战神

Jus finish watching the whole series of 战神... wat can i say... one great show to catch... not much abt bike racing as wat the cover show... but this show deal mainly wif the kind of evil that we have which in fact we dun noe others are having the same thinking as us... a great show for me in a way lah, i kind of see the link between my tots and the kind of thinking the character have... of cos, the love story between the 2 main lead... it might be wat gers jus wish of... the sacrifices and reassurance, make it unlike other shows, which u will curse and swear at the main lead for not able to express themselves, saying wat they wan to each other... However, the story line will make ur brain crack, challenge ur mind...

talking abt the artists, zai zai, really worth watching... this time rd, he is no longer tat 《流星花园》的 '類' who speak softly, seldom laugh, quiet and prince look... unlike 《贫穷贵公子》 where the poor '太郎' can get so bloody excited over $1 coin... now in 战神, vic actually act as a playboy cum gangster, 零, the typical yandao ah beng where u can find in sch... riding a bike everywhere he go, as all the female classmate go gaga over him... an ultimate playboy who go steady jus for the sake of sex, flirting ard wif gers... and i can definitly say, he look/act so differently from the 2 previous series, and of cos an improvement seen... the only problem is still his language, okay... not everyone is perfect, so dun expect... but i really hav problem catching his words... haha~

for Da S, hmmm~ she act as a ger (绮锣) who is strongly affected by her past experience that made her unable to communicate wif other, a very weak and soft lady, who keep quiet even if others try to bully her... in this show, Da S were to act as a very soft-spoken quiet ger, which is completely differ from '杉菜', where she will protect her fren in all means... This time rd, she is the one been protected...

nice show to catch anyway...

here's one of my fav song from the show...

歌曲：说爱我
歌手：梁一贞 专辑：战神插曲

我的眼睛并不向往另一片天空

禁止进入爱情是我说的

谁也听不见这种孤单真可怜

多爱一次就多些寂寞

你为什么还是不懂我要的自由

一句话就让你离我远了

别让我以为快乐最后会粉碎

人最孤单的时候绝不会掉眼泪

说爱我在我的耳边对我说

我已经真的太久忘了这种心动

爱太难了解了我们还看不懂

那一些心酸快乐有多少还很真呢

说爱我用你的手心温暖我

就算你不能证明爱我能爱多久

我知道你想躲我要的并不多

一起看天空好吗最后一分钟

一起看天空好吗最后爱我

说爱我

Uncertainty Ahead

too much uncertainty... at times, i dun really noe wat am i doing here on earth... my dreams? my goals? If one day i were to be call home by god and goddess, anything that i can't let go? anything that i will miss? anything tat i can't bear to leave behind? will i argue that i hav not been through wat i should, not the time to go yet..? will i...? for now, i think death is not a way out, to commit suicide or wat is jus a irresponsible chilish tots....for in, god dun wan u yet... imagine when u try to get into somewhere u dun belong to, normally ppl will chase u out... same goes to heaven... heaven won't entertain ppl who try to go in without permission, without been invite...

To be call home by god, mean a relieve from all unwanted... Heaven is a plc for good ones... its always gd to be wanted there... Fear, fear of death, wat there to fear of? an unknown plc one will be gng to... i'm fear too, fear the pain that i'll go through before death step in... To die peaceful is a bless indeed... see the amount of ppl who died quietly, beautifully... will i be one of those? When will i be wanted? I'm waiting and i'm counting my days toward god... Earth is close to hopeless... human - mind are stained, tots are dirty, breath stink and heart are cold... Being a human being is difficult, being a women is even worse...

ok~ tat's all abt death... y do i come to this out of sudden and also get my blog back to this suicidal skin~ nth abt wanting to commit suicide cos i alway tot tat commiting suicide is a selfish act and definitly not a way to escape frm trouble~ all i ask for is jus god to bring mi away... actually, its nth unsual abt me... cos if u really noe, i had this thinking since sometimes ago... life dun appear to be tat wonderful for me... nth in this earth is tiggering mi to continue... life had become so worthless...

Life still goes on

Finally, get my blog back to wat it use to be...

many things happen lately... not worth mentioning at all... but surprisely, even i myself dun understand how i manage to put all these aside jus so fast... not tat it din affect me but in deed it affect me so much... jus tat i choose not to say, not to show... but still i'm not totally alone... there's still ppl ard who noe everything... memories still haunt me as usual, wound still hav not recover fully... but life goes on... maybe going into a diff way... stronger again, but a little more timid again... mindset change, thinking change... its still better to be alone perphaps... and i guess i need no one to fill up my empty space anymore, i dun noe abt future, but at least not at the moment...

a no. of things happening recently... good and bad... not to mention abt the bad ones... celebrated my bday wif gao mei, pei, they all... a very wonderful day, something which i nv expect so much... pampered by my buddy brothers... ah kai, siquan, singing songs for me... not to forget wee and my little 'an zai'~ took a couple of pic wif pei and shu... gonna post it at a later time....

took 2 day mc on my bday... mit up wif rafi and fendy on my bday for dinner at a turkrish restaurant @ shaw... nice food but! ulitmate full~ always trying new food wif fendy and rafi ard... den mit up wif tim the day after... after much influence and consideration... i bought a set of tarot! still at beginner stage! working hard on it... took a pic of my darling cards, gonna post it up soon... and am into wicca, doing my self-study on it... been hanging out wif tim recently, jus alot to share wif him i perphaps... was doing cleansing ritual on our tarot at east coast some times ago... checking out on each other's reference book and cards and having some discussion at ECP mac... was searching for someone to do reading on him/her, so i can look at how others interpret... den a grp of guys walk past and one of them actually look in and seem so interested... so i jus ask him to come in and join us... jus so, we made frens... cool~ nv expect to gif strangers reading and making fren at such places and under some situation... cool~ haha... not to go into details abt the readings...

mit up wif wilson for lunch at suki, realize tat all my fren made there had been transfer out... so sad... will not go back like how i do last time liao... mit up wif tim again last sat, this time rd, i'm doing reading for my teacher... i so call succeeded... can sense tat my tarot is improving... satisfy wif my result...we do reading, toking abt some paranormal issue, and some life experience and ya... get to noe his fren gerald and through him i found some BIG SECRET!!! haha... his fren left us 1st, and the 2 of us jus chat and so on all th way till 7am!!! when i got home, my mum jus woke up and comment tat i'm coming home so "EARLY"... haha~

mit up wif fendy and rafi again to beach rd for soup dulan, this time rd, asharf and amizan were wif us too... after dinner, we went over to geylang serai to jalan jalan... OMG! plenty of ppl sia... ultimate crowded... scary! i went there almost every lunch time, but i nv experience such crowd b4... scary! after jalan, go over to orchard tp mi up wif tim and mun.. went to catch exorism of emily rose... nice show! with the mobile bible, tim, wif us... clear our doubt while watching the show... den mit up again yesterday... was suppose to catch a movie but call off the idea as not much show to watch liao... go for dinner den slack ard... tok cock all the way... bought a jisaw, libra... very nice... love being born under libra.... if i were to tell everything in detail, guess i'll hav to spend days typing...