ARGH~!!!! suffering frm should-ache.... OMG... guess i din slp well yesterday nite... so wat's happening to mi recently? playing hide and seek... MIA! not been updating my blog... my mood is gng up and down... getting emotional... guess no one noe... only my dearest shumei... still love u the most and no one can compare... she the only one is reserve for mi, when whoever out there were to let mi down.... sorry for not been taking care of myself and make u worry at times... but i noe u still love me as much... miss u really... sound so lesbian huh... but i rather being one, at least its not so emotionally painful...
wat else? i hate to admit tat i'm really sensitive and jealousy... hate myself for being like tat... but its uncontrollable... leave mi if u dun noe abt cherishing mi... awhile ago i'm really in gd mood tat i almost scream my joy out to whoever who passby... but now, i'm lost... lost agn... i dun noe wat i wan, i dun noe wat i'm up to... out of a sudden, i'm like been abandoned by the world... LOST! i can nv trust myself anymore... am i lying to myself or i really not sure wat's happening... totally lost...
recent update... still doing fine... celebrate rafi's bday on the 19th... hmmm~ still as usual, i'm been pamper... but kind of guilty, cos i was there at ard 5pm, and the guys were so bz... din really spend enough time wif my dearest koon, as i hav something on at a later time... the celebration took only less den an hr, koon was off doing his work... when he knew tat i need to rush, he said to mi, 'u not waiting for mi to go home ah...' OMG! guilt guilt~! so sad... he sound so disappointed... :'( i'm so bad... his bday coming, hav to repay him, maybe buying him some yummy food?! haha...
went for some drinking session wif darling shumei... get to noe a few frens of her... wat can i say abt tat nite... hmmm.... as usual... went over to ten gu, saw ah pei, ping and shuzhen... wow! so girly nite... haha... expecting another nite-out wif shumei after her exam, it got to be ard oct... celebrating my bday... *wink*
Got a gd solid scolding (not really scolding lah, nagging maybe) from stephen, for putting his airplane! haha... told him tat i'll be gng over to dxo, and ask him go over and let mi see his 'fishing' skill... but thanks to shumei, we end up not gng to dxo and left stephen wif his fren... OMG! he nag mi like hell... :p lucky he din really angry wif mi lah, cos afterall he caught his fish agn without fail.... planning to hav a dinner, buffet as requested by Mr stephen, and KTV after we got our sept pay... cool~
hav been rather 'guai' these few days... gng home after work, as i felt i really spend too little time for my family and my little ash boi... so gng straight home after work to keep little ash accompany... except for friday, went marche wif juanna and Grace for a gd dinner.... *yummy* again stayed at hoem for the whole of sat nd sun... doing my facial and watever~ got a phone call frm someone frm far far away land... although its a short coversation, but i'm contented... a word to him: "no matter if ur 'someone' is referring to mi or not, i will be gd..." wonder if he will be reading this... btw, i really wish to see ur BOTAK hairdo!!! anxious!!! haha~ but guess it hav to be like 1 or 2 mths time... hai~ anyway, take gd care of urself... i hate to say this and i hate to admit, (" i miss you ").... *goosebump* OMG~ back back back to my daily update... gng over to bugis tml to do my eyebrows embroidery... scary~!
wat a long rubbish post i hav today... its so wordy!!! haha~ wonder who bother to read through~ haha~