sometimes i dun understand wat so gd abt being attached... maybe jus a shoulder to lean on, or a shield to block u frm all watever comes ur way... or maybe jus not independent enough... anyway, for the time being, at my age, i dun really see a needs in relationship lah.. i mean for mi lah... for others i dun care and i dun noe... anyway... i dun need relationship to keep mi company... gng out wif who, where, no one restrict... being in an relationship is of too much commitment... no offends to those who are attach... but come on lah, some do admit tat wat i say is true... afterall, its not a shame to admit tat u r not independent enough wat! pros & cons lah i shall say...
commitment is something tat i really scar of... i'm not ashamed to tell all readers tat all my gd frens are all guys! cos i myself think tat i can't really communicate wif gers lah... maybe some older one, like those tat had been through alot and mature thinking, married one who hav really so much to share... like who? fazli's wife lor... ok... i shall say women... for those of my age... hmmm... dun noe.. maybe all too bz into looking for relationships, thinking tat love is their everything... i mean i'm trying to be frank lah... tat's wat i mean wat! back to topic... all my fren as in close fren are all guys... like, wilson, dewei, pat, my sec sch side... like, mun hong, tim, my kind of poly side... like, raffeeh, fazli, koon, fendy, my working side... i'm sure no guys can take it, having a ger who has only so many guy frens... and no doubt, i won't give out on my frens for tat guy! serious! i trash my own chance @ times cos i see no meaning in giving out so many gd things for one person... childish tots u might think?! but not... cos only if u grow up a little more den u will realized... frens are still as important... nice ppl are hard to find... those ladies who experience alot of things will definitly agree wif mi... spending too much time wif their love, concern her commitment wif tat special someone, and neglect frens... and when things happen, they r all alone! regret, even my own sis were sharing these wif mi... telling mi tat she really regret to spend all her time wif her love and neglect frens... and she felt lonely... sometimes she do envy mi having so many programs after work, weekends, gatherings...
this is jus me lah... be open-minded to watever i said... no meaning to offend anyone out there, jus my tots and thinking, jus me... as usual, i am who i am... accept mi as who i am... cos we live life for ourselves and not for others, so love mi as who i am... dun expect mi to change jus for the sake or anyone... if u wan mi to change, i am not who u looking for...
p.s. still wondering had i made the rite choice! i choose to hav no commitment rather den a should to lean on... commitment is jus too heavy for mi to handle...