got e hint~ i noe wat to do~ i noe wat happen~ i noe in e 1st place i jus enter the wrong place~ sorry for disturbing ur life~ so sorry~ i'll leave as i promise~ thanks to u for making mi feel so lousy~ ya~ wake mi up! come on! continue isolating and 'enjoy' the pain~ those who are out there jus to destry mi, u win... i'm totally torn at this moment~ continue to destroy me~ tear away my skin, suck my blood, eat my flesh, break my bones~ jus enjoy~ i'm totally torn and tired! break mi futher~

My Mind In A ToTal MESS!!!

ok~wat's happening these days~ hai... as usual wif my guys~ bull shit like hell... giving me tons of nicknames, 'miao miao', 'boy boy', 'ah lian',... so wat mess mi up?

tok abt yesterday~ went 3 wif the usual gang... hai~ jus realized alot of things happening in my grp... everyone is in a mess~ at 1st i jus worry of them, never tot that i would fell into this mess too~ but end up i do... hai~ after tat went to my technicians' chalet~ hai... there come my mess... am i regret? happy? sad? dun noe... i jus confuse! very confuse! jus dun wish to elaborate more... peace!

Sense Of Belonging

This week is great sia~ get rid of that stupid grp and stay in maintenance with my technicians~ hehe~ having lots of fun sia~ since dun neo when i had been spending my lunch time in hall 3 admin office, with my technicians~ get to noe them all and noe them more~ get more close to one of the contractor too, ah kun~ haha~ very jialat guy~ make mi laugh till mad... bring him to one room, den behind the door, the ger heng alot of panties... haha~ den this stupid man said: 'behind got alot of san jiao lin fu' haha~ den treat mi eat one ice cream, he complain like mad~ haha~ den alway ask mi go follow him eat snake~ haha~ bth ah... this days a lot of ppl treat mi sia~ haha~ so pai seh... but hey, i help him do work leh~ they should treat mi one~ haha... nowadays they tok alot to mi sia~ tok abt their trip to KL, met those ah gua~ haha~ and shamsir love ah gua! haha... tok abt pubbing and clubbing, tok abt taking drugs, tok abt guys should shave his armpit hair, for hygiene purpose~ and also alot of ... hehe~ den they love to think dirty sia~ when i mention 'hey hairil, ur head very round sia' den they start mistaken sia~ wow biang! but nice toking to them lah~ recall: tuesday (3/8/04), shamsir bday~ and tml (6/8/04) fazli bday!!!! kns~ haha~ August is malay's breeding period is it?! all bday in aug sia~ haha... den tat stupid shamsir, ask mi to sing song for him as bday gift, haha~ ya, i did sing~ i sang: 'fuck wat i say, it dun mean shit now! fuck the present might as well throw them out! fuck all those kisses, it didn't mean jack! fuck you, you hoe, i dun wan you back!' haha~ he laugh sia, saying tat now i noe this song liao~ haha~ full of shits sia~ wow biang! took some pics yesterday wif my digi cam sia~ tml farewel dinner for barak, yeah~ go little india area, haha~ near my hse sia! den sat go chalet, hehe~ organise by fazli one~ hehe... told him tat i will reach at 3am~ haha... but serious lah... cos maybe go find gao mei they all 1st!... hehe~


(frm top to bottom)a grp photo~. me and linda. mi and hairil. mi and shamsir.


hairil and his twins son~ look very very alike sia~ haha...


raffeeh and his son, his son so cute hor~ haha...


see this shamsir, pervert face! haha~ all slping sia~ haha... kns! ask mi to join them sia! shit them all~ haha...


Senceny of PGPR~ nice?


mi @ work!


Fendy~ the guy who alway call me ah mui~ den ask mi follow him to work~ crazy over taking photos sia~ haha~ tat all, folks!

Mixture of Feelings (mess)

rite now! i mean NOW! i'm working sia~ blogging through my office com~ hehe~

so wat's up this week?! as usual~ fun @ work~ wif all those technicians... finally, noe y shamsir hav this super big scar on his arm... he told me last time he got this tatoo of dragger on his arm, and he laser it off... so one advice for those who gng for a tatoo, think b4 u action... cos if u regret tatooing, laser it off is really damn painful and ugly~ ppl here are super cute sia~ recalling some of the stupid stuffs tat those big boy do~ haha~ this hairil, funny sia... he came back frm dun noe where wif sweat over his whole body and he told me its great to hug sweaty man~ EEEEEeee.... my reply to him : 'its stinko!' haha~ den who else? follow fendy and raffeeh to do some defects at the laundry, funny fendy, while raffeeh busy wif his defects, this guy here singing and dancing away in e laundry room~ wow biang, send me laughing away~ he even play wif this super long toilet pump! haha~ bth... den after laundry room, they bring me to this RA( resident adviser)'s room for repairing some defects. that RA own a dog leh~ but too bad no fate to see that dog sia, that RA not in~ so we left for lunch! got a treat frm fendy again... this time lunch~ hehe~ den we went to hall 1 admin office~ cosy cosy~ love there mann~ so homely! haha~ friday b4 i leave for home, shamsir treat me a drink! hehe~ den when hairil walk past, i ask him y he din treat him, so he say he wanna treat mi drink, but shamsir already paid for it liao. so he give mi this hacks miserable red colour sweet~ haha~ den again went to h1 office to slack b4 gng home~ monday cheat MC, hehe~ dun feel like working lah~ so heng tat, monday barak also on MC~ haha... tuesday back to wk, tat idiot women (let's call her 'A')... she on MC, not here... so take over her~ sicko women, mention abt her make my blood boil sia~ everything is great without her present~ after the wk at ard 4pm, den follow fendy slack~ hehe~ love to follow technicians cos no need to do anything one, jus stand and see! haha~ and they won't tired me one~ hehe... den after finishing all those 'touring' ard, went to h1 office again~ haha~ saw this ahmad siting inside~ of cos, wif him ard, i kana suan again~ saying tat i'm pervert~ sicko! noe y, becos this fendy, keep asking me wat is 'sa char (means 30 in hokkien)' and wat is 'lan char'? den i say 'la char' is 60, lan char i dun noe~ den he say u chinese u dun noe! so i bth and say lan char i dun noe, lan jiao i noe~ den he go tell ah mad abt it, so kana suan like mad lor~ bth~ den linda and barak also came, so we joke together lah~ den thursday tat sicko A exchange job wif me~ den this time rd, kana suan by karyat and rahim, saying tat i got cat eyes. den ask mi if i'll feel giddy when i sudden stood up. so i say ya, i do experience tat~ den noe wat he said : 'hey u cat lah, everytime walk in 4 legs, how to hav this kind of experience!' wow biang! alamak! bth ah! den this fazli whenever he saw mi, he will shake his head and sign~ wow biang! ask him 'wat?'... he jus 'hai' and shake head den laugh! -_-; all this fun things really make my day sia~ but still there are thing tat make me boil!

this days dl tons of english song sia~ hehe~ simply fell in love wif FM98.7!!! hehe~ sunday still hav to work, but really slacking lor~ slack since after lunch, power sia! yeah~ next week gng dinner wif maintenance guys again! a farewell dinner for barak~ but sad to say gd bye lah~ hai~ but wat to do, jus wish him luck in his new + promising job!

Artist: Jet
Song: Look What You've Done Lyrics

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Artist: Kimberly Locke
Title: Without You (Duet with Clay Aiken)

Never even thought to cry
When I heard you say goodbye
Never said where you were going
There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere
And so much left unspoken
Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could see
Who's to blame

CHORUS
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life without you?

Was I lost in you and me
To the point I couldn't see
That what we had was dying
Now it's all that I can do
To see photographs of you
And stop myself from cryin'
I should learn to live without your love
Got so many memories, but it's not enough

CHORUS

I feel helpless and oh so all alone
Like I've never felt before
You made me feel alive
But I don't remember what it's like anymore

CHORUS

Artist: EAMON
Title: Don't want u back

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No


See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel


Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back


You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Ya questioned, did i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but i truly mean im sad
It hurt real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
[Until the end]

FRENS are GREAT, GOLDEN are SCARY!!!

dun wish to mention anything abt my fucking dept~ finance sux, jus sux to the core~ the ppl, the place, the workload, even the insects there are sux~ GO TO HELL MANN~ yesterday jus complain everything to my OL, but dun think she will do anything to it lor... its she e one who cause mi in this mess! fuck off u ppl!

tat day fendy is so gd, haha~ he actually accompany me go mail invoice which is not under his job scope~ i even teach shamsir chinese~ haha~ teach him: 'yao bu yao zhou ai? (wanna make love?)' haha~ den he go ask a chinese contractor tat sia~ lolx... bth~ simply love maintenance guys~ ur rox sia~

Hey, enough of work k~

let's tok abt yesterday~ long time since i last met zh, but as usual, she never change~ forever so lame, funny and fun to be wif~ really enjoy myself and wish the time dun past so fast~ out of sudden miss sch time sia~ hai... some happy thing to recall~ haha~ yesterday after all those fucking on campus training, zh, mi and xiao mun took 23, drop at sim lim there~ zh went for her digi cam case and mi, the spare batt~ haha.. sicko xiao mun saw liao keep saying he also wa a digi cam, ma chiam he dun hav like tat~ kns~ he will confirm say its so huge and stuffs~ haha... den say he wanna buy hp, so many things to buy but no $$~ after that went bugis, passby OG, so went in for a walk~ heard frm zh tat shiseido lengthen mascara is gd, so hav a try of it~ hmmm~ not bad lah... den zh saw this promotion for triumph, buy 3 panties, get 1 free~ den zh was so excited~ so she ask mi if i wan den we can share cost... i agree and so poor xiao mun standing at one side, avoiding the counter, feeling so pai seh~ haha~ after buying, we went bugis... continue to hunt for mascara~ try lancome hypnosis mascara... simply love it, maybe cos i jus trust lancome stuffs~ decided to buy it mann~ gotta ask my cousin help mi buy sia, cos she got discount, actually cost $40++, she can buy at $24... save $$~ den again haha~ zh saw perrie cardin promotion, buy 1 bra set and get the other set at 1/2 price. so again we go hunt for it and haha... of cos xiao mun avoiding again~ haha... after buying, we went coffee bean~ drink coffee and take loads of normal and adnormal pic~ haha~



one damn funny incident, while me and zh gng to toilet, she ask xiao mun to carry his plastic bag for her, den she say in loud : 'I WON"T TELL PPL TAT U R CARRYING BRAS AND PANTIES!!!'~ wow biang~ haha~ xiao mun was so pai seh and the ger next to us heard tat, she laugh at xiao mun~ wahahaha~ damn funny sia... after that, zh go mit her boi boi, me and xiao mun went back to my hse to mit my sis and bring ash out for dinner~ we went to URBAN POOCH!!! saw a numbers of dogs inside~ ordered a cake and chicken meatball for ash... 1st time i ever see ash get full, haha~ but he sure enjoy himself lah... after eating, i go in and play wif the dog~ wow biang~ almost kanna rape by a desperate golden retriver sia~ scary sia~ he keep on forcing his wife to fuck wif him and lick him~ OMG! he force until the wife fight wif him... wow biang~ while his wife resting at a side~ he target mi~ OMG~ -_-; scary sia~ i quickly run away sia~ en he target ash~ wow biang~ he so huge and yet he wanna rock on ash~ OMG~ gotta save ash from this scary monster~ den the owner of the cafe storm in and shout at tat golden, and it send the dog running fast and far away~ power sia~ haha~ GOLDEN ARE SO SCARY sia~

we left at abt 9++, den xiao mun went to my hse and bull shit wif my sis and i till 11pm++... really a enjoyable and 'ADVENTURAL' day~ haha

Happy Birthday To My Darling ASH!!!

yesterday ash bdae sia~ hehe~ bought him chocolate and snacks... this sat celebrating his bdae at 'URBAN POOCH', a doggie cafe at balestia rd~ hehe~ gotta buy him cake cake~ wonder how much is it sia... wat happening these few days~

hmm~ last week~ hmm~ got some funny incident wif technicians again~ this time round is fcc-tech, ahmad and hall 1 in charge, fendy~ until now den noe them better, and become more fren~ fendy was asking abt my hp, is the function gd and everything~ den i said its not bad but the camara sound can never be off and so if they wanna go peep ppl, den it will be a bad advantage~ once i say this, den the both of them said: "EEEeee, u everytime go peep ppl tat y u noe~ pervert ger~.... so on' wow biang!!!! 'jump into the yellow river also can't clean myself (tiao jin huang he ye xi bu qing) mann'~ kana suan like mad lor~ the funny thing is ahmad (chubby and cute) even say tat he dare not go toilet, scar i peep him sia! wow biang~ den fendy said: 'this hp big sia', so i reply: 'ur one (hp) den big ah!'.... fast reponse, he ans: 'how u noe my one is big (refering to his....)' wua lau... dun noe wat can i say mann~ den again they start saying~ wua lau! but funny sia~

sat, went to sim lim to hunt for my digi cam~ but b4 tat, xiao mun came again for him rountine visit~ haha... as usual, saying ash boy gay dog! kill him sia~ went to sim lim for dinner, by e time i finish eatng, most of the shop close liao~ haha... bth~ so did do a bit of 'market reseach' ~ after all, we went to fusion to mit gao mei~ getting more and more tired of fusion liao sia~ u noe lah, i dun play billard one... tat's y its not a place for mi... den everytime go there hav to waste my time waiting one sia~ wua lau~ spoilt mood ah.... some more they very undecisive one, not wanna confirm wif mi where they gng~ wua lau~ even worst den xiao mun sia! opps =X get real piss off sia~ den after all they decided to go 3~ the worst thing is!!!! after we reach there, the guys pay the cover charge liao den our dear gao mei becos of some reason, she left and head toward MOS! shit one lor~ if in e 1st place den decide MOS den everything will be perfect liao~ sick lor! a bit tired of gng club sia tat day~ very low lor~ can u imagine i actually stay outside 3, siting along the back alley there wif xiao mun and dun feel like gng in~ hai~ while we chating outside.... haha~ hav a nice movie gng on sia~ some one fighting lor, a guy kana hit on his head till bleed sia~ the worst thing is he is hit by a GER! gers nowadays are damn POWER sia~ guys! dun u ever bully ger sia~ glass bottle flying everywhere sia~ when the police came all run~ nice show ah! haha~ den saw this ger got drunk~ finally, i realized tat drunk ger are damn UGLY sia~ wua lau! some words for ger out there: "pls~ getting drunk is real ugly! dun think tat u drunk damn very gd , very chio hor... real ugly lor~' after all, go back 3 again and swing~ haha~ saw ah pei wif her super duper bell bottom~ nice pants sia~ but a bit too loose for her~ hehe... bth her, keep disturbing xiao mun~ haha... but gd lah, childhood fren wat! we left at 3am sharp~

sunday xiao mun sms mi, ask mi if wanna join them at bugis~ go there walk walk~ haha~ again xiao mun wore his 'sentosa outfit' + his 'thick glasses'~ haha~ so nerdy! haha~ after his shopping, its my time to shop liao~ hehe~ head toward sim lim~ actually targeting exilim z40 one~ but while doing my 'market research', saw Eugene~ he attachment over there lor~ haha~ so went to 'his' shop... told him i wan casio exilim z40... kns... kana scold by him lor... saying mi stupid, spending such huge amt of $$ to buy this unrecognise camara~ wow biang~ so end up buying cannon ixus i (white) at $472... very cheap hor... hehe~ ok lah~ growing to like tat camara more each day liao~ jus had a try of it~ hmmm~ nice, very damn user frenly... very light, over all: GOOD!!! hehe~ finally got my camara liao~ but i sharing wif my sis lor~ hehe... but its gd enough liao~ cos i'm not gng to bring it wif mi everywhere i go, same goes to my sis~ so not tat bad lah~ hehe~

my digi cam:


monday so shiok sia, stay at maintanence whole day lor~ haha~ find tat i now is of better relationship wif fendy liao, more daring to tok to him and bull shit wif him liao~ he everytime act cool one, last time when i 1st saw him, tot tat he is those kind of fierce one~ but in fact he's not lor~ he really damn act cool lor~ bth! haha~ whole day assign mi task mann~ once he saw mi, he ask mi to follow him to do watever shit! service air con, fixing tv, watever lah~ bth sia~ haha~ den everyday he will go to this malay webby 'sticky note' or something~ something like friendster and irc, but in malay~ den he ask mi y some of the ger can't take decent pic one~ haha... kns... den say tat he like those tat wore the scarf one... he also mention tat he once got a chn gf, steady for 1 yr sia... bk becos of work~ haha~ he very wat lor, told mi tat his chn gf got big breast! sicko sia! wua lau~ haha...

today nth much~ got a lot of wk in finance dept sia~ hai~ did something rite... hav to double check tml... hai~ face com whole day sia~ sian ah... hehe~ today fendy gif mi a treat, treat mi breakfast~ haha... and raffeah treat mi drink cos monday i help him bring contractor to his hall unit, as he on leave~ hehe... on my way back home, saw this cute little boy~ haha... reading bk or i might say 'seeing' book! haha~ super cute sia~ hehe~ tat's all for today~

my ash ash:

taken while taking him out for a walk~

Rotten Week!!!

this week real rotten to mi sia~ in e end, still kana rotate... but ok lah, at least i got a passport to go maintenance as and when i want... blur? no blur, tell ur e whole story~ at first i told my manager tat i wanna stay in maintenance permantly, den he ask mi to email him a request, and he gotta send it to my LO for approv... so i din wat he told mi to.... den in e end, this super duper idiot fucker cum sucker NORSHIDA~!!! she say wat sia, wanna let us learn wat each dept is doing~ pls lor... if she really wanna let us learn in e 1st place, she will not even send us to brightbeam liao lor~ as if she really care~ kns! anyway, at least i got my passport! sicko sia~ today sian sia, got a new tat one of my colleague, barak is resigning... sad leh~ real sad lor, cos he the one who alway teach mi things and help mi to stay in maintenance... real sad lor~ low sia! left 1 more mth to work wif him only sia~ finally noe wat one of my colleague keep complainting tat the work change is too big in PGPR~ hai~ jia lat sia... so affected but yet no choice, still hav to wait till 1st of oct~! hai~ how i wish it will come faster~ hai~ can't take it liao sia~ i think more and more ppl is leaving lor... heard tat shamsir is gng for some job interview sia~ wua lau~ real f**k sia! hav to get a digi cam b4 the farewell dinner wif barak sia~ now saving $$$!!! hai~ sad sia~

Update Update!!!

yeah~ finally bought the adidas shoes~ hehe~ thank to my brother, help mi cut price~ but too bad, the cheapest one ($83) do not hav my size~ nvm~ so bought it at $90...


nice? hehe~ pls take note, the strips are of pink colour and not red! latest colour i guess~ jus love it... dun noe y~ hehe~

fri: relaxing day sia, go on site checking wif one of my colleague, linda, a sweet malay ger... we can alway chat like mad lor~ haha... u noe lah, gers... chit chat and gossip! haha... put on make up tat day, cos after work, miting fren... haha~ den only 3 guy notice abt it or shall i say only the 3 of them mention sumthing abt my make up~ haha... ok lah, at least not those bad comments... hehe~ sicko sia, today tat manager ask someone to do dun noe wat to the company com, now we can't access the net as and when we like like sia~

after work mit wilson, went queensway to help my sis buy jersey as bday gift for his fren... saw tat adidas shoes den tot of buying~ hehe~ after shopping, went somewhere near to fisherman to mit mun and fren, cos his fren bday~ so pai seh, hehe~ go there with empty hands~ hehe~ more pic!!!

some quiz:

guess the eyes belong to who? haha~ nice huh~


again, a pic wif mun~ thank my hair look nicer without styling~


haha~ my 'ACT CUTE' pic!!! haha~ *puke*

took quite a no. of pic wif wei xiang's camara... wonder when will i got this pic?!

sat: be a guai kia, stay at home~ hehe~ no clubbing hor, not a chiongster k~ sian sia~ when i can't go out, everyone will start asking mi out one... wendy(jap class) jio mi go rush, den pat jio mi go out wif him, mich and ben, and go 3 in e nite, den kor kor sms mi ask mi if i'm gng 3, den gao mei sms mi ask mi any program in e nite... sian sia~ when i can't go out, all will start asking mi out... when i waiting for them to jio mi out, no one call~! wow biang! in e morning went to work, haha~ as usual the funny stupid things tat they make~ the language use by shamsir: 'dun make mi make u ah' and 'dun make mi force' haha~ sux rite~! he also mention tat he dislike MARIA, hehe~ and all technicians also dislike her, he too said tat she ma chiam 'mamasan' haha~ bth sia~ and alot of r-rated topic which shouldn't be mention here~ haha~ anyway~ a big pervert, but do hav the quality to be one mr vain + flirt + pervert~ hehe...

sun: becos of one spoilt sport, one pai seh, spoilt my sunday! so now my turn to be a spoilt sport + pai seh, decided not to go out liao~ bleh :P go take a nap~ ZZZzzz...

Title: Where is the Love?
Artist: Black Eyed Peas

what's wrong with the world, mama?
people livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world's addicted to the drama
only attracted to the things that'll bring the trama
overseas yeah, we tryin' to stop terrorism
but we still got terrorists here livin'
in the U.S.A, the big C.I.A
the bloods & the crips, and the KKK
but if you only have love for your own ways
then you only leave space to discriminate
and to discriminate only generates hate
and when you hate, then you're bound to get irate (yeah)
madness is what you demonstrate
and that's exactly how anger works and operates
man ya gotta have love, this'll set us straight
take control of your mind and meditate
let your soul gravitate, to the love ya'll

people killin', people dyin'
children hurt and ya hear them cryin'
can you practice what you preach,
and would you turn the other cheek
father, father, father, help us
send some guidance from above
'cause people got me, got me questionin:
where is the love?
(love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(where is the love, the love, the love)

it just ain't the same
old ways have changed
new days are strange, is world insane?
if love and peace is so strong
why are there pieces of love that don't belong
nations droppin' bombs
chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
with ongoin sufferin', as the youth die young
so ask yourself, is the lovin' really gone
so I can ask myself, really, what is going wrong
with this world that we livin' in
(livin' in)
people keep on givin in
(givin in)
makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
(yeah)
not respectin' eachother, deny thy brother
a war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
the truth is kept secret, and swept under the rug
if you never know truth, then you never know love
where's the love ya'll? c'mon
(i don't know)
where's the truth ya'll? c'mon
(i don't know)
and where's the love ya'll?

people killin', people dyin'
children hurt and ya hear them cryin'
can you practice what you preach,
and would you turn the other cheek
father, father, father, help us
send some guidance from above
'cause people got me, got me questionin:
where is the love?
(love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(where is the love, the love, the love)

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
(shoulder)
as I'm getting older, ya'll people gets colder
(colder)
most of us only care about money makin'
(monnkey makin')
selfishness got us followin the wrong direction
(wrong direction)
wrong information always shown by the media
(media)
negative images is the main criteria
(criteria)
infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
(bacteria)
kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
(cinema)

whatever happened to the values of humanity?
whatever happened to the fairness and equality
instead of spreading love we spreadin' animosity
lack of understandin' leading us away from unity
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin under
(under)
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin down
(down)
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin under
(under)
gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
(found)

people killin', people dyin'
children hurt and ya hear them cryin'
can you practice what you preach,
and would you turn the other cheek
father, father, father, help us
send some guidance from above
'cause people got me, got me questionin:
where is the love?
(love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(where is the love, the love, the love)

Feel so Tired

wow biang~ today really not my day lor... feel very uneasy... not feeling well since early morning~ hai... lau sai all the way till now... think i ate the wrong food yester nite~ finish a cup of teh O, hope tat it will help~ hai... again weekend rd e corner... guess most likely next monday i won't be rotating, cos i already hav 'permenant tasks' to do everyday... and i already got hold of some of the difficult job, which require quite some time to teach... but today jus dun feel liek doing work sia~ so restless~ hai... chiong toilet for dun noe how many times liao sia~ nice working here sia, the job is interesting, the ppl is interesting too~ alot of funny funny stuffs... haha... must get well tml, cos got function, can get to learn more interesting stuffs... ppl here are real fun lor, got this contractor, mr dracula... a family who got no front tooth~ haha... finally he got his fake tooth this week, keep on showing off his tooth~ haha... den ask mi, now not afraid of his bite liao rite~ -_-; question mark! haha... den another security head, dun noe wat name~ he also a joker sia~ he taught mi this word call 'leering'? or wat... meaning present look with unpresent disire~ haha... funny guy too... alot of funny and bo liao man lah... again our mr vain, shamsir, saying tat he once work at shangarila, all the gers there are sexy, and so everytime he will 'accidentally' drop his stools.... and peep at their skirt underneath!!! sick rite~ haha... but sure he got the looks lah... heard frm my colleague here tat once there was this resident admire him... and got so disappointed when he is not the one who attend to her room inspection~ haha~ some more tat is a china ger lor~ bth ah~

Tarot Reading for MI

Fri: weekend coming~ relaxing sia... today alot of technician self-declare holiday... they either on MC or on leave... so no one is free to entertain mi, i was slacking all the way sia... having to mention this super stupid pervert + joker technician, shamsir~ he mention to mi tat he once had a chinese ger fren when young, he love chinese, so fair and pinkish~ he say when he smack her, she will become pinkish, so cute~ OMG~! pervert rite... den he start to pose those SM pose, saying... oh, smack mi baby... say my name... shamsir... wow biang~! bth sia... super pervert ah... today i also found a new rounte, hopefuly a shorter journey~
back home~ try to install the boardband thingy, but it can't work... when the internet is on, everything start to hang~ piss off sia~

sat: wake up early and continue wif the boardband thingy again~ problem still unable to solve... call tat singnet guy, he ask mi to reinstall everything, if still can't work, call singnet technical support... end up calling technical support as wat tat guy told mi to... this nice and sweet voice lady attend to mi, after toking to her abt the faulty and some procedures, finally she found wat exactly happen to my com, it kana attack by either blaster worm or sasser worm... sian sia.. this stupid worm won't attack 56k, tat y i din came across similar problem when using 56K, and it attack only win2k, XP and dun noe wat~ for win2K, this application error for svchost.exe will pop up, as for xp, the com will alway restart... so hav to ask xiao mun to dl the patch and burn into disc for mi~ b4 xiao mun came to do his rountine visit to ash ash, i took a nap first, prepare myself for the nite~ hehe~ as usual, xiao mun came over to my hse to see ash.. den after tat we went lavendar food square for dinner, my suggestion... hehe~ den head towards city hall area~ btw, xiao mun got this free entry tix to centro... we waited at esplanade... feel really boring so we went to centro first~ neither mi nor xiao mun went to centro b4, haha... we are unfamilar to the place lor, jus follow those ppl blindly... took e lift to 2nd and walk up the stair~ ok... wat abt centro? its playing hse music, quite nice to mi... the environment not bad, i mean the scenery outside! for the inside~ hmmm... quite small, abt the size of 3 or even smaller~ overall not bad lah... we went in at abt 11pm++, no one dance one lor~ haha~ maybe still 'EARLY'!!! haha... uh... for some not to be mention stupid bloody reason, tim can't enter centro... so we end up gng 3 again... tim was really disappointed abt it lor... anyway, still got chance one lah... so wat happening at 3? as usual, fun! haha... saw gao mei, she super duper excited when she saw mi~ haha... again, hai~ she KISS mi~!!! OMG~ haha... so les sia~ haha... ya~ saw TONY too~ hehe~ so long din see him liao~ miss him sia... after clubbing session, went esplanade again to ton nite, start our tarot reading session... our tim tim brought along his tarot cards~ gao mei and yan qing join us too... but qing left half ay cos she jus to tired... did some reading for myself, regarding my character...

i always put up a strong front, my past experience form my chracter now. i am too protective, protective until i actually isolate myself... ppl noe tat i being puting up a strong front... some suggestion frm my fren there, they told mi tat i hav to be more open out to my fren, stop ISOLATING myself...

as for relationship, i hope to hav a relationship but not eagar to find one. samething, becos of my past painful experience, i dun dare to love... i hav to learn to not to be afraid of been hurt in order to get into relationship... for the coming 3 mths, i will not be attach to anyone, remain as single... den there this something abt man authority, forget wat it means... anyway, the last card is the most interesting one, the empress!!! which symbolize pregnent or something, which mean i have to be sensual and sexual sacrifice or sumting... haha...

i also ask abt some of my fren, xiao mun - a fren who will be there when i was lonely, zhenhui - a fren who will lend helping hand when i'm in deed, wilson - a fren who will go through alot wif mi, gao mei - a party kaki! alway having fun wif her... some which i choose not to mention, have to beware of them... also ask abt if i will rotate, ans is... hai~ U WILL DEFINITLY ROTATE!!! low leh~ wow biang~ really affect mi sia... but i'll fight for it one, no matter wat~

tat's all i have for tat nite~ we ton till ard 8am++ den went to hav breakfast tog, and went home~

a pic took on tat day:

mi and xiao Mun~

sun: slp frm 12pm till 7pm~ watching tv while installing the patch into my com~ everything fine~ back to normal~ yeah~ finally dl some songs, like check this out, so i love you baby, etc... recommand u guy this new techno MY HERO!!! nice song sia~ preparing myself for the next day~ work!!!

Today, mon: at wkplace rite now... at MAINTENANCE rite now~ today on my way to work, met my fren who also attach to the same place~ told her my problem... she was very supportive... ya~ sometime i should let ppl noe my thinking, my feeling, shouldn't hide them up... anyway, this week is not rotating, next week may rotate... jus pray hard~ feel quite tired today~ yawn~ eyes is abt to close liao sia... hai~ today was a slacking day again, cos the property officer not here~ hai~

I'm Feeling Insecure Again!!! HELP!!!

sian sia... next monday is getting nearer... the more nearer monday is coming, the more insecure i am~ hai~ pray, hope tat monday no one will mention anything abt rotating! pray hard tat the sicko women won't open her mouth! start to dislike her liao.. jialet~

some nice things to recall:
yeah~ boardband is here! ZH, xiao mun!!!! i can dl gunbound liao~ haha... but busy leh... hee~ tonite hav to install the modem and stuffs liao... yesterday accompany one of my BEST fren (shhhh...) to go shopping!!! haha~ bth this super duper cat (mao) ppl, he wan NEW item, not display set, and some more e thing he wan is so limited!!! lastly, he had no choice but to take tat display one... haha~ travel all the way to tampines, OMG!!! frm NUS to queensway and to tampines!!! wow biang~ went TCS (tampines centry square) to buy perfume! wow biang... polo ralph blue is damn damn nice!!! love it like mad lor, but its for guy one, shit mann~ den my this fren bought it lor... wow biang, can't stop loving it mann~ really nice perfume!!! den went to this cart, psyco him to buy a miniature perfume for mi, ok lah, at least i manage to make him buy for mi.... BUT!!! i hav to treat him in return~ went to kenny roger... hav a good day wif him~ but pls dun mistaken we r really really great fren, great until i got no image in front of him... OMG! hav to get back my image mann~ haha... after all, he went to my hse to get this 'techno siao vol. 1'! haha~ long time since he last saw ash ash~ he get to shake hand wif him~ hee... he such a joker lor, b4 he left he even crack a stupid funny in-cident tat make my family laughing away, even my mum and dad~

oh, tml is also wilson's last day working at NUS... anyway his sch jus nearby, he promise to drop by if he can~ jus hope tat he won't break the promise!

sat gng to centro, free tix~ dun noe if i'm allow to go out anot leh...