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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I dun freaking gif a damn

anyway, these days i been happy, very happy... for those who heard it, for those who hav not... jus dun be surprise... its jus parts and parcels of life... nth had change in me... i dun see it as a change... jus tat simple, somebody elses took my heart away... tat's it... nth in me have change at all... however, i feel that i nv changed but return back to who i really am...

i dun gif a damn to wat u guys think or seen... tat's me... the only thing is... i'm happy and tat's it... jus 'happy'... enjoying everything jus like the way everyone do...

Label me watever ur love to... i jus like the way it is... no one noes how good and wonderful it really is... jus heart this cutie alot! *muack*


Friday, May 25, 2007

Choices

life is jus make up of CHOICES... its not jus abt making choices... its more abt being responsible for your choice...

I'm back to SPC, back for more challenges... i love my job but i hate the ppl... its always the same for me... wondering wat my 'new' company gonna bring me to...

i jus begin to enjoy my life agn... but somehow the thing abt choice came into place agn... Born as a librian... i hate choosing...

i hate myself for not able to do things jus as wat i wan... i hate it when i think too much abt the consequence... hate it when i put ppl b4 me...

:( where r u? :(

Monday, May 21, 2007

Wat the hell?

Sign... what is life all abt? a moment i feel great, a moment i feel sux!

well, i'm offer to stay on... switch to FM, good opportunities... but i'm scare... wat if one day the force tat drive me to work was gone! wat can i do? stuck?! hai... but who gonna reject better offer? its all abt money... i dun noe wats ahead... i can't see anything... i jus wanna enjoy myself to the max... i'm feeling old and ugly... i'm feeling drained and useless... mending my broken pair of wings... i hate ppls at work... seriously... jus a bunch of FUCKers! but... at least i got a few good ones ard... hehe~ tat's my drives maybe... MUACK!

Monday, April 30, 2007

Thanks God!

OMG! i'm extremely EXCITED! jus as i thot that life gng to fail me... i recharge myself agn! yeah~ Finally i have the rite reason to leave HELL forever... i got a job offer le... entering into the residential field... well, many ppl discourage me by telling me how sux residential managing could be... but... ya... i had enuff of commercial buildings shit...

after 2 years spend here at SPC... i'm totally tired of everything... the responsibility is jus too heavy... perphaps its me without enuff of experience, perphaps its lack of a good guidance, perphaps its jus the wrong time, wrong place...

i enjoy looking at building, solve defects, attending to my tenants, attending to my contractors... its nice at times.. seeing how ppl appreciate me, mainly my tenants and contractors... i receive gifts, greeting cards, a frenly smile, sincere words from ppl whom i offer help to... i enjoy myself, able to handle all this without teaching from anyone... but sad to say... no one in the company truely appreciate me... or rather jus tat one sucker who dun appreciate me, insult my capabilities, insult my abilities, and mis-use my smartness... worse, when he's the complex manager of tat site... watever i done, even if my clients, my tenants recognise my efforts, this bloody sucker will jus go spread rumours saying that how lousy i am... He nv wanted to understand my job scope but to insult me of not knowing my work, lack of knowledge of that bloody tenancy system which i had been working on for the past 1 year 10 mths, which no one else in the whole organization know how to use it. Further to all this displease, he even accuse me of not handing over my stuffs properly so as to cock things up... y is he jus so political and narrow-minded, thinking that the whole wide world is jus the same as him!

Oh full of shit... 2 years working in SPC, half a year at PGP... 1st time ever, i seriously hate working to the max! jus becos of one bloody fake old ah neh, becos of his selfish thots, he turn the wkplc into a bloody battle field... can't rmb since when, the topic ard the site is only abt politics and endless politics... asking me to fight for them, fight for myself, to fight against the devil, the way of fighting and jus every thing abt wars... I'm tired, truely tired of all this ppl, all this abt office wars... Everyone were severly injured, u see bleed scattered, death... Whether to pity those who got killed in this battle or to laugh at them for trying to fight...

I becoming abit more racism after all this rubbish... racism against that minority no more den ah neh... my apology, but the sight of neh jus make my blood boil... its jus affect me tat much... the way these ppl FAKE themselves! OH Hell... Human Beings are jus so ugly... they will do jus everything to get thing their way, even to the extend of shedding fake tears infront of superiors! LOL... funny beings... wat is this 50+ year old man thinking abt? to thrash ppl's rice bowl... jealousy? to kill family and live happily in ppl's misfortune? pathetic...

Should i said its a retribution... in life at times, even if certain things are known to be harmful but u jus couldn't get rid of it... i.e. sharks, we knew sharks are horrible creatures, they ate almost everything on earth, they attack human beings even, but still 'save the shark' campaign is on, y? they deserve to die ain't they? but... without sharks, it will kill the entire animal food cycle... another example, Drugs, drugs are harmful, in fact its illegal... but there's jus no way to get rid of it... if governement ban the use of poppy field, imagine the villagers who relay on the harvest for a living... same logic here, jus as that old black man din realize, by killing the sub-bordinates, things cock up and surface out... in e end, he suffer from the risk of been sack for his inability to manage the site...

Human beings are born wif brains, meant for the purpose of thinking and analysing... however, not many of them seems to make full use of its functions...

for wat i had experience in my wkplc...maybe in this life time, not much of them will experience wat i facing now... but well, a miserable yet good experience, at least i been thru the pain, the suffering, it build up my endurance in a way... and make me cherish watever that will come my way in the future...

Thanks god... Bless me wif a better new coming wkplc... after being thru this shitty plc... its seems like no barriers are unlikely to be overcome... And agn, like wat DeSoLo will always said... Thanks for watever and whoever, who play a part in my life, whether its a mispha or a fortuity, they jus make me realize and make me learn, in terms make me stronger.


~ jus a piece of mind to share. for those who have yet to enter the society, dun be surprise, that's jus the real world out there ~

Monday, April 23, 2007

Phantom Maddness

I admit... i Kana the Phantom virus! catch the song broadcast in my bloggie~ its 'all i ask of u' from phantom... haha~ went to catch it wif roy... OMG! one word for it! ULTIMATE! Love it... everything was jus too good to discribe... catch it b4 it ends... its been extended to 20 may and no more... so... dun let this chance fly away! CATCH IT! no regret~ Muack~ nite~

p.s. pray for me... my interviews tml... hope to get into tat down town east offer....

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Damn it!

Freaking pissed... i'm blogging since 3am... and ya~ agn... as usual... this freaking stupid lousy idiotic blogging! Error in saving... and there goes my nearly 2 hr-worth of entry go into the Virtual RUBBISH BIN! SUX! damn it~ so pissed off... and tat stupid 'recover post' function is another pc of SHIT! fuck!

anyway... i hav had alot to blog, a damn bloody lots of pic to be posted... but i'm bloody damn tired rite now, gonna ZZzz... not sure when i'm able to post all those up... ARGH....

Btw... Had my blog skin changed! haha~ am a bloody Narcissist! i admit it~ *muack*

jus one pic to end my entry:

Webby Cammy on 3rd Mar, 2007

-END-

~~~Good-Nite~~~

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Work isn't everything...

Finally, i bk thru myself... i'm in a relax state... i had sent in my resignation letter, whether or not its a wise choice, i dun care, i can't bother it any more... after sending in my letter, i jus so relief... tat blackie been spreading rumors, been commenting behind my back saying how lousy i am and wat so not... i dun care... i dun need his comments, he is no one to made comments on me... but dun ever let mi hear any of it... since its the end, i'll jus shoot out watever i'm not happy wif... cos i dun care anymore...

money is my only concern... hmmm... planning planning planning... life is jus full of rubbish... jus depend on how u clear this shits... and understand that shit will always be shit! haha... well, ppl comment that i couldn't write but den... hmmm... i seriously think tat i couldn't write FORMAL english... my cursing and swearing is still perfect! haha... and ya... i neglect my blogging habit... oh gosh! shit! i should start blogging all over agn...

anyway, i jus watch 'The protege' not long ago... and i tell u, pls watch it, its bloody NICE! haha... i love it to the core... and guess who i'm watching for... it gotta be daniel wu?! ya wrong!!! ITS THAT MAN ~ ANDY LAU... haha... OMG! thou' he act as an bloody old man wif a head of white hairs... but... i jus love him... i jus love his acting, especially in scenes which he is require to be a real ANGRY MAN, shouting and scolding someone until the extend that he's so agitated that his veins shows... like one of his earlier movie 'Long zai bian yuan'... there's a scene which he scream at his 'godbro'... OMG! i jus love tat so much... and u can catch him agn in 'the protege'... OMG! i love him... he had become one of my fav artist... haha... worth watching seriously....

and oh ya, u can't miss out tat lady... hmmm... i dun rmb her name, i guess she's new... her first show... and u can't believe how gd she is... she's pretty and she can act real great! she will sure win one of the watever golder horse award...

obviously the storyline... other den jus another 'non-friction' movie... this show is like a documentary! telling u wats drug, how it come abt, y ppl take drugs, and the simple logic of economic! the demand and supply... there's demand, tat's y there's supply...to blame those drug Traffiker or drugs addict?? and understand tat even if u noe how harmful drugs are but u can nv get rid of it... and watch it to understand human nature... human jus love to blame other substances... like the drug addict blame it on those who supply them wif drugs... and the traffiker blame it on the demand of these drug addicts... so who is rite and who's wrong?

its not jus a movie that is so direct as u see, unlike those watever show, i.e. davinci code and sort... this show is more straight forward that u dun need to guess here and there... but however the art behind is to understand what its teaching... not jus abt 'Drugs are harmful' but abt human beings... ppl take drug out of 'heavenly feel'? NAH~ ppl take drugs out of 'lone' and 'empty'... watch it and u will noe it... hmmm... i mean WATCH and THINK and MAKE SENSE to it... hee~ enjoy~

Monday, March 05, 2007

Exhuasted... Tired...

I'm not doing good these days... really not... dun mistaken, all is abt work and only work...

I'm really exhuasted... my work pressure had affect my personal life... crying all days and nite... couldn't slp well... been falling sick... breaking down every now and den... everyone was like telling me... y? y make urself so troubled, so miserable... afterall its jus work... no pt letting it affect me... true... very true... perphaps am thinking too much... afraid of out of work... but somehow i find myself struggling to work... stay up late even if i'm tired, jus becos i dun wish to slp and wake up to another working day... tat's so hell... i broke down, i scream at my boss, i dare him to get me replaced... but i noe it takes time... and i couldn't wait anymore... should i jus leave? i wish to... but... to leave without a job is a big danger... a discount in my self market value... i dun wish to... i knew by enduring, by staying on... i can learn alot of things... but its too hell to stay on... its been troubling me all this while... thots of leaving, jus wanna take a break of work... do my studies... change of environment, rest my mind... but i jus concern too much of how others will feel, how i had disappoint my clients, they been giving mi chances and helping me... but still, work isn't my everything... i dun wanna carry on my life this way, tat's not wat i wan!

money into consideration... habit of spending... i dun noe how i am to survive without a job, without an income... but really too tired of all these shits...

leaving.... should i be hunting for another job? concentrade on studies while doing some part-time? accept the offer of doing a small biz?

i hav an interview tml... wif SMRT, doing leasing... i dun noe if i wish to be shortlisted... somehow i wish to be, so tat i can resign with a good reason... but i'm tired of working... on the other hand, i dun noe wat is there for me... will it be better or worse?

I spoke to my HR manager, the one who brought me into CPG, asking for a transfer back to NUS... he sound enthus, but he need me to speak to tat blackie as its not nice for him to intercept in between... hence, i spoke to blackie... he will only transfer me out when he get a replacement... and it will roughly take him a mth to find replacement and another mth for me to handover... its hell! 2 mths!!! if i dump my letter, it will take only one mth... and best after one mth, i'm totally out of this shit, whether they got a replacement anot, whether i welly hand over all my stuffs anot... doesn't matters anymore...

the stress level is hell... even my mum begin to encourage mi to leave the job, seeing me crying, depress, falling sick... my mum is a traditional chinese, she sure dun allow me to resign jus like tat but she jus can't bare to see me in this situation... she give me her support... she even come to me and say: "hav u dump ur letter? not yet! do u noe u need one mth notice! if u can't take it den resign, dun keep on holding on to it, and suffer! jus quit and slowly look for a job!"

To think of all this... i should jus leave and hack care everything.... i wanna hear from u guys... should i leave?

Sunday, February 18, 2007

A Real Loser

i jus feel real lousy... I'm turning into a coward... a useless bum...

i'm not who i used to be... i hate myself... i hate life... i hate ppl...

我是個無知﹐無能﹐無聊﹐無趣的垃圾。 或許是我不知廉恥高攀你。 可否讓我能把不捨擱在一旁﹐不要在累人累己。

Maybe i should put up a strong front ... maybe i should isolate myself... maybe i should be fake... maybe i should hide... Maybe i should let go and nv get involve... anyway, i dun look forward in staying alive for long... Can i jus slp forever and nv wake up anymore...

Sunday, December 31, 2006

M.I.A

OMG! can't imagine... my last entry was like more den a mth ago... and ya, here come my last entry for year 2006... some updates of my recent life...

updates:
hav been real bz these days... ya... a short period of MIA... i hav freaking lots of photo to be upload, but... hehe~ no doubt, i'm bz to the extent tat i dun even hav time to blog, hav time for my social life...

bz wif....

  1. Work
  2. School
1. work-
hmmm... how should i put it? A gd news? or rather a bad news? to me, definitly i see it as a gd one... i got PROMOTED!!! but... with no increment... well, pathetic many might think... hmmm... but b4 comments are made, maybe ur should hear me out... ok... after one yr wif CPG @ SPC, finally, i can shake off my 'RECEPT' position... i'm taking over my senior's post as she left the company for another job offer.. ya... promoted with no extra cash to my pocket... but to me, i see it as a learning opportunity, with this experience, my career will advance to a higher stage. A lot of pressure, but lucky enuf, i hav support from ppl who can guide me. As company hav yet to empoly new staffs, the 2 gers are left to take care of 3 person's job. And of cos, as the main contact, i carry a heavier responsibility, hav to ensure things are right and ans to client or higher management... As i'm not technically train, i seems to face difficulties in my tasks. And of cos as wat ur noe, its my 1st job, to gain experience, to build career, require a lot of efforts. And SPC is not a plc for trial and error, even for a beginner like me, i can't take this new assigned task as lightly. To learn fast and settle all outstanding stuffs is critical. And of cos to prove my capability, i expect myself to make it asap and gain trust from ppl above me, believing that i am able to take care of tenancy. its rather a rare opportunity, seldom ppl wif a non-related diploma are able to take up a position of executive in other professional. Another pt, i'm only 21 yr old, still young to fight, still can afford to be paid low as i dun need to support my family, so money is not my main concern for the time being. And most importantly, FUTURE MONEY is more of my concern. no one are able to walk without experience any falls and injuries... i dun see the meaning of getting a gd pay but in a useless job, as in no way for uograde, no way for improvement. perphap sense of achievement is wat i seek for, gaining respect for my hardwork. To see in long term, rather den short term. if short term money is my main concern, i must well drop everything and be a prostitude, easy money and no knowlegde require. i got my pt there...

and ya, things @ work are not stable yet. hence i expect my 1st 3 mth of taking over to be tough. Am prepared to do OT whenever i can, even to go back during holiday... cos i rather hav a short period of suffering, as i noe when i fight for it, i manage to get thing stable as fast, i can start sit back and relax... Jus took over for 2 weeks, and jus too much outstanding stuffs to settle...

2. School -
one of my headache... too much effort/time been spend @ work, somehow i neglect my study... hai... worry... and ya, my tutorial and project... hav to buck up on it...

Tats all... jus hope my frens are able to understand... once all this stuffs get stable and settled, i will definitely catch up wif u ppl... at times in life, apportunity and chances dun come by easy, its up to us to grab hold and make full use of it, gain most out of it.

Thanks.

& to all my darlings...

A LAGI HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

*p.s. recently there's a lot of goat near my wkplc, as u noe its 'Haji'. These goats are to be slaughter in hrs time... hai~ understand tat its their tradition and religion practise, but to see all these live goats in front of my eyes, thinking that all jus can't escape from their fate of been slaughter, i jus can't help it but to feel extremely sad... *sob*...

Sunday, November 19, 2006

I'm Back but Drained



I'm back... hmmm, well, i'm back since sunday nite... haa~ OMG my trip is jus so lagi BUDGET! haha... in total i only spend like S$245 which include all expenses, hotel, transport, entertainment... Crazy... haha~ in another word, i din spend much lah... bought like... 3 pair of sunglasses for myself (i noe i'm mad), 2 bracelets, one mango racerback (ya lah, its MNG agn), one ciggie box for my shu and one surf pants for Roy... and tats all... so miserable rite... nth much to buy lor... cos lao niang been buying authentic stuffs, which over there it cost either same or much higher, so no pt buying wat... and i'm jus trying to save more for my Turi Beach Trip. Gng KL wif fendy and Rafi is always a 'no-need-to-think-too-much' experience... haha~ they noe the plc well enough, they will organise everything, and keep their hotel stay cost at lowest and keep transport cost at affordable price... and ya, clubbing @ KL is a must for fendy! i only went for the 1st nite, too exhuasted to go for the 2nd nite... went to KL hard Rock, surprisingly, i was shock by their live band... OMG... its so so so cool... they can sing R&B either @ the same tempo as the original one or faster den it. And they can RAP well... Latest hits are no problem to them, guess wat, they sing Freign's London bridge! tat's really so cool... and my Lovely PCD's buttons and Don't Cha... and not forgetting BEP's Let's get retarded, hey mama, Pump it... slow one like Ne Yo's So Sick... they even sang that indian R&B all time fav (i forgot the title), OMG! i was like 'WTF! they can even sing tamil song! PIANGZ!' they r so so gd... and ya, a series of Rock songs which DeSoLo not interested in at all... and they really ROX! power lah... i ever went to devil's live band and momo's one, really not as fantastic, but theirs really ROCK! anyway, Been to KL for like 3 times in 1.5 yrs time, i dun really feel much abt this trip...

Gng wif this bunch of dearie abangs, OMG! They are all wearing Sportie Shoes and hell, am wearing heels, thou' not this slim high heels lah... but my feet is suffering... the long hrs of walking ard, make my feets so painful... The ankel is aching and feets' condition become so bad, minor crack heels and corns... OMG! becos of the lack of enuf slp... my whole neck and shoulder is aching... hell! and due to the same result, plus bad weather, skin care insufficient, PMS, i got a terrible pimples outbreak! *sob* A need to pamper myself.. Facial, Massage, Foot Reflex, pedicure, Spa... i need all those... OMG! My beauty... not having enough slp and it totally eat up my beauty & health... not been slping early ever since i finish my exam... even for weekends, waking up early for suntanning session... and weekdays slp at 1am or later, and waking up @ 6am... and worse, KL trip... of cos, u can't expect me to slp my trip thru'out wat... so agn... slping late, waking up early... reach home @ 11.30pm and back to work the next day... ya... catching up wif frens after work and the bad habit of slp late wake early is still on... it tear my health sia! my neck is really so painful these days and not to mention abt complexions and darker eye circles... *cry out loud*

went for a classic mani and pedicure @ bugis village on tuesday. REGRET! take note ppl, dun ever go this shop @ bugis village lvl 2, venus manicure or something like this, nice interior, as if its so pro! located rite at the very end.... quite a big shop.... the look and and real is a total DIFF! FUCK! all the shop assistants are china gers... SHIT! i went there cos i tot it might be gd cos as i said the 'PRO' interior design... and other shop are all not available... sad to say, this shop is even a few bucks more expensive den the others... it cost me bloody $43! if the service is gd and everything, i dun mind... but den... it sux! 1st, the ger who did the pedi for me, dun look frenly, and she's very rough, she accidentally cut my 2nd toe and it bleed...! FUCK! and nvm... i tot a foot scrub is included but no... nvm, it might be my problem, din clarify clearly in the 1st plc... another ger did the manicure for me... she's slow... but well, no cuts, no bleed... den the 1st ger done wif the pedi, she took over the mani... HELL! a total HELL! my left hand is perfectly safe, as its done by the slow ger, but my right hand suffers... she cut my cuticles too deep and it bleeds!!!!! FINGERS! 2 fingers!!! my index and my last finger BLEED!!! and my middle finger also kana! CB... worse! at ard 8.30pm, all the gers left except 2 gers, one is that rough ger. and while doing the manicure, they hav a tiff! and RIGHT INFRONT of ME, CUSTOMER... oh come on, its not very pleasant to argue in front of customer rite... and ya! WHILE DOING MANICURE FOR ME, THEY ARGUING! now u noe y my fingers bleed! fuck! she basically vent her anger on me sia! i was like really pissed off... and i told her 'hello, its BLEEDING AGN!' and she said... "ur skin very skin huh, easily cut.." WOW BIANG! -_-! sweat ah! i sweat i'll nv go back agn... but i appreciate one thing is, she is so angry wif the colleague but she still force herself to smile to me... so... hai... wat to do, i'm a kind and loving soul... but for sure i'll nv go back agn! SHIT!

wed went to BioSkin @ parkway during lunch for my package... i tell u, i love Parkway BioSkin, the lady is so nice! shit, i forgot to get her name... anyway... i was like asking her abt the spa and massage prices... den i bought some facial voucher instead... while making payment, i was like complaining abt my neck ache, den the lady said, "i keep my ger to massage ur neck for u lah"... OMG! for free leh! so nice sia... SHIOK ah... massage liao feel so slpy... *yawn* shiok~ preparing for my coming facial... happening... being a gd ger, go home straight after work... haha

Thur went for foot reflex... and... the noe me! i mean ppl from the shop... haha~ i went there once last mth... and they still rmb me... haha~ giving me a special rate of $27 for foot reflex + hand/plams massage + shoulder + neck + scalp + bavk massage for a rate of freaking $27 only!!! great deal... its @ far east... whoever who is interested, buzz me k!

Fri... went to Balaclava @ suntec with shu, james & frens... btw, james is shu and mi's current cousremate... hehe... full of laughter cos of my inspired of 'big fish, small fish' game... been force to drink some beer and ya! i still hate drinking alcohol... a happy day but somehow i'm not as happy, cos i'm so occupy by some bothering stuffs, cos of a silly man who misunderstood my meaning... anyway, back home @ 12am...

Sat... a miser afternoon i hav... anyway, went over to mich's chalet wif Shu... I love love love such 'gathering'... we always take the opportunity to catch uo wif each other... and met xiu xiang, hmmm... really nice miting her agn... surpricingly we got so many common topics... nice chatting wif and so on... left @ 7am wif shu... and head home...

Thursday, November 09, 2006

While I'm Away



ok... Guys... Be good... i gonna leave for KL tml... 10/11/06 to 12/11/06... Everyone be good... especially my ah shu...guai guai hor... i'll go and see wats there to get for u guys, but... no promise... :p

Stay good, guys... and ya... many others tat i really worry for, my sexy daddy gonnaBe, my 83 ... haha... dun miss me too much... bleh... be rite back~

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Yet another DeSoLoGY - 喜新厌旧



"Life is about Meeting New and Dumping Old?
人类天生的坏习惯是喜新厌旧吗?"



*bare wif it, I'm getting abit Narcissistic these days... :P i been throwing my pics all over my bloggy... hehe~ probably cos of my diagnosis of personal mental disorder (well, i self-declar as a 精神错乱 not 神经病 k... jus abit gila but not CRAZY!)

OMG... hell~ life under dramatic construction... haha~ i sound abit too exaggerate... not as bad as u ppl tot... ya... jus as wat DeSoLo is... emotional, negative, sensitive, fear of pain, she is able to walk out of a painful emotional situation pretty fast... maybe am immune from it... haa... wow~ 说大话... not really immune lah... can walk out fast cos mind stronger den heart... am a follower of mind, perphaps tats the reason y i'm keep on"thinking so much"...

Fated to be in unclear situation... the kind of unclear is like keeping everything unsaid, with alot of bloody hell-like mind game involve... and my dears, am not a gamer k, i dun game! i hate mind game... My mind is for guilding me to the 'no-pain' boundary, not for gaming...

Born wif very bad temper... i dun throw tantrum doesn't means i hav an angel like attitude... very stubborn, i believe there r ppl who experience my stubborness... am impatient... very harsh... harsh in decision i mean... 坏脾气又任性! 真难搞哦! dun ever try me... once my anger get working, my reaction will be out of control, u gotta lose me forever... i dun like been taken as a dummy... like... 把我当成牙签,填补空间, take me for granted. look for me when need me, hack care me when u dun need... i hate this kind of thing! it sux! I dun pester ppl, i dun go after ppl, i dun even approach stranger... so... 搞清楚好吗,是你先招惹我的? piangz...

human being is born imperfect, full of bad habit... like... the one i always say... Selfish and greedy... realizing one more... 喜新厌旧... direct translate: adore new and abhor old... having new stuffs and get tired of old stuffs... meeting new and forgetting old... very pathetic... but... agn... this mistake is all wat human being detest yet commited... haha... to the extend tat at times, stuffs dun means jus non-living things... horrible and ugly being huh... but well, tat all wat human being BORN to be... NATURE~ really... not wat ppl taught u but wat u possess since the very 1st day u are brought to life... sob... 好无奈啊,但这就是千真万确的事实。不在你我的控制防卫内~

currently constructing my life... cut away some of my habits... putting my heart in some other stuffs... resisting the facts tat ppl come and go jus so fast...things are like 一波未平,一波又起, getting far out of control... scary... trying hard to stablizing my conditions... relax...

p.s. will be away for 2 short trips this mth... KL (10/11/06-12/11/06) & Batam Turi Beach (26/11/06-27/11/06)... really SHORT trip, but well! gd enuf le lor~ bleh :p

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

CANCEROUS FOODS / PRODUCTS

"jus one of the email tat i received and wanna share wif u guys... jus
take note of the food/product and lead a healthy life!"


INSTANT NOODLES
Dear instant noodle lovers,
Make sure you break for at least 3 days after one session of instant noodles before you eat your next packet! Please read the info shared to me by a doctor. My family stopped eating instant noodles more than 5 years ago after hearing about the wax coating the noodles - the wax is not just in the Styrofoam containers but it coats the noodles. This is why the instant noodles do not stick to each other when cooking.

If one were to examine the ordinary Chinese yellow noodles in the market, one will notice that, in their uncooked state the noodles are oily. This layer of oil prevents the noodles from sticking together.

Wanton noodles in their uncooked state have been dusted with flour to prevent them sticking together. When the hawker cooks the noodles, notice he cooks them in hot water and then rinses them in cold water before cooking them in hot water again. This process is repeated several times before the noodles are ready to be served. The cooking and rinsing process prevents noodles from sticking together.

The hawker then "lowers the noodles in oil and sauce to prevent the noodles from sticking if they are to be served dry. Cooking instructions for spaghetti require oil or butter to be added in the water when boiling the spaghetti to prevent the pasta from sticking together. Otherwise, one gets a big clump of spaghetti!

There was an SBC (now TCS) actor some years ago, who at a busy time of his career had no time to cook, resorted to eating instant noodles everyday. He got cancer later on. His doctor told him about the wax in instant noodles. The doctor told him that our body will need up to 2 days to clear the wax. There was also an SIA steward who after moving out from his mother's house into his own house, did not cook but ate instant noodles almost every meal. He had cancer, and has since died from it.

Nowadays the instant noodles are referred as "cancer noodles".

SATAY LOVERS (BARBECUE)
If you all eat Satay, don't ever forget to eat the cucumber, because eating Satay together with carbon after barbequing can cause cancer.
But we have a cure for that... Cucumber should be eaten after we eat the Satay because Satay has carcinogen (a cancer causing element) but cucumber is anti-carcinogenic. So don't forget to eat the cucumber the next time you have Satay's.


PRAWNS (SUGPO) & VIT C
DO NOT eat shrimp / prawn if you have just taken VITAMIN C pills!!
This will cause you to DIE in ARSENIC (As) toxication within HOURS!!


PORK AWARENESS
Try this and see whether the pork you bought has worms. There goes with your "Bak Kut Teh" for those who love it. Most men love to eat this so watch out before it's too late. If you pours Coke (yes, the soda) on a slab of pork, wait a little while, you will SEE WORMS crawl out of it. A message from the Health Corporation of Singapore about the bad effects of pork consumption. Pig's bodies contain MANY TOXINS, WORM and LATENT DISEASES.

Although some of these infestations are harboured in other animals, modern veterinarians say that pigs are far MORE PREDISPOSED to these illnesses than other animals. This could be because PIGS like to SCAVENGE and will eat ANY kind of food, INCLUDING dead insects, worms, rotting carcasses, excreta including their own, garbage, and other pigs. INFLUENZA (flu) is one of the MOST famous illnesses which pigs share with humans. This illness is harboured in the LUNGS of pigs during the summer months and tends to affect pigs and human in the cooler months.

Sausage contains bits of pigs' lungs, so those who EAT pork sausage tend to SUFFER MORE during EPIDEMICS of INFLUENZA. Pig meat contains EXCESSIVE quantities of HISTAMINE and IMIDAZOLE compounds, which can lead to ITCHING and INFLAMMATION; GROWTH HORMONE which PROMOTES INFLAMMATION and growth; sulphur containing mesenchymal mucus which leads to SWELLING and deposits of MUCUS in tendons and cartilage, resulting in ATHRITIS, RHEUMATISM, etc.
Sulphur helps cause FIRM human tendons and ligaments to be replaced by the pig's soft mesenchymal tissues, and degeneration of human cartilage.

Eating pork can also lead to GALLSTONES and OBESITY, probably due to its HIGH CHOLESTEROL and SATURATED FAT content. The pig is the MAIN CARRIER of the TAENIE SOLIUM WORM, which is found in its flesh. These tapeworms are found in human intestines with greater frequency in nations where pigs are eaten. This type of tapeworm can pass through the intestines and affect many other organs, and is incurable once it reaches beyond a certain stage. One in six people in the US and Canada has RICHINOSIS from eating trichina worms, which are found in pork.

Many people have NO SYMPTOMS to warm them of this, and when they do, they resemble symptoms of many other illnesses. These worms are NOT noticed during meat inspections.


SHAMPOO
Cancer-causing substance in shampoos. Go home and check your shampoo. Change before it's too late... Check the ingredients listed on your shampoo bottle, and see they have a substance by the name of Sodium Laureth Sulfate, or simply SLS. This substance is found in most shampoos; manufacturers use it because it produces a lot of foam and it is cheap. BUT the fact is, SLS is used to scrub garage floors, and it is very strong!!! It is also proven that it can cause cancer in the long run, and this is no joke. Shampoos that contains SLS: Vo5, Palmolive, Paul Mitchell, L'Oreal, the new Hemp Shampoo from Body Shop etc. contain this substance.

The first ingredient listed (which means it is the single most prevalent ingredient) in Clairol's Herbal Essences is Sodium Laureth Sulfate. Therefore, I called one company, and I told them their product contains a substance that will cause people to have cancer. They said, Yeah we knew about it but there is nothing we can do about it because we need that substance to produce foam. By the way Colgate toothpaste also contains the same substance to produce the "bubbles". They said they are going to send me some information.

Research has shown that in the 1980s, the chance of getting cancer is 1 out of 8000 and now, in the 1990s, the chances of getting cancer is 1 out of 3, which is very serious. Therefore, I hope that you will take this seriously and pass this on to all the people you know, and hopefully, we can stop "giving" ourselves cancer-causing agents.

Please, pass these information.

Friday, November 03, 2006

Predicting Future



If only i'm possess with the ability to see future... If only chances are given... If only i can turn back time...

best if i can do without getting emotions involve... best if i'm in control of myself...

was digging for my this tension's album, happen to hear this song... once i ever so in love wif this song... jus wanna share... enjoy~

Title: 先说再见
Artist: Tension


* 当时我没话可说 两眼无神脑空白
那消息实在来得太快
也可能是我自己太冲动 误解你对这友情的期待

# 爱情像是一场戏 我这出是个悲剧
没演完就有这样的结局 或许是我真的不懂爱情
我还能怪谁 只好怪自己

@ Goodbye my love 我都明白 虽然无奈 还是要看得开
Goodbye my love my love 短暂的爱
或许十年又一天 你才会珍惜这一段爱
你不会明白我心有多痛 心里好痛 Goodbye my love yeah

Repeat * # @

Why does this always happen
I guess it was over before it begin or perhaps
It was never meant to be 只好在今天 Goodbye

先说 Goodbye 我都明白 虽然无奈 还是要看得开
Goodbye my love 不想分开 (短暂的爱)
或许十年又一天 你才会珍惜我 我的爱

Pieces of Me



Born as a sensitive mammal... tat's DeSoLo... i think and think of all things ard me... be it a person, an act or an event... Strong in a way tat i hardly shed tears, independent in a way tat i dun need someone to be beside me all the time.... mentally weak... escaping from facts, escaping from truth... i dun like ppl to lie to me, but i prefer truth to be hidden... unable to accept truth or facts... afraid of truth... many times, truth hav failed me, truth hav hurt me... fear of pain... i run, i escape, not to face it, but i understand no matter wat i do, truth can nv be change... unable to accept it gracefully prephaps...

Mind Imprisoned... i'm stuck in a way tat i can't help it... i can't seems to walk out... its been yrs... I can't help it...

A choice need to be made... but i choose not to face it... undecisive... too many things tat i can't bear to let go... i dun wan to choose, i dun dare to choose... Greedy & Selfish... Uncertainty...

I dun noe wat i wan, i dun noe wat is it tat i'm holding onto... wat should i do? wat i should be done? Unknown...

i sense the changes... i feel tat things are not as gd as b4... Maybe i'm lying to myself to make myself feel better... Maybe i'm acting... I noe myself, i noe where i stand... Dreams & Reality... one day i hav to wake up and i noe... i'll be fine in no time...

i'm walking out... i'm leaving... i noe i'm not patiene enuf, i noe i'm a bit harsh, i noe i'm a quitter... but i afraid tat i'm holding on to the wrong thing, wrong idea, wrong dreams, wrong goals... most of all, i'm afraid of wasting my time, my effort, my true emotions on things tat bring no satisfying returns...

gng thru wat i went thru, i'm sure u will become like me... its nth ez for me to come to the current state where i stand... its beyond imagination...

is it really late? or is it an opportunity? or is it my turning pt?

Libra - its hard for the scale to be balance...

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Sunday, October 29, 2006

On the 19th Oct 06 . . .

well, i noe i'm not been updating my bloggy as often... hmmm... alittle bz, or shall i say i'm jus plain lazy... Shall share abt my recent life den hit onto my blog topic (it got to be a outdated entry agn)...

hmmm... having my exam next sat, i got to like study study and study... URGH... not having gd times wif my new BLACK boss these days... a extremely difficult leceh FAKE old man! fake as in act frenly... agn, these ppl boost abt how gd, how capable he is, tat higher management send him to take over this project... but somehow i wonder higher management gave him these hard to handle project is becos of his ability to turn everything fine or is it trying to chase him away, make him quit his job (and the company dun hav to compensate)... anyway, i been in there for more den a yr... there's nv any big issue, until these days, becos of some bloody ppl (other den black boss, there's another old maid), they miser my days sia.. i freaking feel so not wanting to report to work... They jus simply make no peace in workplc... jus one qns... if u were the manager, will u actually tell ur clients tat one of ur empolyee threaten to quit cos of been force to accept ur client's request during an OFFICIAL MEETING. Oh come on, its an internal issue, clients shouldn't be involve and of cos it will invite unpleasant rumors from the client side and obviously the company's reputation will be affected. Its a LONG story... Afterall, he's jus a very FAKE person, who act as an angel, saying tat he will HELP u but den sabo u and bring up his good name! PUKE!

enuf of him, he will jus dirty my beautiful blog... well... had finish up my assignment wif shu and hav handed it in... relieve... hmmm... been rather gd ger these days, not gng out after work... monday mit for assignment purpose.... tue a stay-in for a public holiday... DULL... well, went to hand up the assignment wif shu and went over to city hall to shop for some stuffs and back home... nth on agn on thurs... and fri, mit 'Ronald', kean's best pal, he jus came back from china... cool... we can actually click pretty well... amazing, nv expect myself to meet great ppl outside my sch and work... haha~ we went for supper, we as in Kean, Ken, 'Ronald', my darling Shu & me... haha... and ya, i forbid myself to eat... no food for me after 6pm... am on strict diet agn... and we crack alot of jokes along the way... haha~ and thanks to the well build of kean's body, which make him look a little gayish thou' he's 100% STRAIGHT, the 2 ger start disturb him... we purposely call him 'SISTER' and said stuffs like 'hey sis, when is our next facial session? The latest Lancome 2 way cake... blah blah blah'... which in term make passerby tot he's really a gay... haha... Anyway, a nice mit up... haha~ and SAT, one of my craziest day... went to work in the morning, together wif juanna, we head Seri's plc to make a hari raya visit... only manage to reach @ 3pm... and wow! mit Gad for a movie @ 6pm... :p i'm late... *blush* haha~ catch 'death note'... its nice! the storyline as well as the lead... wahahahaha~ but the interesting part is abt the investigation of the mysteries... well, expected lah, its made from jap comics... so ya... they r jus full of ideas... Its great... and rush home after movie... hav a refreshing bath and quickly rush down to Parklane Kbox @ 10++pm, mit up my sec sch pals... and ya! its Samantha's bday~ hee... hav a gd nite of singing... ya... nag by buddy Dewei.... complaining tat i giving excuses for suntanning session and blah blah blah... haa... soon, i promise soon... i won't forgo my suntanning for long, trust me... i hate it when i'm fair-skin... and for Mich, get to catch wif her alittle more yest... and ya, sang till 4am and head home... *yawn* and sun, day-in... a Homely day... hehe... oh ya, one of my relative from malaysia is coming over to stay as she found a job in sg... hmmm... i begin to realize how small my house is... hai~ and SHIT! i hate it tat my house hav only ONE miser toilet... which means... we got to queue up for using TOILET! HELL... anyone wanna take mi in?? but... pls do make some space for my ashie boy, my tarepandas, my bone bone, my mashi maro & my mini stinki pillow... haha... ok ok... no kidding, if anyone hav gd plc to rent, do let me noe... helping my relative to get a plc near town area, best if near my plc... *wink*

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Dinner @ Soup Restaurant

shall touch on my dinner last sat... Sis's treat~ haha... To be said as my bday treat but den its actually for PaPa, my sis dote on my dearie daddy alot... yeah... and its for him~

The Yummilicious Chinese Cuisine... DeSoLo Love SOUP... yeah... to mi its one of the most tasty thing which isn't as fattening~ haha~ and ya... the chicken, highly recommended by GGGGGad...
Munch Munch...

Of cos... i won't stop my narcissism... haha... i heart myself alot... and yeah, my new haircut, but i doubt there any changes... length maintain, jus a bit of trimming done... layered them, make my hair more volume...

The BOSS of the day... its on her...

The Old lovey dovey Couple... As loving as usual... jus falling for this kind of simplicity... *muack*

My mummy Heart me lotz... *sweet*

My DaDDy... caught on cam wif mouth full of food....

my ELDER sis... no choice but to state it down cos... everyone tot i'm the elder one! do i really look tat old? sob...

I heart my Mummy Too... thou' she might be a little naggy at times :p... haha~ i love taking pic wif her and get her to make those cutie funny faces... Gee...

Wif my sis agn... haha~ we look alike? do we? hmmm....

MuM & DaD wif nice background... *weeeeee*

Mi agn... actually i wanna take pic of the beautiful background but den... the DiDi sat there and block the nice 'scenery'... Humpf!

Shall end this entry wif a pic of the desert... *drool*

hmmm... ya... i noe its abit BIMBO blogging... haha~ but... (Trina's Slogan) 'I LIKE CANNOT AH!' haha~ anyway, highly recommended to those who luv SOUP and CHICKEN! haha~ *wink*

Monday, October 23, 2006

Post Party Activities

wow wow... am back... back from my bday party... finally... its like so bz...

and thanks to those who came, those who gif pressie, those who help... and ya... especially to SHU & ROY... my 2 dearies, help me the most... love them all... thanks to gad, pat, belle, edwin help me wif the bbq... am really a bad host, i actually get my guest to do bbq for me... so sorry.... thanks to sexy ah kean and horny ah ken, send the drinks down on fri and came on sat... no doubt kean is having a bad hair day, he still attend cos its JESLYN's BDAY! haha~ and ken, he wore lens sia, so yandao wor... and ppl like ramli and raffeeh who came jus to pass mi the pressie and din eat anything... so touch.... and juanna who came after her dinner... and my poly niangs, new pump pump + bf, ben, rizlan, john & ariel... and weixiang, one of my designer who came wif a nicely wrapped up pressie... Thanks to cutie Jen helping me as a entertainer... haha~ and ya! mich and dewei, they and their mangos.... OMG... so many ppl to thanks... jus whoever who attend the party, really appreciate it... am a bad host, many ppl din get to eat the cake... hai~ i dun noe wat my mum was doing, she cut and cut den keep a huge portion in the fridge... well, she tot everyone hav their share... hmmm... i guess its jus too messy... OMG... i din took enuf pic, one of my greatesy regret! SHIT! but anyway, waiting for ppl to send me those pics...

and ya... my pressie... let me show off... PLS... haha~

My 'cam whore' racerback from roy, weiXiang & dexter~! (i noe i look totally hell in the pic! BUT pls FOCUS on the shirt and not the face! wahahaha~)

The addidas watch from ah koon, rafi, fendy & ramli... they bought me the black one actually, i went all the way to tiong bahru to get it CHANGE~

my 2nd watch... actually i went to change it too and top up 100 bucks to get this, my dream watch... jus love it... :p

The Shu Umera Cleanser from my Poly Niangs.... love it to the max!

A ulitmate lovely pressie from a lovely fren, esther... so sweet of her, she's also an anna sui's fan... and so sad, she's outstation, and of no choice she hav to gif my party a miss...

True star GOLD from Kean the sexy and ken the horny... SHIT one lor... i told kean tat i wan True star and not true star gold, but den he showed tat stupid sales girl and she gave him true star GOLD! probably the ger is trying to con his money cos Gold is much expensive... but i still prefer true star! HUMPF!

my 2nd DKNY delicious series from wilson brother... so sweet...

well... i got another 2 bikinis which i haven't hav the chance to take pic of it... actually juanna and mich bought the same bikini for me, so went back and exhange agn... haha~ i did alot of exchanging huh....
hmmm..... others are all CASH CASH CASH... my ang bao!

still waiting for 3 pressie... one from Trinana... all the way from aussie, and it got to be 2 X delivery, as in she sent out the stuffs she bought for me and still one outstanding one, my PCD jacket, haven reach her yet, so she will send it out at a later time... love her, wonder wat she getting for me, a real surprise sia... afraid tat i might drop my tears.... *touch*

2nd one from my dearly ah shu... she gonna get me the New Urban Male racerback? or the bag? or anna sui loose powder? or doll girl on the beach? or gucci envy me? ... hmmm... dun noe which one to grab... haha~

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went over to the pasir ris PA complex on fri noon... ROY went to rent a car during tat period, and he really help me alot... drove the stuffs over and help in the decor and BLOW BALLOONs... i mean PUMP balloons... and Shu came down at a later time with pat and yuan... and not forget kean and ken sent the drinks down in the noon... and gad sent 3 bottles of white wine down in the late evening... couldn't fell aslp for the whole nite, cos darling ash is making so much noise in the middle of the nite... send shu to work and do my preparation... and ya... ppl start coming in... and the usual stuffs happen... eat, chat, cut cake, blah blah blah.... den bid gd bye... haha... end up left only a few of us... and jacob came over at 4am, hav to be awake for the mahjong session as requested... and ya... I DIN SLP! all the way till morning 8am! finally, i got my slp... and... wake up at 10am for wild wild wet session wif roy and shu... OMG! nuts... play till 4pm... went back to chalet, NOPE! no slp... cos... getting ready for dinner, as uncle and aunties coming for BBQ session... and we start playing mahjong agn... end up reaching home ard 1am... OMG! scary... totally exhuasted... wake up on a monday morning, went to get all my pressie change... and mit roy for dinner, after tat accompany him to return the car... tue is a total sch day kinda thingy... jus went to sch and ya... nth much... and wed... i got a dinner treat from Wilson Bro... kua kua kua... catch ah kean @ NYDC... walk ard, grab my New Urban male England racerback... den back home... a few pic to be uploaded... fri, back to my NUS gang of abangs... farewell dinner for Chan @ Keppel railway station... and ya! i got my hair CUT! haha~ Worse of all, i'm out of my mind to actually went to Little india on DEEPAVALI EVE! OMG! thanks to Fendy & Rafi... more of it to come... i went for dinner @ soup restaurant wif family... there will be another entry on it... *wink* Finally SUNDAY, no suntanning~ haha~ god bless... i'm having nice ppl ard me... i totally heart my bday week... So much love and concern... I HEART U GUYS~ *MUACK*...

and ya... counting down to the end of my bday week... i'm officially an O.L.! O.L.=OLD LADY... sob... haha~ ya, i'm been too exaggerate... but HEY! many ppl told me tat once a lady hit 21, she get old very fast... hmmm... as in feel tat times pass a little too fast, faster den expected... that's wat my surrounding ladies told me... :(

anyway... a big *KISS*... thanks everyone who play a part in building who i am today, no matter its gd or bad... haha... loving every seconds of my life... *muack*