after reading reading... i hav so many to say, but forget it... it doesn't matters... blame who? blame everyone, we r all toking abt blaming... i'm to blame, cos i'm too aggitated... i do things without considering... i choose not to face it only until Trina strike me tat day... in fact, i doubt i will ask u out for a tok if Trina din fire me tat hard tat day... i doubt i'll be toking to mh, try to understand him a little more, if things like this dun occurs...
As for Trina, u wrong ah! wrong in knowing me lor... haha~ regret? no rite?! so u oi bi... wahahahaha~ i so mean to trina sia! haha~ anyway, like i told u, a frenship must hav some disagreement, some major or minor argument to proceed to a higher stage, it jus depend on if we able to move on or bk it... and here, we move on and get better... knowing Trina will go crazy if we dun listen to her advice and yet pestering her, knowing jeslyn will runaway from things and nv take the initiative and agn isolate herself, her tots...
For u, my angel dustbin... haha~
For mh, u wrong for not saying wat u been thinking... everytime when things happen, u run, u act as if u dun care but deep inside u do care alot, it do affect u alot... u hide and u act, we tot that u nv care, and so we dun ask either... and worse, when i ask u say not us... So in the future, dun everything hide, everything act as if dun care, not happy, jus say... we accept wat u say and u accept wat we say... den our frenship can improve mah... rite?!
For mystige, the 3 youngters... hey ppl, mystige is form as 3 person, Sher, Dallas and Roy... y add more ppl in? if more ppl added in, its not mystige anymore... and some more, i doubt we can be in mystige, respect mystige, cherish mystige, love mystige as ur do... so y add us in? like me and trina, we name ourselves dustbin, even if how gd Trina were wif jocelyn, how gd i were wif Belle, we still won't ask anyone of them to join us... cos dustbin sis is jus trina and me, jus 2 person... its enough, can't be added and can't be lesser... even one day i fall out wif trina, still no one can replace dustbin sis... it can vanish but nv be replace... see... the more ppl u add in, the grp get more messy, and we r not connected by blood, we may fall out anytime, u nv noe, now ppl coming in and leaving, makes the grp so unworthy... u noe... u like u join, u dun like, u leave, no respect... and hence, i strongly feel that mystige should jus be the 3 of ur and no one else... and of cos, ur hav more chemisty among each other, noe how to communicate and mystige can be more meaningful and respectful... So stick to 3 ppl, make mystige uniquely urs and urs only...
ya, tat's all i wanna say... anyway, we learn from fault... learn frm wat we done wrong... i need not go ard explaining myself, cos no pt, as long as ppl who i cherish understand me, even the whole world were to turn me down, it doesn't matters... i dun noe since when, i nv hate myself anymore, and i love myself even more... even u, dislike urself, how ppl will think of u? u can't even accept urself, how u wan ppl to accept u... respond to the call of change and rebirth, tat's wat i read from my tarot... i responded, i tok to mh, i open to him, telling him how i tot of him... try to understand... change... it depend on if u wanna respond to it... is ur apologise true or jus trying to make everyone happy... its not a battle, not a fight, no winner, no loser, if its solve, it will be only winners, like mi and trina... if its not solve, there's only loser... apologising doesn't helps... written are dead... like when u type in msn, somehow u feel distance, but when u speak on the fone or face to face, u feel closer... i said wat i wanna said... i dun noe how i gonna face u, maybe as time passes, when we slowly forget abt the past, we can really tok...
We all share something in common, we dislike ourselves at times, but agn, learn to love urself first k! **smile**
i jus ate a vegetarian dumpling... so yummy... haha~